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Archive for April, 2019

How do we know?

Spring                                                                                 Rushing Waters Moon Kate was in the dentist’s chair for 3 hours. Four crown preps. All that drilling. Exhausting. She has temporaries on now. May 13 she gets the actual crowns. Much shorter visit. Snow much less than predicted. Maybe 3 inches rather than a foot. Weather5280 reeled back their forecast, but we still […]

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Long. Strange.

Spring                                                                      Rushing Waters Moon We hit month 7 since Kate’s bleed yesterday. (To quote the Grateful Dead.) Procedures and imaging. Trips to the emergency room. Trips to doctors. The gradual shift in roles at home. Things have gotten clearer, some solutions have appeared, but nothing certain right now. I remember saying to Rabbi Jamie in […]

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Yet more

Spring                                                                                Rushing Waters Moon Asked Kate yesterday how she feels about my cancer reemergence. “It’s not real to me yet. I’m still dealing with my own stuff.” Yeah. She’s got a lung diagnosis yet to be made and an assessment of her viability for surgery. The current plan, to have a lung biopsy and the […]

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At the Jabbok Ford

Spring                                                                      Rushing Waters Moon Phone call today from buddy Tom Crane. In referring to the current kerfuffle within my body, those cancer cells, he said I was “wrestling with a dark angel.” That is so. Yet what it called to mind was one of my favorite biblical passages, one I’ve written about here before and […]

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Optimism

Spring                                                                          Rushing Waters Moon Took Kate out for errands yesterday. Doesn’t sound like a big deal, but it is. She went into the goldsmiths and got a new battery for her mercury dime-faced watch. I parked, came in and found her looking at wedding rings. Well, replacement wedding rings. After 29 years she has misplaced […]

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A Difference Maker for My Heart

Spring                                                                              Rushing Waters Moon Back to mussar yesterday. First time in quite a while. It was a gift, as was the minyan for Debra Copes’ mother’s memorial the night before. Odd though, in both instances. I find myself an insider and an outsider. There is no question that Beth Evergreen accepts both Kate and me. […]

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Sigh

Spring                                                                     Rushing Waters Moon Cancer seems to move the wheels of medicine a bit faster than other things. My axumin scan will happen on May 14th. A radioactive molecule of an amino acid, leucine, cancer cells take up axumin “avidly” according to Blue Earth Diagnostics. PET scans can observe this activity through gamma ray emissions. […]

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No to impeachment

Spring                                                                             Rushing Waters Moon Jupiter hangs west of the Rushing Waters Moon while Antares sits below it, also to the west. Black Mountain has a faint reddish glow as  dawn sun pushes up the Shadow Creek valley. In this light our lodgepole pines look lush, a vibrant healthy green against the red-tinted Black Mountain. Another […]

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Sprinting Through

Spring                                                                         Rushing Waters Moon Slept fine. Had this soothing scene as the evening faded into night. Learned that the Progoff workshop is on. I need it even more now. The Colorado years have been tough in health and Jon related matters. I need to pull back and look at my life, learn from it, make […]

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Over the weekend

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