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Suspended

Spring                                                               New Shoulder Moon Still not home. I went over yesterday after lunch only to find Kate struggling to eat a bite of a bacon sandwich. She couldn’t keep that down, water either. Extremely unpleasant for her. Kate hates nausea. When I went in yesterday, the busy M-F buzz of the hospitals had disappeared. There […]

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Relieved

Spring                                                                             New Shoulder Moon Update. Just spoke to Kate. Feeling much better. Home after lunch sometime. I’m heading in around noon. Relieved.

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Kate Still At Ortho Colorado

Spring                                                                            New Shoulder Moon Kate had break through pain yesterday and nausea that they couldn’t control well. So, she’s still at Ortho Colorado. Plenty uncomfortable, but problems that seem, at least to me, manageable. Unpleasant sequelae from the meds and the cutting. I imagine she’ll come home today. Still convinced this was the right thing […]

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Rituals of the Medical Kind

Spring                                                                               New Shoulder Moon No Kate in the bed last night. Kep was there, though. Medical procedures upend regular life in so many ways. Kate had to stop most of her meds, use special cleansing soaps, sleep on clean sheets (yes, that was a requirement), stop eating. Then we have to leave our home, drive […]

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Resilience

Spring                                                                    New Shoulder Moon As one of Dr. Agronin’s youngest informants said, even when physical decline and losses restrict one’s options, there remains the capacity to appreciate and approach each day with a sense of purpose. “It’s all about how you frame what you have,” she told him. He cites the concept of “positive aging” […]

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Regress to advance

Imbolc                                                                             New Shoulder Moon “All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.” – Anatole France The last letters of the Hebrew alphabet now have renderings in sumi-e, lying on my table ready […]

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Friend and Family

Imbolc                                                                New Life Moon Remember that deep muscle ache I got during my session for a new workout? Well, it’s not gone. If I didn’t have a collection of good pain meds, it would be interfering with my sleep. On my second visit to On the Move Fitness, their usual pattern to ensure I have […]

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Reconstructing

Imbolc                                                                     (New Life) Moon 71 times Valentine’s Day and I have shared a moment. This was a quiet one, a good one. Decided I would cook Kate a special meal. In all our years together I’d never done that. It felt great. Went to Tony’s Market (upscale groceries, great meat). Bought a ribeye and some […]

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Shoulder, Trees, Writing

Winter                                                                         Imbolc Moon Hippity hop to the ortho shop. Kate’s got an appointment at Panorama Orthopedics today. Her right shoulder. She can no longer hold things up with her right arm and has to use two hands to put dishes away, sometimes to lift a cup. Annoying and painful. Screws up her sleep, too. She […]

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Yesterday

Winter                                                                              Moon of the Long Nights The nearly full moon lit up the snow outside our bedroom last night. Soothing, gentle. This one presides over the longest nights of the year. Two of our females had imaging work yesterday. Rigel got an x-ray, looking again for cancer since she has continued to lose weight in […]

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