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Not Getting Easier

Samain                                                                       Thanksgiving Moon Learned from Elisa, my astrologer, that the Hebrew word for dog is kelev, like the heart. Lev means heart, not in a physical sense, but as the mind or spirit. Not sure, but kelev might mean something like, a dog embodies the spirit of a human. This came up when Elisa spoke […]

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Long

Samain                                                                         Thanksgiving Moon 15 degrees here on Shadow Mountain with a light, fluffy snow falling. Hard. Could be as much as 8 inches. Let it snow! First full day yesterday without SeoAh and Murdoch. SeoAh texted last night and said they’d made it back home. Kate’s feeling a little low. Her stomach has been giving […]

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Adversity and Gratitude

Samain                                                                      Healing Moon Kate’s recovery got started under the waxing healing moon. Her weight gain will, I hope, get an equal boost under the waxing Blue Moon which starts tomorrow. She’s doing so much better, still weak and often tired, she’s eating more, smiling, bustling around a bit. The trough of recovery from the bleeds […]

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Incognitum

Fall                                                                     Healing Moon Another of life’s inflection points. I want to consider it, honor it, respond to it, but I’m having a hard time. Just too tired. And, I feel guilty about that. Like somehow I should be able to just power my way through and get back to the usual. Which is unrealistic. Certainly […]

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Oh

Fall                                                                              Healing Moon “Everyone experiences stress and anxiety at one time or another. The difference between them is that stress is a response to a threat in a situation. Anxiety is a reaction to the stress.”  adaa Finally figured out my life over the last three weeks or so. I’ve been telling people I haven’t […]

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Let Down

Fall                                                                                 Healing Moon I missed seeing Kate yesterday for the first time since that Friday when we went to the Swedish Hospital’s E.R. And, I missed seeing Kate. Odd experience yesterday. I led an exercise that involved body outlines I made from this template. (they actually looked better than this picture might suggest.) The kids […]

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The Blues

Lughnasa                                                                      Harvest Moon The blues follow me right now, the season of the coming darkness reflecting itself in a slight spiral downward, not too far, but enough to shadow my feelings, make me want to duck and cover. I’d forgotten, as we will about pain, that though the gradual darkening of the days excites me, […]

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I have been myself

Lughnasa                                                                           Harvest Moon Friday was a domestic day with laundry and groceries, a workout. Saturday was one of those days when I couldn’t get traction, took two naps, felt tired all day. In the afternoon, after an email from friend Mark Odegard featuring a sumi-e youtube video, a friend of his showcasing some of his […]

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The Weekend

Lughnasa                                                                              Waning Summer Moon Up and out the door too early yesterday to write, too tired when I got home around 5:30. A long day. An education training session at Temple Emmanuel in Denver. A huge building, lots of cash there. Flowing cut stone for an outer wall, inside modern metal sculpture, lots of wood, […]

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Comfy chairs, Elk, Feeling Dull

Lughnasa                                                              Waning Summer Moon Selling out wall to wall for remodeling! How could we resist? Kate needed a comfortable chair, the old and worn Swedish model no longer matches up with the curve of her back and her head lowered by shrinkage in her spine. We found one at the Stickley sale, not another Stickley […]

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