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Dark Vessel Rising

Winter                                                                                    Waxing Moon Encountered something yesterday, a dark vessel that rose up from 33 years deep. Grief. I’d forgotten. When I lost my hearing in my left ear at the age of 39, it happened suddenly. Over a period of six months it waned, then was gone. At the time I was doing a bible […]

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Hark, The Herald Angels Sang…

Winter                                                                                    Stent Moon Happily in pain.    2016 Not long after my December 1st, 2016, knee surgery, I had an odd moment. It was Hanukkah. Gabe and Ruth were plowing through their presents, and I sat on the couch, my leg up and some combination of pain meds circulating, morphine and oxycontin, I think. Ruth lit […]

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Ensouled or Disenchanted or…?

Samain                                                                           Stent Moon Astrology is a thicket of wild claims, unjustified certainty, and intriguing utility. Sorta like religion. In my reading so far I’ve found sensible, modest intellectuals who lean on the utility, using this ancient discipline (Mesopotamian in origin.) to promote self-knowledge. I’ve also found, as you might expect, a number of at least […]

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When the moon is in the 7th house…

Samain                                                                         Stent Moon Mercury retrograde. Elisa said this would be a time when I would remember my dreams. I have recalled some, definitely more than usual. I’d also reassess my life, letting new things in, chucking the no longer useful. Well. Over the last month plus I’ve read a lot, and I mean a lot […]

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Not Getting Easier

Samain                                                                       Thanksgiving Moon Learned from Elisa, my astrologer, that the Hebrew word for dog is kelev, like the heart. Lev means heart, not in a physical sense, but as the mind or spirit. Not sure, but kelev might mean something like, a dog embodies the spirit of a human. This came up when Elisa spoke […]

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Long

Samain                                                                         Thanksgiving Moon 15 degrees here on Shadow Mountain with a light, fluffy snow falling. Hard. Could be as much as 8 inches. Let it snow! First full day yesterday without SeoAh and Murdoch. SeoAh texted last night and said they’d made it back home. Kate’s feeling a little low. Her stomach has been giving […]

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Incognitum

Fall                                                                     Healing Moon Another of life’s inflection points. I want to consider it, honor it, respond to it, but I’m having a hard time. Just too tired. And, I feel guilty about that. Like somehow I should be able to just power my way through and get back to the usual. Which is unrealistic. Certainly […]

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Oh

Fall                                                                              Healing Moon “Everyone experiences stress and anxiety at one time or another. The difference between them is that stress is a response to a threat in a situation. Anxiety is a reaction to the stress.”  adaa Finally figured out my life over the last three weeks or so. I’ve been telling people I haven’t […]

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Let Down

Fall                                                                                 Healing Moon I missed seeing Kate yesterday for the first time since that Friday when we went to the Swedish Hospital’s E.R. And, I missed seeing Kate. Odd experience yesterday. I led an exercise that involved body outlines I made from this template. (they actually looked better than this picture might suggest.) The kids […]

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I have been myself

Lughnasa                                                                           Harvest Moon Friday was a domestic day with laundry and groceries, a workout. Saturday was one of those days when I couldn’t get traction, took two naps, felt tired all day. In the afternoon, after an email from friend Mark Odegard featuring a sumi-e youtube video, a friend of his showcasing some of his […]

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