Samhain \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0Moon of the Winter Solstice<\/p>\n
Like many folks I’ve walked my annual physical slowly toward December 31st. \u00a0Only paid for once a year and it has to fall on or after the last one. \u00a0Don’t recall how long it took, but I’m now up to December 17th.<\/p>\n
The result. \u00a0I get my physical and my lab tests back just before the New Year. \u00a0So. \u00a0I read them. \u00a0They’re like an empirical astrological chart. \u00a0In their patterns lie the future. \u00a0Of my body. \u00a0I can see the faint outlines now of the hammer that will probably deliver the fate of the gods. \u00a0And it’s not what I imagined.<\/p>\n
Each time I get the feedback from my physical I have to give up, at least for an hour or a day or a week, that magical sense we all have that, despite substantial evidence to the contrary, we will be the one, the first one, yes, but the one, that will just skate on out of here alive.<\/p>\n
The data from my physical proves that I am flesh and blood, heir to all the flaws and weaknesses of the body. \u00a0And more. \u00a0That I am not someone else, not some free floating life form, skimming just above the small hooks and lines the world throws out to hold us down. No. I have a high glucose reading. \u00a0My cretanine is up. \u00a0But the cholesterol numbers? \u00a0Wow. \u00a0Blood pressure? \u00a0Fine. \u00a0There are other little ticks and creaks in the fabric of my vehicle.<\/p>\n
You know that right? \u00a0Each Hindu god or goddess has a vehicle. \u00a0Their feet never touch the earth. \u00a0They do skim above the hooks and lines carried by Nandi or Garuda. \u00a0I suppose, back to the incarnation post of a week or so ago, that we might each be gods, carried above the surface of samsara by this fleshly vehicle. [I should say that this is the exact opposite reading of samsara from Hinduism and Buddhism. \u00a0In these belief systems the bodies senses are the hooks and tethers that keep us chained to this world.] Riding on it like Vishnu on Garuda. \u00a0In this case, maybe I will float on, wash away from here and into the Brahma or into the heavens or perhaps crawl back on the wheel for one more ride in one more vehicle.<\/p>\n
I suppose it could be.<\/p>\n
But I can tell now that this one has fatal flaws. \u00a0Turns out it’s just like everybody else’s.<\/p>\n
Final thought. \u00a0When my physical finally gets scheduled for December 31st, is my time up?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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