Beltane\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Full Dyan Moon<\/p>\n
Kate can tell when I begin to submerge, move below the surface of day to day contact.\u00a0 I become short, irritable.\u00a0 She gets the feeling of walking on egg shells.\u00a0 By the time this happens I’m not in touch with my effect on the outside world.\u00a0 Distraction and self-absorption reign.<\/p>\n
She brings it up.\u00a0 We talk.\u00a0 Today I said, “I’ve moved into melancholy.”\u00a0 The distance between closed.\u00a0 We both know this journey and its dark side.\u00a0 I ate my chirashi and she her teryaki bento box.<\/p>\n
“What precipitated it?”<\/p>\n
“I have no idea.\u00a0 Chemicals, I think.”<\/p>\n
“No. Wait.\u00a0 It began, I think on Hilton Head.\u00a0 Maybe it was the weather.\u00a0 I now that sounds absurd, but then, I know it happens, too.\u00a0 Gloomy outside, gloomy inside.”<\/p>\n
“I love you.”\u00a0 Said with the grasp of both the condition and the afflicted.\u00a0 Therapy in their own right.<\/p>\n
Otherwise, the day had bees and money.<\/p>\n
Mark Nordeen came over and we popped the top on the second hive.\u00a0 Lotsa bees.\u00a0 Took a long while to get the smoker going.\u00a0 The smoke calms them down.\u00a0 They stop flying, go back into the hive.<\/p>\n
The top hive had brood on several frames and the number of bees has tripled at least.\u00a0 There were three queen cups and I got to see exactly what they looked like.<\/p>\n
“If you ever see a queen cup that has a queen in it, don’t knock it off.\u00a0 That means they’re about to swarm and you’ll need the second queen for those who stay behind.”<\/p>\n
We moved the bottom hive on top because there had not been as much work done down there and we wanted to encourage more frames filled with brood.<\/p>\n
Later in the morning we saw our cash-flow adviser.\u00a0 We’ve done very well and continue to\u00a0 do so, but as we move to retirement she says there is a big trick to moving from paid employment to retirement income.\u00a0 In the case of Kate we’ve been lucky to have her producing large quarterly bonuses which have enabled us to do many different things:\u00a0 dogs, permaculture, long trips.\u00a0 After retirement, those kinds of bumps in income will disappear and we have to decide how to deal with that.\u00a0 Turns out cash is the primary tool, having lots of it in liquid investments like CD’s, bonds or money market.<\/p>\n
The moral here is that no matter how you feel, life goes on.\u00a0 Decisions have to be made.\u00a0 Bees need care.\u00a0 The garden goes through its season.\u00a0 There is something reassuring to the constancy and permanence of natural change.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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