{"id":51231,"date":"2019-08-09T05:50:03","date_gmt":"2019-08-09T11:50:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=51231"},"modified":"2019-08-09T07:52:49","modified_gmt":"2019-08-09T13:52:49","slug":"and-then-there-was-one","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=51231","title":{"rendered":"And then, there was one"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Lughnasa and the Moon of the First Harvest<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"alignleft is-resized\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/08\/cancer-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-51233\" width=\"124\" height=\"124\"\/><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Awake at 3 this morning. Now that&#8217;s roughly 7 hours of sleep from my 8 pm bedtime, but still earlier than I&#8217;m used to. Same feelings as the last day of finals. Or, the day of a big event like a wedding or graduation. A bit wired, something momentous is about to happen in my world. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Was not expecting to have this much of a feeling response to the end of radiation, or, at least not this kind. Relief, yes. A sense of completion, yes. But, graduation? Which is the closest analogy. No. Why would I have an anticipatory feeling like that? I&#8217;ve not accomplished something personally. I got cancer. Took my treatment options and have followed one of them out to the end.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"alignright is-resized\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/08\/cancer-black-hat2.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-51234\" width=\"292\" height=\"170\"\/><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Patty asked me what I was going to do to celebrate? Go to the Black Hat Cattle Company, I said. When I said it, it felt inadequate, but it&#8217;s what I&#8217;ve got right now. I&#8217;ve not had much red meat over the last seven weeks, much less than usual, so I&#8217;ve got a hankering for steak. Maybe something else will occur to me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"alignleft is-resized\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/08\/cancer-hotflashes.gif\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-51235\" width=\"172\" height=\"231\"\/><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Yesterday afternoon during my nap I had a hotflash that woke me up out of a sound sleep. It was the most intense so far. I&#8217;ve had milder ones, prickly heat on the scalp, face, back of the neck. This one left me tired afterward. Kate said, oh yes, that&#8217;s part of it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>As the radiation winds down, it seems that the Lupron is choosing to wind up. Oh, joy. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Lughnasa and the Moon of the First Harvest Awake at 3 this morning. Now that&#8217;s roughly 7 hours of sleep from my 8 pm bedtime, but still earlier than I&#8217;m used to. Same feelings as the last day of finals. Or, the day of a big event like a wedding or graduation. A bit wired, &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=51231\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">And then, there was one<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[60,3967,127,3996],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-51231","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-aging","category-feelings-2","category-health","category-third-phase-2"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51231","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=51231"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51231\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":51237,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51231\/revisions\/51237"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=51231"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=51231"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=51231"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}