{"id":51368,"date":"2019-08-27T06:37:14","date_gmt":"2019-08-27T12:37:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=51368"},"modified":"2019-08-27T06:43:30","modified_gmt":"2019-08-27T12:43:30","slug":"not-giving-it-my-life","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=51368","title":{"rendered":"Not Giving It My Life"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Lughnasa and the waning crescent of the Moon of the First Harvest<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Orion glistened in the dark morning sky. Looked fancy, like a huge piece of jewelry hung to adorn the heavens. Soon we&#8217;ll have a new moon. Might be able to see the Milky Way. Hope so.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"alignleft\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/08\/Colorado.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-51369\"\/><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Kate and I had a workday yesterday. So good to do things together. She fixed some Western Slope peaches in orange juice for freezing. I gathered up trash and recycling, took it out. Moved boxes and hung photographs of the grandkids. She swept up Kepler hair. Things like that. Ordinary things have become extraordinary.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We had lasagna, the last of the mitzvah committee&#8217;s work for us. Thanks, Annie. Tonight I&#8217;m cooking for the first time in over a month. Not sure what yet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"alignright is-resized\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/08\/cancer-death3.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-51370\" width=\"157\" height=\"236\"\/><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>When I was in the radiation treatment slog, I felt like I was doing something to counter the cancer. But. It also reminded me everyday that I had cancer. Now that I&#8217;m over two weeks out from my CyberKnife days, I go hours, sometimes almost a whole day without thinking of it. Then, I get a hot flush. Oh. Right.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>After prostate surgery, it took some time, maybe three\/four months, maybe a bit more, and I forgot about prostate cancer. Where I want to be. Of course, every PSA reminded me, but they were only occasional. Don&#8217;t believe I&#8217;ll achieve cancer as a thing of the past until I&#8217;m off the Lupron for three months and get that definitive PSA.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p> Will cancer kill me? Don&#8217;t know. Something will. Whatever it is, it will bring my death, but I&#8217;m not giving it my life.  Life is precious, short. Don&#8217;t waste it fearing things you can&#8217;t control.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Lughnasa and the waning crescent of the Moon of the First Harvest Orion glistened in the dark morning sky. Looked fancy, like a huge piece of jewelry hung to adorn the heavens. Soon we&#8217;ll have a new moon. Might be able to see the Milky Way. Hope so. Kate and I had a workday yesterday. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=51368\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Not Giving It My Life<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[60,65,127,243,13,4317,3996],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-51368","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-aging","category-family","category-health","category-memories","category-our-land","category-shadow-mountain","category-third-phase-2"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51368","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=51368"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51368\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":51373,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51368\/revisions\/51373"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=51368"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=51368"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=51368"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}