{"id":53145,"date":"2021-01-13T09:48:46","date_gmt":"2021-01-13T15:48:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=53145"},"modified":"2021-01-15T08:45:06","modified_gmt":"2021-01-15T14:45:06","slug":"hard","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=53145","title":{"rendered":"Hard"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Winter and the Imbolc Moon<\/p>\n<p>Wednesday gratefuls: Swedish ER. Swedish hospital. Feeding tubes. Interventional radiologists. Pulmonologists. A long sleep last night. Exhaustion. That fuckhead. One week. Impeach him. Convict him. Imprison him. No mercy. Calm. Deep breathing.<\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_51619\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-51619\" style=\"width: 420px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-thumbnail wp-image-51619\" src=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/20190905_123143-1-e1569674411357-420x510.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"420\" height=\"510\" \/><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-51619\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Kate with friends<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>Kate&#8217;s back in the hospital. She has a pneumothorax again, in the same spot as last two times. A leak, if you will. Her feeding tube, the one placed on Sunday, came out on Monday. So it needs replacing, too. Not sure how long she&#8217;ll be there and I can&#8217;t visit her. Covid.<\/p>\n<p>A lot. She&#8217;s had two trips to the E.R. this week already and now a hospital stay. The last three weeks have increased the level of difficulty here. For both of us. So much that I&#8217;m glad she&#8217;s in the hospital so I know she&#8217;s ok. That&#8217;s weird, eh?<\/p>\n<p>Not easy to describe my feelings right now. I&#8217;m so tired. I slept almost 12 hours last night. Kep and Rigel were more than ready for breakfast. I&#8217;m worried about Kate, of course, but I&#8217;m glad she&#8217;s where some folks can pay attention to her medical needs.<\/p>\n<p>We&#8217;ve both become frustrated, which is a nice word, with the medical care system. Managing her feeding tube is a nightmare when a problem occurs. No one owns it as their responsibility. Most don&#8217;t know how to handle it. See this Sunday&#8217;s ER visit. Yet it feeds her. Pretty important.<\/p>\n<p>She&#8217;s been sick so long that it&#8217;s hard to discern serious symptoms from not so serious ones. And, to know who to reach out to discern the difference. Sjogren&#8217;s complicates everything with its suite of symptoms, like fatigue and low grade fevers, that mimic the symptoms of other diseases.<\/p>\n<p>Then there&#8217;s the emotional toll all this takes on both of us. Hard.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Winter and the Imbolc Moon Wednesday gratefuls: Swedish ER. Swedish hospital. Feeding tubes. Interventional radiologists. Pulmonologists. A long sleep last night. Exhaustion. That fuckhead. One week. Impeach him. Convict him. Imprison him. No mercy. Calm. Deep breathing. Kate&#8217;s back in the hospital. She has a pneumothorax again, in the same spot as last two times. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=53145\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Hard<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[65,127],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-53145","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-family","category-health"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53145","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=53145"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53145\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":53152,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53145\/revisions\/53152"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=53145"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=53145"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=53145"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}