{"id":62715,"date":"2025-10-21T07:02:34","date_gmt":"2025-10-21T13:02:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=62715"},"modified":"2025-10-21T12:59:06","modified_gmt":"2025-10-21T18:59:06","slug":"ometz-lev","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=62715","title":{"rendered":"Ometz Lev"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Mabon and the Samhain Moon<\/p>\n<p>Tuesday gratefuls: Ruth, two years sober. Paul, hearing Yo-Yo Ma. Tom and his PET scan. Dr. Bupathi. Metastases. Radiation. The maze at Swedish. Shadow, the good girl. Kate, always Kate. Driving down the hill and back again. Frost, the third. Sleep. Ruby and her snowshoes. On next Monday. Winter is coming.<\/p>\n<p>Sparks of Joy and Awe: Sobriety<\/p>\n<p>Life Kavannah: Wu Wei<\/p>\n<p>Week Kavannah:\u00a0 Ometz Lev.\u00a0 Courage of the heart.<\/p>\n<p>Tarot: Paused<\/p>\n<p>One brief shining: As I drove around and around, trying to find valet parking, hidden in a frustrating maze of blocked roads and Kafkaesque detours, I knew the results of my PET scan awaited me, if only I could find a parking spot, each circuit seeming to put me further and further away from information I needed, needed, not wanted.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Health: I finally found a spot, a handicap spot in a parking garage I could have used much earlier, if I hadn&#8217;t been trapped in my ruminations. What will the new PET scan show?<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/ChatGPTImageOct21202507_15_22AM-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignright wp-image-62720\" src=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/ChatGPTImageOct21202507_15_22AM-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter-420x630.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"255\" height=\"383\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/ChatGPTImageOct21202507_15_22AM-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter-420x630.jpg 420w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/ChatGPTImageOct21202507_15_22AM-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter-744x1116.jpg 744w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/ChatGPTImageOct21202507_15_22AM-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter-768x1152.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/ChatGPTImageOct21202507_15_22AM-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter.jpg 1024w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 255px) 100vw, 255px\" \/><\/a>The mystery of the slow rise in my PSA solved. One metastases enlarged from 8.8 to 52. A big jump. It&#8217;s on my T-4 vertebrae. Not a great spot. Dr. Bupathi has referred me back to Dr. Leonard, my radiation oncologist, to kill it. But. Need an MRI of my back first to be sure there is no nerve involvement. This time I&#8217;ll need anesthesia for the imaging.<\/p>\n<p>My cancer has begun to push against the Erleada and the Orgovyx. Slipping toward the hormone resistant stage though if the radiation can kill this one, I might stave it off a while longer.\u00a0On the other hand my other mets were stable to improved. That is good.<\/p>\n<p>I had planned to stop at Noodles and pick up some comfort Mac and Cheese, but after my maze runner hunt I wanted to get home, see Shadow, consider all this.<\/p>\n<p>Now an in-between before the MRI, then another before the radiation, and another until l know the results of the radiation. These will test my resolve to live in between. So many high stakes moments in such a short space of time.<\/p>\n<p>Meanwhile, the back pain story continues on, a slow rolling melodrama with a potential finish in early November. And, just for completeness I&#8217;ve tried to adapt to a foam collar for my neck. Haven&#8217;t found the right one. Feels, well, weird. A journey\u00a0 just begun.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>A look back: In 2004 I took an early November trip to Southeast Asia, starting in my sister Mary&#8217;s Singapore. My week there happened to coincide with the second election of George Bush, Ramadan, and Diwali, the Hindu festival of lights. It&#8217;s underway this year in late October.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/Gopuram_-_Sri_Mariamman_Temple_Singapore_2023_-_img_01-scaled.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignright wp-image-62717\" src=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/Gopuram_-_Sri_Mariamman_Temple_Singapore_2023_-_img_01-420x560.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"86\" height=\"115\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/Gopuram_-_Sri_Mariamman_Temple_Singapore_2023_-_img_01-420x560.jpg 420w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/Gopuram_-_Sri_Mariamman_Temple_Singapore_2023_-_img_01-744x992.jpg 744w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/Gopuram_-_Sri_Mariamman_Temple_Singapore_2023_-_img_01-1200x1600.jpg 1200w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/Gopuram_-_Sri_Mariamman_Temple_Singapore_2023_-_img_01-768x1024.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/Gopuram_-_Sri_Mariamman_Temple_Singapore_2023_-_img_01-1152x1536.jpg 1152w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/Gopuram_-_Sri_Mariamman_Temple_Singapore_2023_-_img_01-1536x2048.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/Gopuram_-_Sri_Mariamman_Temple_Singapore_2023_-_img_01-scaled.jpg 1920w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 86px) 100vw, 86px\" \/><\/a>We went to Little India and saw the place lit up for this joyous, light filled holiday. That was fun for this Midwestern guy, but the peak came in the wee hours of the morning. At <a class=\"DTlJ6d\" href=\"https:\/\/www.google.com\/search?cs=0&amp;sca_esv=fbaa7d3b9c35fdd6&amp;q=Sri+Mariamman+Temple&amp;sa=X&amp;ved=2ahUKEwj8gqHOo7WQAxVG5skDHfLTDg0QxccNegQIDxAB&amp;mstk=AUtExfB8CsvnHHo-UINBQwDCY7YBTaYahlOyT3TVeF6HHQerFu6PVEqqgdBS9FrWupQS-Dqjn2jbjTnTS5mS3p_G98VRB-Ss7JEKSKGoW9rF6LkGSW6D8vFF9oyc3N5bi7Gcc1Uv4T6Pi8RtglWFqcsKott-rkVWrXAxL40-CjMHiFKg7X12NNGrCw-Dl_1RLTpzBtCntencCldTyy0SMnsytIyqWg&amp;csui=3\" data-hveid=\"CA8QAQ\">Sri Mariamman Temple<\/a>. The oldest Hindu Temple in Singapore, it features, during Diwali, firewalking.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/fire-walking.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignright size-full wp-image-62719\" src=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/10\/fire-walking.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"259\" height=\"194\" \/><\/a>Mary and I walked the empty streets of China Town, which had closed around this temple built in 1893, and found a long line of people waiting for their chance to walk on hot coals, immerse their feet in a milk bath, then be caught by volunteers.<\/p>\n<p>Of most interest to me were the folks at the end of the line, all women. We talked with some of them and found that their inclusion in the ceremony had come only recently, feminism changing even this thousands of years old ritual. Gave me hope for the world.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Mabon and the Samhain Moon Tuesday gratefuls: Ruth, two years sober. Paul, hearing Yo-Yo Ma. Tom and his PET scan. Dr. Bupathi. Metastases. Radiation. The maze at Swedish. Shadow, the good girl. Kate, always Kate. Driving down the hill and back again. Frost, the third. Sleep. Ruby and her snowshoes. On next Monday. Winter is &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=62715\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Ometz Lev<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[56,65,127,18,12],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-62715","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-dogs","category-family","category-health","category-holidays","category-travel"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/62715","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=62715"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/62715\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":62723,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/62715\/revisions\/62723"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=62715"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=62715"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=62715"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}