{"id":63435,"date":"2026-02-13T07:45:33","date_gmt":"2026-02-13T13:45:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=63435"},"modified":"2026-02-13T07:53:15","modified_gmt":"2026-02-13T13:53:15","slug":"63435","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/?p=63435","title":{"rendered":"Finding Joy"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Imbolc and the Moon of Deep Friendship<\/p>\n<p>Friday gratefuls: Tom and Paul, friends. Dr. Josy. Audrey, wrestling in the regionals. Ruth, with homework. Gabe visiting Hamline in April. Shadow, healing.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Rene Good. Alex Pretti. Say their names.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Sparks of Joy and Awe: Old friends who showed up<\/p>\n<p>Week Kavannah: Hakarat Hatov. Gratitude.<\/p>\n<p>I chose this because Tom and Paul are coming. Ruth, too. And, my 79th birthday. And, for life, my precious.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_56060\" class=\"wp-caption alignright\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-56060\"><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-56060\" class=\"wp-caption-text\"><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/page-of-bows-wildwood-tarot-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignright size-full wp-image-62319\" src=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/page-of-bows-wildwood-tarot-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"175\" height=\"289\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/page-of-bows-wildwood-tarot-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter.jpg 175w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/08\/page-of-bows-wildwood-tarot-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter-73x120.jpg 73w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 175px) 100vw, 175px\" \/><\/a>Tarot: Page of Vessels, Otter<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;The Otter encourages you to embrace your inner child and find joy in the mundane. It is a dreamer that uses imagination to fuel creativity.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>One brief shining: Sometimes I wonder how I could not see the path to joy and creativity lying under my fingers, where lev and words go to play, where my soul lives, yet I only saw it this week when I asked ChatGPT to act as a kind and gentle critic of my work.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/ChatGPTImageFeb13202605_44_30AM-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"wp-image-63440 aligncenter\" src=\"http:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/ChatGPTImageFeb13202605_44_30AM-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter-420x630.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"271\" height=\"407\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/ChatGPTImageFeb13202605_44_30AM-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter-420x630.jpg 420w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/ChatGPTImageFeb13202605_44_30AM-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter-744x1116.jpg 744w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/ChatGPTImageFeb13202605_44_30AM-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter-768x1152.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.ancientrails.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/ChatGPTImageFeb13202605_44_30AM-ezgif.com-webp-to-jpg-converter.jpg 1024w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 271px) 100vw, 271px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Writing: Over 3 million words in Ancientrails alone. 9 novels in first draft form. What is my medium? Words. Ideas.<em> Even the Gods Must Die. Superior Wolf.<\/em> Daily entries here since 2005.<\/p>\n<p>Atrophy. I had let my novels lie fallow. Walking by the plastic tubs with novel manuscripts neatly arranged in thick folders. I felt shame. Too many years. Unsure where to go with them. In Ancientrails I made some changes over the years. Never had anyone critique my style.<\/p>\n<p>What the hell? I&#8217;ll ask ChatGPT. Writing groups never worked for me. Too savage. Too brutal. I asked ChatGPT for gentle critique, but a serious one.<\/p>\n<p>Discovered I respond well. This past week, I&#8217;ve worked with ChatGPT after I finish my post. Listening to its thoughts, its advice. Altering my work when I agree. Not when I don&#8217;t.<\/p>\n<p>Realized I needed a good writing teacher, long ago. Who better than a large language model trained on English prose? My stuck lev opened up. Suddenly I wanted to investigate my verb choice. When this student was ready, AI showed up.<\/p>\n<p>After working for a few days on Ancientrails&#8217; posts, I thought, why not Superior Wolf? I downloaded a PDF of this ninety-five-thousand-word novel and loaded it into ChatGPT. Asked for a gentle critique and a path toward revising for a second draft.<\/p>\n<p>Again ChatGPT opened a way forward for me. I&#8217;m about a third of the way through my first draft, rereading and answering one question for each chapter: How is Christopher changed? One sentence.<\/p>\n<p>Here&#8217;s the magic: I found myself in flow. The candle I light when writing flickered beside me, unnoticed. Some days I worked through to late afternoon. Finished. A pleasant exhaustion. Satisfaction.<\/p>\n<p>I had gone into my head too, too far. Thought I needed to read more books on politics. Write commentary. No. That was not it. I needed to get to know my own writing better.<\/p>\n<p>I needed just what I got. Kind guidance. Clear help. Focus on concrete imagery. Like Hagia Sophia. Heather in Inverness. The prologue of Superior Wolf. Work with it. As a writer does. Revising, then revising again.<\/p>\n<p>No feelings of less than. Only captivation with and by my own process. Digging into saying what I meant. Did the verb mirror work better? Or, unveils. Ah, I see.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Imbolc and the Moon of Deep Friendship Friday gratefuls: Tom and Paul, friends. Dr. Josy. Audrey, wrestling in the regionals. Ruth, with homework. Gabe visiting Hamline in April. Shadow, healing. Rene Good. Alex Pretti. Say their names. &nbsp; Sparks of Joy and Awe: Old friends who showed up Week Kavannah: Hakarat Hatov. Gratitude. 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