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You know how things go along for a long time and nothing happens, then bang, things happen?\u00a0 Sollie and Rigel got into it again and in breaking them up Rigel bit me.\u00a0 Not bad, a scrape really, but it bled, around and below the right side of my right knee.\u00a0 I had been using the knee to separate the two.\u00a0 This is out of hand at the moment and I’m not sure what to do next.<\/p>\n
In addition I have a family member in crisis, a faraway crisis, so it’s difficult to tell what’s exactly going on.\u00a0 That means trying to do my part from 12,000 miles away.\u00a0 My family, and I may have not mentioned it here before, my mother’s family to be precise, has a history of bi-polar disorder.\u00a0 One of my Aunts was hospitalized most of her life, another for several years and a third in essence starved herself.\u00a0 My mother never showed signs, but she died at age 46.\u00a0 Although afflicted from time to time with melancholy, I’ve never manifested the bi-polar symptoms, nor, at least up until now, has either my brother or my sister.\u00a0 That’s not to say that we haven’t had struggles of various sorts, the kinds brought on by life, but deep depression, no.<\/p>\n
This may be a referented depression; that is, one occasioned by a definite external circumstance, but it’s so difficult to say without being there.\u00a0 And even then…<\/p>\n
When I was in analysis, with a Jungian, we discussed nuclear families and John, my analyst, said, “You have an atomized family.”\u00a0 It was true.\u00a0 After my mother died, our lives began to spin apart from each other.\u00a0 I left home first and eventually moved to Minnesota.\u00a0 Mary next, ending up after a stint teaching at the University of Wisconsin, Milwaukee, in first Kuala Lumpur, then Singapore, where she has lived now for many years.<\/p>\n
Last of all Mark left home and moved first to San Francisco, then in 1988 took off on a round the world trip.\u00a0 After crossing Russia on the Trans-Siberian Railway, working on a kibbutz in Israel and harvesting olives in Turkey, he found his way to Southeast Asia, too.\u00a0 Bangkok.\u00a0 He has been there ever since, more or less, teaching English as a second language.\u00a0 We have ended up far apart, physically, and distance imposes its own psychological barriers.\u00a0 It’s just not as easy to see each other, help each other.<\/p>\n
Now that both Mom and Dad are dead, we have our own worlds, Mary at the National University of Singapore, me here in Andover and Mark in Bangkok.\u00a0 Once in a while Mary comes home, I’ve been over there once, but it’s difficult to stay really connected.<\/p>\n
Now something is wrong.\u00a0 And I’m not sure what to do in that case either.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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