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Beltane                                                                              Moon of the Summer Solstice

obstacle

Yet another frustration dream. These occur with some regularity, though not often. Last night I had a job interview and a friend agreed to take me. But it never happened. Instead we had to do this, then that. Eventually we were running after city buses, but always missing them.

This is a version of a repetitive theme. I set out for some place or some goal and first this, then that gets in the way, nothing major, just small setbacks, until I’m unable to accomplish what I set out to do. I end up disheartened. The emotional hangover lasts into the morning, as it is doing right now. Obstacles, self-generated obstacles, and the impact of those in day to day life. Frustration, yes, but also disillusionment and a modest level of despair. Not the way I want to spend my nights or my days.