Beltane Early Growth Moon
Today has been a Missing day. I’m focusing on it now, trying to get most of the way through the third revision before the Loft class. I’ll make substantial progress by then and I might finish.
Javier and his crew removed the ash tree, cut up its trunk and branches, put down a gravel and sand like mixture in the fire pit, centered the fire ring and reset all the granite pavers. Right now they’re finishing up the edging and trimming the river birch.
Having people do work around the house both pleases me and sets me on edge. I know they are getting work done that I either cannot do or will not do. In that sense they make our home more pleasant. The on edge part comes from a part of me that is uncomfortable asking others to do things for me, even they get paid. This comes from a myth of self-sufficiency, a part of patriarchy that would, on the one hand, dominate and on the other do everything. This is a contradiction of a sexist world view, rooted in my past and not entirely dislodged.