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Nocturne

Summer                                                            Most Heat Moon

As the night settles gently here, Kate is home and has taken Kepler with her to bed. He sleeps in his own bed near ours.

There’s a dynamic when she’s gone, a bit unsettling, but also affirming. Let me see if I can be clear about it. We are, together, more than two, but also two. When we are apart, the twoness remains in memory, but the day-to-day facticity of it shifts. There is no other body in the bed. Nor at breakfast. Nor as the day goes by. The simple joy of a dog’s antics, wonder at some passing insect or cloud, soothing of a momentary mood, a reminder of each other’s value just by being present one to the other is lost. Only for a while, but lost anyhow.

The affirmation comes in knowing these things by their absence. The unsettling rises with this third phase certainty, some day one of us will leave and not come back. What then? The facticity of the relationship will be gone and with it all those subtle, ordinary, sacred moments that make up a common life. Death brooks no return and the loss will be in that sense total.

That is not now, for us. And I’m glad. Happy that we had this day together. And hopeful that we will have tomorrow. We do, after all, have that move to prepare.

 

Growing Things, Snowing Things

Summer                                                               Most Heat Moon

Another estimate. This time for yard work. We’ll get three. Two in now. This is for thinning, pruning, getting the front ready for visitors, potential buyers in February. With 650 raised beds late summer 2010_0187the gardens in the back, flowers and vegetables, and the orchard, we’ve lost focus on the front, letting it become overgrown. Now it’s going to take some effort to put it back in neat, suburban form. (about which I care very little, but which buyers will. sigh.)

Our caring has focused on tomatoes, beets and carrots, iris, lilies and snakeroot, plums, cherries and apples, not on the appearance of our front. I’ve always thought the Chinese have the best idea here. Some Chinese let the front entrance to their homes become disheveled, run down. It’s not until you’re inside, beyond the outward appearance that you see the beauty of the home.

Kate will return today, her Western scout phase over for now. She’s driven many miles in the Rockies west of Denver. Yesterday she and Granddaughter Ruth drove from Golden to Boulder and then back to Idaho Springs. Kate reported that, as you know, it’s very important to see houses in situ. Each one she saw yesterday looked great, but had one thing or another that ruled them out. One had the 2 acres we feel we need, except they were vertical, not horizontal. Another had beautiful views, a great house, but was back 10 miles of dirt road. And so on. That’s all to be expected and we only need one house.

(left flank of St. Mary’s Glacier, 2007.  St Mary’s Glacier is located 9.2 miles north of Idaho Springs in the Clear Creek Ranger District of the Arapaho National Forest. The glacier – technically a large perennial snowfield – is a popular year-round destination open to hiking, skiing, glissading, climbing and sledding.)

She has settled on St. Mary’s Glacier as the key area on which we should focus our search. That’s helpful because it narrows the field and makes paying attention much easier.

I’ll be glad to have her back home. We all miss her.

Chivalry

Summer                                                               Most Heat Moon

Heartland Cafe. Everything made in this St. Paul restaurant except the cheese, according to the waiter who took care of Mary and me this evening. If so, they slaughtered a cow and a pig to serve us since Mary had a pork chop and I had a steak. The food was, as it was on Valentine’s Day, excellent and local.

We got there at 6:20 pm and had the whole place to ourselves for a half an hour or more.

I discovered how mom and dad met tonight. I told Mary I didn’t know. She said mom was in uniform (as a WAC) and being harassed by men (also in uniform). This was in Chattanooga. Dad came along and stopped the harassment. They exchanged information, but she was headed overseas for her work with the Signal Corps first in Naples, then in Algiers. After a lengthy war time correspondence, which included Dad sending her blouses and other items from the U.S., they remet on Lookout Mountain and got engage.

And so, after 67 years, I learn how my parents happened to get together.

 

Back Home Again, Upon the Wabash

Summer                                                            Most Heat Moon

Took my fellow Hoosier, sister Mary, out to International House of Pancakes, a chain redolent with Indiana memories. They even seem to hire Hoosier like waitresses, thin and cheerful, like blue-collar librarians. I had country fried steak and eggs, but Mary had a special, blueberry cannoli. An improbable breakfast item, but there it was and Mary liked it.

After IHOP, we drove through northern Anoka County, winding past wetlands, sod farms and older country homes to the Green Barn. There I picked up 6 bags of woodchips and loaded them in the RAV4 so I can complete the deck work today.

Northern Anoka County has that northwoods feel. In fact, the boreal forest reaches its southern most extension near here. This rural ambiance is not really found in Singapore, a modern city-state. Mary did say that there are farms in Singapore, farms raising organic vegetables for local grocers and restaurants.

Aurora

Summit                                                                   Most Heat Moon

I don’t do many of these, mostly because I rarely get up before 7:30 or so and that means dawn has come and gone. Today though, with a dog needing to go outside, I’m up. Once a certain amount of wakefulness crosses the barrier of consciousness, going back to sleep right away is a lost cause.

Mary and I are going out to breakfast, then up to the Green Barn for woodchips to finish off the deck. Beisswinger’s surprised me by not having much in the way of mulch, just some more expensive shredded bark, which was not what I needed.

 

Nocturne

Summer                                                            Most Heat Moon

Another bookshelf packed up and about a third of another. Kate called with more news from Colorado, visits to Golden and Idaho Springs, another realtor whom she liked even more than the last one. Tomorrow she plans a trip between Boulder and Golden on the advice of Ann Beck, today’s realtor.

Mary and I tried to eat at that Gasthof in Northeast, but it was closed for some reason. The parking at the Red Stag was impossible. So we ended up at the Aster in St. Anthony Main. After the meal, we walked out to St. Anthony Falls and watched the power of the Upper Mississippi express itself in churning foam and water spilling, fast and powerful.

Kepler has begun to settle in, not even barking at Mary. It seems Ruth and Jon’s visit made him aware that we get visitors and that he doesn’t need to announce each one. He spent time downstairs with me today, helping me pack. Tonight he’ll sleep on the bed with me since Kate’s not in her place.

These nocturnes will, I imagine, have a different flavor with mountains around and, possibly, a night sky clear of light pollution. May it be so.

Unreliable?

Summer                                                  Most Heat Moon

Forgot to mention that there was a hint of unreliability in Kate’s information yesterday. The realtor told her that many who lived at altitude, 6,500-8,000 feet above sea level, didn’t have air conditioners. They use ceiling fans, exhaust fans and cross ventilation. Since Kate recounted this with no apparent reservation or exclamation, I concluded that she may not be wholly with it. Maybe the altitude?

Today there’s a bit more of the neither here nor thereness in my heart. It’s due, I know, to Kate’s work in Colorado, getting the Colorado part more in focus, and Jon and Ruth’s visit. Living in the move works when I can balance the work here with a focus there now and then. When Colorado moves into the foreground, it can tip me out of the liminal space-living in the move-and into that uncomfortable not here, not there feeling.

 

 

Needful Things

Summer                                                                Most Heat Moon

After coming back from the hardware and grocery stores, I cleaned our air conditioning unit coils. They get clogged up with cottonwood fluff. The fan pulling the air over the coils sucks the gray-white seed bearing plant matter onto the coils. If left on, it reduces the efficiency of the air conditioning unit considerably and can cause other problems.

Put the oil in the lawnmower, tried again to start it. Nope. Checked the manual. It goes into Beisswinger’s tomorrow. I’ll get woodchips to finish off the deck while I’m there. Those sort of things that need to get done.

I’ve been reading the Mysterious Benedict Society, volume 1, recommended by Ruth Olson. It’s not scintillating, but I can see why it’s an excellent kid’s book. It presents children as agents, effective in their own right. It also puts them into several different moral dilemmas, each difficult. The Society also captures a 10-12 year olds view of the adult world and in that serves as a good reminder to those of on the far, the very far side, of 12.

Oh, and our tunneling crew has been active. This time they’re digging right in front of the shed, a hole deep enough that when I saw Rigel in it her front shoulders were below ground. Why do they do it? No idea.

 

Demos (people) Kratos (power, force)

Summer                                                       Most Heat Moon

This world is rapidly changin’. Dylan

Today Kate meets with the first of the Colorado realtors, tomorrow the second. She’s in full Kate mode which means intelligent, decisive, energized, sensitive. An excellent scout. She is our advance team, sent to reconnoiter while the main force of four canines and one human plus all our stuff remain behind. We will follow.

Her task, eventually, is to narrow the options in Colorado to three. Then the other human will travel with her, probably joined by the Denver Olsons as a consultancy. We will decide together. This may seem clumsy to many of you, but it is the way I have learned throughout a lifetime of politics and one I adhere to out of conviction.

No decision can be made independent of the effected parties and if I could include the dogs, I would. In their case we have to imagine their feelings and response to a particular place, then act accordingly. Yes, I suppose it is true, as many tyrants say, that people want only food, housing, security, that they really don’t want to be involved with the messy business of guiding their own lives in the larger frame.  Over that same lifetime in politics, however, I have acted with the precise opposite assumption.

That is, people need to guide their own lives in the larger frame. To do this they need to join each other, sometimes in unions, sometimes in political parties, sometimes in issue driven organizations, sometimes in neighborhood organizations or rural co-operatives, sometimes in businesses, but always with others who share their convictions and have similar life situations. This is democracy with a small d, one driven not by the constitution or by the greater idea of democracy as a political philosophy to organize nations, but democracy itself which means, in its original Greek etymology, people (demos) power or force (kratos).

This remains a radical understanding of how to organize the commonweal, but it is just such an understanding that many of us soaked in the culture of the late 1960’s came to embrace. Yes, it is at times unwieldy. Yes, it is often prone to lengthy decisions. Yes, it can be perverted by a determined minority or damaged by a narrow-minded majority, but it is the best way of turning aside the tyranny of oligarchy which is the bane of our late stage industrial capitalist society.

And so, even in the small decision of which home to buy, small in the grander scheme, but large in ours, there will be many voices, all significant. And Kate and I will listen to them.

Toward the New

Summer                                                                Most Heat Moon

When asked last night if she wanted us to move to Colorado, Ruth nodded her blond head Ruth's 8thand said, “I want you to.” She may go with Grandma to look at property, give the grandchild’s view. We’ll give Ruth and Gabe a chance to have their say since they’ll be very important visitors (V.I.V.s), but Grandpop and Grandma will make the final choice, of course.

The standing in the drive-way, waving as the van pulls away ritual has happened. The three generation of Olson’s Sienna transport to Colorado has left the building.

As Colorado came rushing into the foreground of our lives this week, it’s made me consider what new things I might want to do out there. The first thing that came to mind? Learning to ride a horse. Something I’ve never done and what better place than the west. I don’t want to learn dressage or steeple chasing or barrel racing, but I would like to learn enough to ride on a mountain trail, maybe camp out.

A second thing came while reading an interesting article in this month’s Wired, “How We Can Tame Overlooked Wild Plants to Feed the World.” This article gives a broad brush presentation to how horticulture and agriculture will respond to climate change. It starts by referencing work being done in Ames, Iowa on domesticating new food crops.  The last creative work in domestication of new crop plants ended thousands of years ago.

Here’s the sentence that really jumped out at me: “Today, humans rely on fewer than 150 plants for nourishment, and just three cereal crops—wheat, rice, and corn—make up more than two-thirds of the world’s calories; along with barley, they own three-quarters of the global grain market.” op. cit.

The Land Institute outside Salina, Kansas has had my attention since I read founder Wes Jackson’s book, Becoming Native to This Place. This book along with the Great Work by Thomas Berry, The Sand County Almanac by Aldo Leopold and an excellent climate change conference Kate and I attended in Iowa City changed the direction of my political activism from economic and racial justice issues to environmental policy. They also affected my horticultural practices, turning me from perennial flowers to vegetables and fruit grown in a soil sensitive, heirloom-biased way.

So. When we finally settle down, I want to have a raised bed or two for kitchen vegetables, smaller than what we have here, but I also want to have at least one raised bed or plot devoted to advancing a new food crop. I’m not sure what this would entail, but if something useful can be done on a small plot in the Rocky Mountains, I want to devote the time necessary to it. Given the long time horizons on such projects, I may not hope to get too far; but, any distance toward a broader food palate and one capable of producing in hotter normal temperatures will be useful to my grandchildren and their children.