Conference World

Spring                                                            Beltane Moon

 

An odd afternoon.  Drove into Minneapolis, walked a good ways through a skyway connecting the Leamington ramp to the Minneapolis Convention Center, a lonely walk on a Sunday, got my assignment for the American Association of Museums, walked back up 2nd Avenue to the Crown Plaza Hotel and sat for four hours greeting people attending the the AAM conference.

Not many requests for help, but a few.  Mostly solved with, “Yes, it leaves every 15 minutes right there.”  or “Go out the door, turn right and keep going.”

The day was raw, a Minnesota spring day, chilly for those folks from southern climes.  And cloudy.

The conference program bruits the statistic about number of theatre seats and New York City.  And our world class museums.  Didn’t say anything about the Minnesota Orchestra or the St. Paul Chamber Orchestra though I would have.

Back home, wondering why I’d agreed to do this bit.  I get a free day attendance at the conference and I may go.  Sounds like the exhibition hall might be worth seeing.  And the bookstore of course.

Recalled my conference going days.  Hotel rooms, meetings with round tables and chairs with cloth and shaped aluminum, rushed gatherings in the  hall, plotting, making our move.  Conference behavior, where the momentary becomes urgent and the world away dissolves in the fantasy realm of significance among like minded folks.

Later they will get on planes and wonder what happened in Minneapolis.  That was 2012.  Right?

What Now?

Spring                                                                Beltane Moon

Now what?  First draft put to bed.  In Kate’s hands now.

Kate asked how I was doing this morning during our business meeting.  I’m not an immediate answer to that sort of question kind of guy.  So, I paused, reflected.

“I always knew I would mature late,” I said.

Long ago I read a monograph on the development of people in various fields.  The longest was the philosopher/theologian, somewhere in the 50’s.  Since I’ve battered my through more than one field, I figured I’d be later.

“With Greg (Latin tutor) asking me to collaborate on the commentary (Ovid’s Metamporphoses) and the completion of Missing’s first draft, I’m feeling like I may be hitting my maturity at last.”

I’m beginning to feel grown up, as if I’ve retrieved my birthright from the convoluted labyrinth of my life.  This is not, interestingly, about achievement, but about individuation, about becoming who I am and who I will be.

“So,” I told Kate, “I’m feeling pretty good.  Not jump up and down, yippee good, I’m too northern European for that, but pretty good.”

That’s how I am this morning.