Beltane Moon of the Summer Solstice
Hiking Staunton State Park yesterday launched me on my first day ever of 10,000 steps, actually 11,435. A weird thing to be proud of, I know, but still, I am. My eventual goal is to hit at least 10,000 every day. First though, I had to do it once and yesterday was that day.
A few memories of that hike:
Beltane Moon of the Summer Solstice
Yet another frustration dream. These occur with some regularity, though not often. Last night I had a job interview and a friend agreed to take me. But it never happened. Instead we had to do this, then that. Eventually we were running after city buses, but always missing them.
This is a version of a repetitive theme. I set out for some place or some goal and first this, then that gets in the way, nothing major, just small setbacks, until I’m unable to accomplish what I set out to do. I end up disheartened. The emotional hangover lasts into the morning, as it is doing right now. Obstacles, self-generated obstacles, and the impact of those in day to day life. Frustration, yes, but also disillusionment and a modest level of despair. Not the way I want to spend my nights or my days.