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Beltane and the Moon of Liberation

Monday gratefuls: Shadow Mountain Home. My pillow. My bed. The Rockies. Living in the Front Range. Amtrak. Garrett. Sleeping car attendant. Travel. Diane. San Francisco. Muir Woods. The Japanese Tea Garden. That early transitional Rothko at the De Young. The Thinker at the Legion of Honor. Ukiyo-e prints. Japan town. Bernal Hill. The Mission. 12 Lucky.

Sparks of Joy and Awe: Homecoming

One brief shining: Found my key under the chair arm where I left it for Ana, opened the door, and came home for the first time in eight days, medieval French music played quietly downstairs, a power outage and generator start having turned it on, rolled the Travelpro over to the ottoman and used it like a hotel luggage rack so I could get at what I needed, my meds and the Lidocaine patch, went downstairs and using the remote turned off the music, sinking into my chair. Ah.

 

Don’t like saying it out loud. Admitting it to myself. However. Traveling has changed for me. Probably permanently. I had all the usual delights in San Francisco. Seeing Diane on her home turf, her home on 12 Lucky, her jogging route up to Bernal Hill, and the small town like neighborhood commercial area which includes Wise Son’s Deli and an $8 haircut. Visiting amazing places like Muir Woods and the Japanese Tea Garden. Seeing great work by artists old-like Hokusai and Rodin-and new like Lee Mingwei’s Rituals of Care. Being driven by a native up one lane, yet inexplicably two way streets angled like steep Mountain roads. Seeing Earthquake shacks, lived in today, but built as temporary housing for the victims of 1906.

Diane and I visited Japantown, drove through the beautiful Presidio, and I bought some new clothes not far from the Chancellor Hotel across Union Square. Bonobo’s on Grant Street. I would make the journey again (well, probably not, but you get the feeling) just to see the Redwoods. So stunning. So magnificent. So alive. These beings remind me that life’s boundaries are much looser than our often blinkered day-to-day allows us to see.

And yet. At the start of each day I felt good. Walked over to Sears Fine Foods for breakfast. Met Diane. We went here or there, the Asian Art Museum, the De Young, Muir Woods. After walking any distance or, even harder, standing in one place, hello-museums!, my back would signal me through hip pain, sometimes even neck pain. Not long after I walked bent over, neck awry. Even with the lidocaine patch, the stretches, the very occasional NSAID. Gonna make one more pass through the medical system. See if there’s stuff I’m missing, could use. If not, and I’m not expecting anything, my traveling days have changed.

I can go for a couple to three hours of sight seeing, after transportation which has its own ouches.  Then. Back to the hotel for the day. I’m done. Either I go somewhere and stay a while or it won’t make sense to go. At my son’s in Korea I can stay in their apartment when I need to rest. I’ll get over there next year for his taking command ritual, maybe stay a couple of months. Might cough and faint in dismay but I might buy a business class ticket so I can arrive more or less uninjured.

 

 

 

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In them thar hills

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Friday gratefuls: Hills. Bernal Hill. Diane’s jogging path. Wise Son’s. Since 5771. 12 Lucky Street. Earthquake shacks. Mission. Valencia. 24th Street. Community Music Center. Maru Sushi. Chancellor. Unafraid to have a 13th floor. Bell guy. Laundry. Cool nights. Mild days. 6 sunny days.

Sparks of Joy and Awe: Neighborhoods

One brief shining: Drove in to Diane’s well organized garage, got out, and waited for her, taking pictures of the murals across from 12 Lucky, when she came back we walked one lane Lucky, with cars parked on both sides to 24th, where we turned left into a low scale neighborhood with $8 haircuts, a street sign: Latino Cultural District, and a ways down Wise Son’s Deli where we ate breakfast, lox and bagel for Diane, latke smash-up for me.

 

Last day on Powell Street. Back on Amtrak tomorrow morning at 8:25 am. Powell, California, and one other street have working cable cars. Diane pointed out an interesting aspect of other street cars used here. Some of them are faithfully restored models from the past or, in other cases, from other countries. Very cool.

Yesterday was San Francisco daily life immersion with a visit to Diane’s antique filled home on 12 Lucky Street. Many of the pieces of furniture I recognized from Uncle Riley and Aunt Virginia’s house on the farm. 12 Lucky is a peaceful, calm spot with various salvaged items from Diane’s jogging up Bernal Hill, finds of furniture and plants that others have thrown out. Lucky Street is off the main street of her neighborhood but parallel to it. A quieter environment. She’s been there 14 years.

Her neighborhood has a definite small town feel to it, lots of Latinos, some Samoans, Jews, African Americans, remnants of the halcyon days of the late 60’s. A spot where a person can live a normal life in a city, especially with Bernal Hill so close by.

Diane has taken me by the hand this week. Showed me her town. Commiserated with my aching back. Been understanding when I bail out on a day early. Thanks, Diane. Much appreciated.

Yesterday, too, we saw earthquake shacks. These tiny homes built of redwood, most under 900 square feet, were built to house victims of the 1907 earthquake. Most are gone but a few remain scattered around the city, several in Bernal Hill.

To do that we drove up and down steeply inclined streets with cars parked on both sides and only one available lane for two way traffic. It was Diane’s milieu and that was obvious from the way she navigated. Yet. For an outsider? Would have been nerve jangling to drive here. Especially with a manual transmission as Diane has.

We returned to the Chancellor via Mission Street and Valencia, Mission still with nefarious activity, Diane’s words, yet apparently less than before. Valencia more a young urbanite location with restaurants and bike lanes.

 

My back is worse than I imagined. Very limiting. I have about a half day or less of energy. Makes future travel plans much different from what I might otherwise choose.

 

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Tea and Art

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Thursday gratefuls: Sam Wo’s Wonton soup. Chinese donuts. See’s candy. The Japanese Tea Garden. The De Young. Its early Rothko. Golden Gate Park. Taking a rest. Jazz floating in my hotel room window. Sunny weather. San Francisco. China Town.

Sparks of Joy and Awe: Chocolate

One brief shining: Walked down a sidewalk, a side street of Chinatown, past the mural with a meditating Buddha rendered in psychedelic colors, wearing sunglasses, past a Buddhist temple, recalled the Golden Sagely Monastery from further up on Grant, past afternoon closed restaurants to the Sam Wo, a restaurant Diane remembered because of its famously rude waiter, Edsel Ford Fung, ate a delicious bowl of Wonton soup, and for desert we left Sam Wo’s and found our way to a one-pound box each of See’s chocolates.

 

Oh. Could be misunderstood. We only bought one pound of chocolate. Didn’t eat it. Though we did get the best butter peanut candy as a gift. Which we did eat. And it was good.

 

Started yesterday morning at the Japanese Tea Garden in Golden Gate Park. What a beautiful place. Irises in bloom, purple daggers thrown up toward any pollinator happening by. Wooden bridges. Metal Moon bridges. Granite bridges. Koi in the delicately designed pond with small flared stone lamps and Lilies floating upon it. A few Coastal Redwoods at its perimeter. Stones and Rocks honored for their presence and rough prominence. Some rounded topiary.

A tea shop with a bench overlooking the pond where Diane and I sat. Heard a man with a Stanford Engineering sweat shirt explain that he and his wife came there every year on their anniversary. The Koi swam below him.

 

From the Japanese Tea Garden we walked over to the De Young, passing by a wonderful band shell, and the Academy of Sciences. Magnolias in bloom.

The entry way to the lobby had a crack in its paving Stone which, I noticed, continued from the pavers through much larger blocks of the same Stone set here and there. Andy Goldworthy, Diane said. Simple. Profound.

On our way to the Modern and Contemporary Art galleries there was a large Ed Ruscha tryptych. Much larger than anything of his I’d seen before. A landscape, probably a desert, with his trademark words written across it. He’s a favorite of mine from my Walker days.

Found several interesting American artists represented including Grant Wood, The Threshers, and a Thomas Hart Benton. Also a few new to me. Many commenting on the struggles of workers in the early part of the 20th century.

An early Rothko from his transition away from representational toward abstraction. This one had more shapes than his later paintings, but also had colors floating on each other creating their own environment like his mature work.

A Taiwanese conceptual artist Lee Mingwei had four installations, all clever and interesting.

 

Well, gotta go. Diane’s picking me up for a deli breakfast at Wise Son’s near her house.

Back more and more problematic. A real limitation. Damn it.

(not edited. will do later)

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This test. Going ok.

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Spring and the Moon of Liberation

Tuesday gratefuls: Muir Woods. Redwoods. Asian Art Museum. Bonobos. Walking. Back pain. Ellis Avenue. The Tenderloin. The Chancellor. Boutique hotels. Amtrak. Travel. The Cable Cars. Powell. Sears Fine Foods. Hokusai. Ukiyo-e prints.

Sparks of Joy and Awe: Challenging myself

One brief shining: About eight blocks from Bonobos, around Mason and Geary, my back complained, why it asked are you doing this to me, and I replied we are together finding out just how much trouble you are, both so I can take care of you and so I can not limit us unnecessarily, oh it said, that makes sense and I don’t want to be more of a problem than I need to be.

 

There are two facets to the back pain that are problematic. In the moment the pain can make me stop, sit down, wait for the nerves to calm. That’s the acute issue. The second facet is the price in fatigue. That is, after a bout of walking or standing which has any length at all, dealing with the back takes a toll, whether pain becomes acute or not, just from my bodies positioning and repositioning of itself .

Finding that I only have a morning and afternoons worth of energy. Or, I imagine, one of those and an evenings worth. Like yesterday.

Walking down Powell and across a Union Square bedecked in flowers-it’s Union Square in Bloom!- I wandered according to Google, found Grant Street while being assaulted with the noise of urban life, including a loud exhaust fan aiding a worker below street level, located the building, went up in the elevator to the second floor, found Bonobos and met Ish, short for Ishmael. He walked me through a fitting. Helping me find pants and shirts that actually fit.

The pants we got in one go. Shirt size took four different versions. But now we know. Ordered some chinos and three shirts, all but one shirt being mailed back to Colorado. The last shirt comes to the Chancellor tomorrow for Comedy Night.

Back down at street level I decided to walk to the Museum. I need the exercise and I love walking. In cities. In the Mountains. Slow, flaneur style walking. Noticing the hat store now closed directing customers to a new location. The woman wrasslin her thick male pit bull, muzzle on. A man sitting in a wheelchair along Ellis Street as if he were on the beach at an all inclusive resort. That guy with the pressure washer cleaning the sidewalk. The Tenderloin Police precinct.

By the time I found the Asian Museum I needed to sit. So I went to the Asian Box cafe and had lunch while waiting on Diane.

When we finished another few hours seeing the collection of Avery Brundage, proud racist and anti-semite, yet collector of Buddhist and Hindu artifacts, Diane left for her music with kiddos and yoga. I didn’t stay long. The day was done. I went back to the Chancellor a bit after 4 pm and rested until bedtime. Tired out and happy.

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ah. Art

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Monday gratefuls: Asian Art Museum. Diane. Uber. Street cars clanging on Powell. Good night’s sleep. Sears Fine Foods. Chancellor Hotel. Its lobby with popcorn, coffee, water, apples, cookies. Learning my limits. Travel. Union Square. Fitting at Bonobo’s.

Sparks of Joy and Awe: Song dynasty ceramics

One brief shining: Lunch at the Asian Box in the Asian Art Museum, the old main library transformed into a temple of the arts of Asia, riding its elevator to the second floor, finding the gallery with Chinese ceramics, locating the Song dynasty pieces, falling in love again with the skill and simplicity of that era’s potters, the delicate beauty of their work.

 

My first destination after the hotel. The Asian Art Museum. Why? I’ve missed wandering from vitrine to case to special exhibits, seeing the mark and choices of ancient hands. Especially the work of the Song Dynasty potters whose work is not only beautiful in its own right but had a lasting influence on Japan, teaware in particular. Temmoku especially.

Korean Moon Jar

These Korean Moon Jars represent the same aesthetic, simple, not perfect and in their case not even necessarily utilitarian. Just objects of clay, built on a wheel in two halves then joined. Coated with a white glaze, fired and finished.

The Song dynasty ceramicist’s influenced artists in Japan and Korea and now influence a new generation looking back at the choices made by these skilled potters. In my own preferences for ceramics the careful glazing, uncluttered designs, and muted colors say well made, well made.

 

I’m in the fourth day of my trip already. Second full day in San Francisco. The back limited me yesterday. After my morning session with the Ancient Brothers on what does your soul hunger for, I felt sleepy. Emailed Diane that I was going to take a nap. Thought it would be an hour. Nope. Two and a half.

Compressed our day which had originally included breakfast at Wise and Son’s deli, a visit to Diane’s home and her jogging hill. Instead she came here and I called an Uber.

After a tasty lunch at the Asian Box cafe at the museum, Diane had glazed salmon and I had pork with noodles, cabbage, bean sprouts, and tiny shrimp, we wandered the Chinese, Japanese, and Korean collections for three hours or so.

So happy to be there. My soul also hungers for art, needs it. My joy at being in a museum proved that.

The other hungers I identified were, like the one for art, mostly met on this trip. The others were travel, being in that place I do not know, seeing and experiencing things different from home, and seeing family. Aside from my brother and sister, Diane is my longest continuous relationship. She’s a first cousin on my mother’s side.

My family is far flung. Diane here in S.F. Mary in Malaysia. Mark now once again headed for Southeast Asia. My son, Seoah, and Murdoch in Korea. Interesting, to be sure, but the logistics of love and caring… Made difficult.

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Spring and the Moon of Liberation

Friday gratefuls: Lidocaine patch. Amtrak. Honeybee rides. Waking up at 5. Shower. Finishing last of the packing. Some coffee. Then in the car. A true start to the trip. That first transport. Breakfast at Union Station at Snooze. Boarded train on time. Overcoming inertia.

Sparks of Joy and Awe: Train in the Rockies

One brief shining: The fork at Snooze had curved tines, used them to pick up delicious chunks of corn beef, hash browns, washed down with a Blackberry Limeade, just right; after I sat on the traditional railroad benches, sooo uncomfortable.

Boarded on time, but left about 20 minutes late. I’m in my roomette,#21 on car 540. On this part of the trip I face south. Well, my window faces south. I actually face in the direction of travel. Right now, west.
We’ve been rolling now for an hour and a half. A long stretch out of Denver went north, then a wide sweeping turn found us inching up a grade, slow into the Front Range. We’ve been in the Mountains for a long while now. Passing through, on my side, walls of Rock, 17 tunnels, and lots of Evergreen. Some Snow remains, patches on the northern slopes which are out my south facing window.
Wherever we are now Winter remains. Deep Snow. Probably near a ski town. As we rode through the Denver metro, the dogwoods were in bloom. The yards were green. Spring had taken over. Not up here. However high we are.
Though the Creek running along side the tracks is full, not frozen. Something’s melting somewhere.
Snow topped Mountain Peaks, a fast running Mountain Stream, a herd of Elk, still in Colorado for sure. Guess we’re near Steamboat.
9,200 feet they just said. Only 400 higher than me. We’re in a really long tunnel right now.

My apprehension has now turned to observation. Using the p.t. exercises, the lidocaine patch, sitting down. So far not impossible. Struggled with my suitcase up the stairs to the level of the rooms. Expected that.
A really, really long tunnel.
The journey. The ancientrail of travel, of the Fool’s path. Something I need every once in a while. This may be a good alternative. Lower to the ground, no long airport walks. Slower. Which I like.

I’m using my laptop keyboard. Didn’t want to pack my ergonomic keyboard because I’m carrying rather than checking my bag. It’s heavy. Right now I’m finding this keyboard mostly ok. To my surprise. A pleasant surprise.
Writing on the tray table.
This is a very long tunnel. Did I mention that? I think I heard 9 miles long. We’ve been dark for a while.
Lunch is at noon. First come, first served. May skip. Probably got my day’s calories at breakfast.
Out of the tunnel at Winter Park near Granby where Rabbi Jamie sometimes lives. Got a quick photograph of a lift.
So far, so far. Still many miles to go. And I’m glad.

 

Spring and the Moon of Liberation

Sabbath gratefuls: Sleep. Ibuprofen. Lidocaine. Dennis. Roomette #21. Northern Nevada. Salt Lake City at midnight. Thin milk Sky with Great Sol riding the Southern passage. Snowy Mountain Peaks just beyond I-80. Greening landscape. Mesquite and Scrub grass. Breakfast between Battle Mountain and Winnemucca.

Sparks of Joy and Awe: Vacating ahead of another 16 inches or so of Snow

One brief shining: Roomettes are small, but private, two seats, two nighttime beds, an outlet on the wall, only one, designed before personal electronics became more and more of our lives, most important a large window, a porthole as this long metal passenger ship presses its bulk forward, in this case to the Ocean, the wide Pacific and its bays in California.

Woke up around 5 am after off and on sleep until I took an ibuprofen, previously forbidden to me. Kidney disease. Since my labs have indicated no kidney disease for the last three years-it’s a mystery, Sue decided I could chance the occasional dose when things were, well, not good.
Trying to sleep last night as my hip said, hey, I’m here! I’m here, I reached a point where things were not good. Pain made it hard to sleep longer than an hour. So I reached for my first nsaid in many years.
Hammered that pain back into the hole it crawled out of. I didn’t feel bad. I’ve done p.t., which helps. Used the lidocaine patch, but 12 hours on, twelve hours off. Tried acupuncture, no relief. Seen a physiastrist. Increased my resistance work to strengthen my legs and core.
Two nsaid’s? NBD. Now that I know how much more effective they are than acetamenophin for back pain, I’m going to press for greater clarity about kidney disease.
All in all though, painful moments have not prevented me from boarding the train, walking around, going on vacation. Mixed conclusion, but right now travel trumps pain.
Part of the trick is to avoid over stressing my back. I did that yesterday walking around Union Station and to the train itself. Had I been a bit more circumspect I may not have had the pain I did. Learning curve

Yesterday the route of the California Zephyr followed the Colorado River for a long way. As I watched its muddy, ordinary flow, I wondered how something so mundane could be so important to millions of people. It is. The Water that flowed toward the Baja collects and channels Snow melt from Mountain Tops and Valley Floors, rushing it on south toward Las Vegas, Phoenix, even Los Angeles. Agriculture is the largest user though, not metro areas. Setting up a current struggle between population focal points and fields.

Just a moment: Student protests. Then and now. This 77 year old veteran of the war against the war knows the power and the fury of going over against the war machine. Against death from the Sky, death decreed by old white men, usually, too often, the death of those seen as other, be they North Vietnamese or Palestinians.
Yet this time. Anti-semitism is in the mix. Hard.

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Arriving

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Sunday gratefuls: Steve, the Uber driver. The Chancellor. Powell Street. Cable cars. The Moon of Liberation standing over the Hyatt Regency. Amtrak. My back and its pains. A good night’s sleep. Diane. Her town. Mission and Fremont. Traveling. Vacating. Seeing the U.S. West, then the Pacific.

Sparks of Joy and Awe: Uber

One brief shining: Left Roomette #21 behind pushing my bag, down the stairs, off the train, pushing bag again, show ticket to shuttle bus driver, board the bus, cross the bridge from Oakland to San Francisco with the Bay rippling underneath us, Alcatraz brooding off to my right, get out at Mission and Fremont, call an Uber, get in and ride to the Chancellor on Union Square.

 

No Wifi on train so my first trip posts will be above this one. Wrote them on Scribener and will import them when its update gets finished. Write now I’m in room 1304 of the Chancellor, a boutique hotel on Union Square. Writing now, too.

The back is an issue, but not a deal breaker for travel. Slower and with more management of pain. Sorta like home.

Steve, my Uber driver, was from Phoenix, now married to a S.F. gal. He drove a white Tesla and showed up within a minute of my booking. A critical move for my back. In times past I would have preferred to walk the 19 minutes to the hotel; now I know that level of effort would stress my hip and set me back.

My original flaneur idea, when the back flared for the first time in Korea, is the right one. Go slow and easy. Keep up the exercise. Do pain management.

That’s ok. The buzz of the new and the different still feeds my soul.

 

Yesterday as the train made its slow, delayed approach through poor suburbs, boulevards and underpasses filled with the makeshift homes of the unhomed, I got that sense of unease that always accompanies evidence of our failed political economics.

Then we came to Grizzly Island Wildlife Area. Egrets and Blue Heron. The Marsh. A Fox loping along for an evening meal. Wild Neighbors for San Francisco and its burbs. Calm returned to my soul. Not because there were no trailer parks, burned out cars, Target shopping carts, but because this felt like my place, a home away from home. Here I knew what to notice, how to exist.

In the so sad introduction to a major world metropolis my heart clogged up, the scenes of poverty’s devastation boiling my blood. Agitating me. Wanting to make me scream. So much so that I looked up M.I.C.A.H., the Metropolitan Interfaith Coalition for Affordable House. Yes, still there, almost 40 years now. And the Minnesota Council of Non-Profits. Fancy website. Couldn’t find Jobs Now though it may have morphed into something else. It was there the last time I wondered if what I’d done really mattered.

Yes, economic injustice and its tragedies are and will be with us. But so will those whose lives are spent trying to change them and if change can’t happen right now, ameliorate their effects.

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The Travel Jones

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Spring and the Moon of Liberation

Thursday gratefuls: Travelin’. Truckin’. Grateful Dead, thanks Mark. Diane. Great Sol, out and proud. My Lodgepole Companion performing, as I write, the oh so necessary miracle of photosynthesis. The 60’s and San Francisco. Flowers in my beard, maybe? That day before leavin’ feelin’. Lots to do. Lidocaine patch on. Ready for the day. Living.

Sparks of Joy and Awe: Amtrak

One brief shining: That Travelpro lies on its back right now thrown open, zippers dangling, ready to receive that which I decide I cannot buy in Union Square and that which I’ll need until my new clothes arrive from Bonobo’s, my meds all ready for their placing in those plastic containers so familiar to those geriatric others out there, electronics and their necessary cables, charging apparati are still in place doing their work and will be snatched up last.

 

Oh the things we’ll see and the places we’ll go. As this, the last day before vacation, has arrived my mood has that pre-trip lift. No fussing around. Stop the mail. Get a pedicure. Text Marina about the key for Ana. Gather Hebrew pages. Run the dishwasher. All that kind of thing.

I have some pro-travelers in my life. My brother Mark has lived most of his adult life on the road, out of the country. Hopping from Southeast Asia to Saudi Arabia depending on work and his whim. My sister Mary has lived most of her adult life in Southeast Asia. She’s made the most of it, not thinking twice about traveling around the world to visit friends and family, for work helping the educational systems of various countries, teaching in Japan. My son travels internationally many times a year, currently lives in Korea, before that Singapore and Hawai’i. My buddy Mark (aka Mario, Sam) Odegard has made of travel an art form, a venue for taking risks, for learning about new cultures, for adventures with Babbet. Friend Paul Strickland has visited many countries, gone round the world. Tom traveled for work, a lot. Me? I look at them and marvel. How they can decide just what to take. Make all the arrangements,handle the inevitable snafus. They are my role models.

Well, two more. Mom and Dad. Mom made the daring decision to join the WAC’s in WWII, getting sent to Europe and north Africa with the Signal corps. She saw Algiers, Capri, Rome, London. The first of our small family to leave the country for points beyond these shores. Dad though. He was the ur traveler even though he only got beyond North America once as far as I know. He just loved to go. We went to Oklahoma a lot. His birthplace and mine. We went to Canada, to Stratford, Ontario. We went to state parks in Indiana, to Air Force base museums. After his sort of retirement, he and his then wife, Rosemary, traveled Indiana going to places with curiosities that Dad wanted to see for himself like the really big ball of twine or the river that disappeared.

Though I’ve been more modest in my getaways, I’ve had my share. What I do have though is the travel jones. Every once in a while, I need to go somewhere. Of late, I’ve let inertia tamp that down, but like any jones it’s never really gone. It awaits only a pretty picture of somewhere far away, or a lecturer mentioning the churning of the sea of milk to get me on Kayak or the Amtrak website.

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My revels are not yet ended

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Wednesday gratefuls: Shirley Waste. Taking out the trash. Pine Martens. Otters. Sea Lions. Platypuses. Echidna. Cassowaries. Emus. Ostriches. Dinosaurs. Velociraptors. T-Rex. Brontosaurus. Mitochondria. Organelles. Life. Its emergence. Our participation in it. A true and undoubtable miracle. Consciousness. Life observes itself. The Universe observes itself. And celebrates itself.

Sparks of Joy and Awe: Life

One brief shining: A morning thing gripping the plastic bar across the back of the trash bin, giving its plastic tire a kick so the bin shifts back onto the tires, then dragging it, making the sound of Thunder across the asphalt cracks headed toward not a curb, no not here, but the edge of Black Mountain Drive where it will wait for the truck to come, embrace it, lift it, shake it, and return it to the ground, goodbye trash, goodnight recycling.

 

In at least two different places at once. An improvement over times past when my self lay fragmented over my calendar and its scribbled appointments, its crossed out engagements and the repercussions of both filtering out like tiny fingers, tearing open the envelope of the next day and the day after, contaminating them with worry.

Today I’m pushing myself, challenging myself. Do the trip. Discover new limits. Or, discover that the worry, this not so tiny finger has no business in my heart. Yes. The trip.

Second place. The new Jew. Still learning Torah portion. Perhaps needing to learn some more for the service. Reading to finish the last session of Jamie’s ten lessons for conversion. Finding myself oversaturated, filled past the brim with so much new information, behavior, language, worldview that I feel weary. Not weary as in on my Eloheinu this was a mistake. Not at all. Weary as in enough for now. Like nearing the end of a period of study. Bachelors. Master of Divinity. Doctor of Ministry. Enough for now. Don’t tell me what to read. Don’t put me on display. There is though, as there were with each of these degrees, still a bit more to do. Have the bar mitzvah ceremony. Read my Torah portion. Have my last class with Jamie. Then. Ahhhh.

So travel as personal litmus test and pushing through the last days of my year of living Jewishly. Working to continue life with eagerness and depth. That’s what these represent for me. Both of them.

Reshaping my days and my commitments to a new, 77 year old form.

Want to be clear. It delights me to have these two places to become. A trip and a new identity. My life is not over and I’m living it full out or at least as full out as my 77 year old body and energy level will allow. I talk to Kate most days, know she walks this part of my ancientrail with me. A joy.

From the calendar, the Zen calender: Joy is being willing for things to be as they are. Charlotte Joko Beck.

And, just because Tom (who sends me the Zen calendar each year) put this out yesterday on Shakespeare’s 400th birthday:

Our revels now are ended. These our actors,
As I foretold you, were all spirits and
Are melted into air, into thin air:
And, like the baseless fabric of this vision,
The cloud-capp’d towers, the gorgeous palaces,
The solemn temples, the great globe itself,
Ye all which it inherit, shall dissolve,
And, like this insubstantial pageant faded,
Leave not a rack behind. We are such stuff
As dreams are made on, and our little life
Is rounded with a sleep.

 

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Cabin Fever Trip

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Tuesday gratefuls: Great Sol. Brightening our day. Counting the Omer. Begins tonight. Traveling readiness day. Delayed, but happening today. Diane’s great work on setting up an itinerary. Museums, as Ode says, temples of creativity. The Artist’s Way. My Jewish immersion. The Three Body Problem trilogy. Fall Out on Prime Video. High quality television. Kindle.

Sparks of Joy and Awe: Artists-painters, writers, playwrights, musicians, poets, actors, sculptors, architects, composers

One brief shining: With awakening I’m in a new life, a multiverse reality based on the day before yet new as the dew on a spring ephemeral, in that day my many breaths each constitute life breathed out and back in, new lives each breath, how can I keep from singing?

 

Feeling the welcoming breath of a travel day exhaling from the end of the week toward me. Inspiring my activities today. Finalize packing. Stop mail. Get a pedicure. Collect myself for a journey.

This is mostly a cabin fever trip. A way of escaping a place I love because the snow and the cold stayed a bit too long. And for most folks I’ve talked to. A way to refresh the joys of home by vacating its presence for a bit. Enjoy the graces and beauties of San Francisco, see Diane. Live in a hotel for 7 nights, 2 nights in a sleeping car there and back. Write. Read. See the Rockies, the intermountain West, the Sierra Nevadas, canyons and deserts.

I’ve missed seeing good art on a regular basis. I’ve not found the Denver art scene at all comparable to the Twin Cities and I’ve let that attitude, plus the drive, keep me from seeing much at all. That’s on me. This trip will allow me to visit at least three of the country’s great collections: The Legion of Honor, the De Young, and the Asian Art museum. I plan to see them slowly. Taking as much time as I need. Reenter the world of Zhou and Han, Song and Tang, Picasso and Hokusai, Rodin and Giacometti.

Yes. You could say of me. Religion, politics, and art. The subjective, the debatable, the aesthetic, the aspects of culture not manageable by STEM. Sure I like a good scientific discovery as much as the next nerd, but to examine an ancient text for the message it carries down the millennia to this day, to stand in the street and face down an oppressive economy, to join the conversation of those for whom shape, color, and language create whole worlds and dizzying perspectives, yes. That’s my journey.

That and one other thing. The wild spots outside my door, up the flank of Black Mountain. Here on Shadow Mountain I can integrate the seeker, the advocate, and the artist with the world around me. My Lodgepole Companion and I see each other each morning. I said hello yesterday to those Mule Deer Does munching grass along Black Mountain Drive. Within them lie the same message as the Torah portion I will read on June 12th, the same spirit of over against oppressive structures, and an equivalent beauty to the best of Monet.