Neither Here nor There

Samain                                                                        Closing Moon

Finding myself in a strange psychic netherworld, neither wholly ready to act, nor wholly unwilling, between this state and that state. This mood will lift, perhaps by tomorrow, but right now. Neither this nor that. Doesn’t seem odd to me, one possible result from what feels now like a rush to the finish, yet the location of that rush to the finish being a place of stasis for over 20 years.

Living in the move has been our mantra for the last 8 months and we will, in just over a month, live the move. That’s a different interior location, the difference between preparation and action. While in the mode of preparation we have been able to live the comfortable old life and indulge in fantasy about Colorado. Now, though, the preparation is coming to an end and we will have to face the real world consequences of our decision.

One conversation I had with a friend over the last month lead us to wonder if there is no morality, just consequences. That is, ideas and actions are neither good nor bad, just consequential. Whatever the truth value of that idea, it does seem that maturation comes when we accept responsibility for our actions and their consequences.

In this case there are two large stroke consequences that have been obvious from the beginning; the notion of living in the move has been an exercise in accepting both of them. The first is a going away from, a leaving behind of friends, memories, familiar places, habits and routines. The second is a moving toward, a discovering of new places, new friends, creating new memories, habits and routines. No, it’s not as black and white as I state it here. The two consequences will bleed into each other, interact. Friends will visit Colorado; we will return to Minnesota for example.

But the consequences remain. Physical separation, especially 900 miles, changes the nature of all kinds of relationships: personal, geographical, botanical, navigational. The exact nature of the changes will not be known for several years, probably, and that’s a good thing. A gradual rather than a sudden unveiling seems easier on the psyche.

There and Back Again

Samain                                                                            Closing Moon

At some point the weather of Conifer and Andover will diverge. This week is a foretaste. Andover heads into the teens while Conifer remains in the 30’s and 40’s. This divergence will increase as December and January come with Andover getting colder and colder, but Conifer remaining 10 to 20 degrees warmer. Fortunately, this process reverses as Andover heats up, Conifer remains cooler and will eventually be cooler consistently than Andover during the summer months. From my perspective this is an ideal divergence from our norms here, mildly warmer in the winter, markedly cooler in the summer. And, yes, this factored in our choice of locations.

Going to lay down the broadcast in the vegetable garden and the orchard this morning, then mulch. Kate and Anne planted next year’s garlic crop while I was in Colorado. With no additional effort then, the new owners will have apples, pears, plums, cherries, currants, raspberries, gooseberries, strawberries, rhubarb, asparagus and garlic from their orchard and vegetable garden. In addition they will have daffodils, liguria, monkshood, many varieties of Asiatic lilies, iris and hemerocallis. Clematis, daffodils, tulips and fall crocus will IMAG0683bloom, too. Wisteria, lilac, bushy clematis and snakeroot put fragrance, delicate and sweet, in the air. They will have three different sheds in which to organize their outdoor life and a firepit for family evenings. There are, too, the separated plantings of prairie grass and wildflowers that bracket the front lawn, providing habitat for butterflies and other wildlife.

In addition the property has about 1.5 acres of woods, including a morel patch that shows up in the late spring. With the inground irrigation system this is a place for a person with an interest in living closer to the earth and harvesting the literal fruits of such a lifestyle.

Included with the property is enough woodenware to get a beekeeping hobby started.

 

Just Beginning

Samain                                                                     Closing Moon

I now feel like a temporary resident of Minnesota. When I drove back over the Minnesota state border yesterday, the sign said, “Welcome to Minnesota.” In the past welcome back to Minnesota would have been how I read it. Yesterday I read it, for the first time in over forty years, as welcoming an out-stater coming to visit.

There are many details yet to be handled before we fully leave Minnesota, yes, but the past 6 days were an immersion in the new: roads, driveways, restaurants, vistas, rooms, scents, animal cohabitants, appliances, people. That immersion has left a strong impact on me, a feeling that I am now more a new resident just beginning to learn a new place than I am an old resident grieving the loss of the familiar.

 

A Snowthrower?

Samain                                                                       Closing Moon

A day of rest tomorrow. Maybe some art. Then on Friday back to the packing, sorting and phone calls.

Hitting a snag on snow removal. Folks are getting out of it in Conifer. One guy, with 80 driveways, quit this year. That means, in an already saturated market (according to Mike the Fence Guy), 80 homes will need to find someone to plow their driveways. I might, I suppose, have to buy a snowblower (or snowthrower as some are now called). Outdoor recreation.

Found one guy who delivers seasoned hardwood for $300+ a cord. Might be worth it in Colorado where the normal cord has all conifers. $22o. It’s a small fireplace and a cord might well go two seasons. I’m going to call him tomorrow along with boiler and gas heater service guy.

The front office guy at Colorado Toyota Services moved to Conifer from northern Iowa. He said the first week he was there it snowed 44″. “But I walked right through it to the garage. It was powder.”

Hard to wind back into Minnesota after 5 days concentrating on the house.

 

Back in Minnesota

Samain                                                                        Closing Moon

Back home in Minnesota. There was enough time in the new house to get used to certain things like light switch locations, getting in and out of the garage (not connected to the house), fiddling with room-by-room heating and the wonderful canopy of stars at night. There was also enough time to begin to get a feel for the retail clusters nearby and what they have to offer.

Then, there were the mountains. Only enough time to drive around a bit, get used to curvy, all up or all down roads, some pitched at spectacular angles, look at the views. Not enough time to wander, walk in them, visit for hours. That time will come.

Driving into Denver, and what that will be like, I experienced three times, enough to get a feel for the distance, the various routes. My existing mental map of Denver has some solid foundations, but most of the metro is still unfamiliar to me.

With about six weeks before we move there are still many things to complete: our part of the packing, finalizing the painting contractor, stopping newspaper delivery and trash pickup, finding a person to connect our generator to the house, getting leads on firewood providers. And more, too.

We’ve worked along at a deliberate pace and finishing all this in six weeks is well within our ability. Not finished, not yet, but the end of getting ready is visible just up ahead.

 

Tyranny and Volatility

Samain                                                  Closing Moon

Glad I was in deep space with the coming of the Formic Wars yesterday. US politics are a mess. I’m not referring mostly to the Republican victories, but to the system as a whole right now. Yes, I’m unhappy about the Republican tilt, but I’m more unhappy about the volatility in our political life at all levels, especially Congress.

Democracy has two primary weaknesses. The first is the tyranny of the majority, seen so well during the days of Supreme Court sanctioned slavery, then Jim Crow. The second is its potential volatility, resulting when political sentiments careen wildly, often due to voter apathy and narrowed factionalism. Tyranny of the majority is self-evidently bad, but the second is more subtle.

Volatility brings instability in policy making, as shifts in power in legislative and executive offices cause sudden lurches in the making of laws and in executive decisions. Immigration, global climate change and American foreign policy are three important policy areas where where clear government action seems further and further away.

One party in control is not the opposite of volatility. The opposite of volatility is an electorate that makes considered choices, shows up at the polls in substantial numbers and keeps pressure on their elected officials after election day. Presidential elections are often better than mid-terms in this regard.

A Day in Deep Space

Samain                                                            Closing Moon

Spending the night in a Quality Inn in Lincoln, Nebraska near the only capitol with a unicameral legislature. Left Conifer sometime in the morning. I say sometime because I got up at 5am with Central Daylight Time moving my body in Mountain Standard Time.  Drove across Colorado, looking back occasionally at the snowcapped Rockies, mountains which had been mostly gray/green on my arrival last Friday.

All the day the nation has voted and I’ve been in deep space with the beginning of the first Formic war, part of Orson Scott Card’s Ender series. Having voted a week ago by mail and powerless today to have even the smallest effect on the outcome, I decided to stay dark and just drive.

A full closing moon rose over stubbled corn fields often filled with herds of cattle gleaning between the rows. Other fields had the working lights of corn pickers raising clouds of dust as they moved through light tan rows of ripe corn, yellow rivers of kernels flowing into flanking trucks. This is early November and the corn harvest is still underway.

I noticed a degree of comfort rose in my chest as I reentered the agriculture zone after 6 days in my new home. In the arid west there are cattle and mesquite, mountains and conifers, but no yet to harvest fields of corn. This place with its Great Wheel rhythms, the rhythms of my whole life, these humid plains and the farms of the Midwest have cut deep furrows in the fields of my memory.

Last night at Brooks in Aspen Park I met Sarah, a Kentucky transplant, from the largish city of Louisville, still not sure about this mountain, winter thing she had moved into just a year ago. A waitress and young she still felt out of place and a deep part of me understood her bewilderment. I also know that if she stays a while, she’ll become one with the mountains and the winters just as I became one with winters and lakes.

 

Back to My Second Home

Samain                                                          Closing Moon

Coming home a day early. Sears Outlet, which I love for its prices, does not get the same affection for its service. We ordered a washer and dryer a couple of weeks ago, both to be delivered today. This was online.

When nothing appeared about the washer in our e-mail, Kate called. Oh, the store had cancelled that order. Huh? Today, November 4th, the day promised on the website I had received no call from Sears about delivery times. Another call. Oh, the store hasn’t shipped that yet. OK. Cancel the dryer. We’ll take care of these when we can look someone in the eye.

Aside from a few phone calls, that was my last reason for staying. With it removed, I’m on the road for my second home. Today.

Up With the Stars

Samain                                            Closing Moon

Body on Central Daylight Time so I’m up with the stars still brilliant. The night sky here, with very little light pollution, is an amenity itself. The Milky Way shows off its galaxy collection and the constellations look like they were placed and lit with the aid of a teaching astronomer.

With the fence contracted this trip feels like a success. Yes, there have been other things accomplished, but without a fence completed before we move the remainder of the winter would have been difficult. Not pioneer, huddle around the peat stove difficult, but doggy difficult.

One anomaly will present itself to any visitor here. Though we are in the mountains, we are in a small neighborhood with folks closer on either side than at our Andover home. At 67 neighbors are good. So is highway 78, which runs in front of our home here. It’s a main thoroughfare (although between sparsely populated areas) and as a result receives full county snow removal.

Though we’re not off completely by ourselves, the neighbors are keep to themselves types, probably NRA friendly, but that’s the environment politically in Anoka County, too. Conifer and Evergreen as a whole though seem to lean more liberal, at least judging by the ever reliable bumper sticker survey.

Just went out on the balcony a moment ago and discovered my old buddy Orion rising off to the west. Which seemed wrong to me, at least to my sense of direction, so I went inside to recheck our orientation with my backcountry navigator app. It was my sense of where Orion ought to be that was off. He is in the west.

I can already feel my mind returning to its normal level of curiosity. With the house purchased and the fence contractor identified, the unknowns that remain are exciting. Finding the Maxwell waterfall trailhead, which is only a couple of miles from here. Visiting the national forest information center just off 285. Driving more of the roads around here.

Though we have neighbors and a main road, we are otherwise isolated with national forest, state and city and county parks all around us. It will be the natural world here that will take the place of the Twin Cities’ cultural scene.

There are yet a few more matters to do today: get the dryer installed, call firewood folk, call boiler guy, call Intermountain electric for locate service, pack for trip home.

I’ll be coming down the mountain Wednesday morning, headed for Minnesota.

 

 

Save the Brakes

Samain                                                      Closing Moon

Oh. And yes I voted absentee before I left.

In the end Brian’s numbers were too high. Mike’s going to do the fence. His plan is less effective in some ways, but with a spare $3,600 (over Brian’s bid) to make up for problems, Mike’s our guy. Since we plan to marry traditional fencing and the invisible fence, this should work fine.

We have gas, electricity, broadband, a phone number, water and will have a fence. Kate’s been advancing at home, gathering bids from painters and final numbers from the carpet guy. We still need trash collection, snow removal and firewood. And, of course, out stuff. George Carlin would be proud of us. We’ve got stuff. A full moving van’s worth. Ah, the monastic life.

The Colorado Toyota service seem like a real find. Spent a half an hour with them discussing mountain driving, tires, their service. Basically, they have Toyota trained techs, OEM parts, but are not affiliated with a dealer. They recommend Blizzak tires, a Bridgestone product, which I’ll buy once we get out there in December. “You go through brakes faster in the mountains,” Kevin said. With 2nd gear and careful planning we can save the brakes.

I’ve done our forwarding changes on line, so mail should be no problem. I’ve also tried to eat my through the area restaurants, to gauge quality. So far my favorite food came at Los 3Garcias. Authentic Mexican. Brooks is good, too, as is the Brookforest Inn.

Our process continues to serve us well, keeping us just ahead of looming deadlines and schedules. It’s been a joint effort all the way. That doesn’t mean I haven’t managed to crank up a few good anxiety episodes, I have, but they have not dominated.