A Little Hard to Grasp

Samain                                                        Moving Moon

Jon came and cleared out a path for the movers. Ruth worked at it, too, with a plastic avalanche shovel. Even Jon, living in Denver, got winded shoveling snow up here, another 3,600 feet higher. Throughout this whole process, people have been kind and sweet. Tom’s driving. Jon’s shoveling. The docents partying. Even Eric, the kennel master at Armstrong Kennels told us we were good dog people and he was sorry to see us go. That’s real praise.

The only move part left of the move is the van coming on Monday. After that we’ll be settling. Oh, there are plenty of sequelae like selling that other house we own, paying the movers, doing some reconfiguring in the kitchen, getting acclimatized, but the move itself will be over on Monday once our stuff returns to us. That’s a big deal in my mind and I will retire the Move category from the posts.

The enormity of this change is still a little hard to grasp. We’re no longer Minnesotans, but Coloradans. We’re no longer flatlanders but mountain dwellers. We’re no longer Midwesterners. Now we are of the West, that arid, open, empty space. These changes will change us and I look forward to that. The possibility of becoming new in the West has long been part of the American psyche, now I’ll test it for myself.

The Pack Is Back

Samain                                                     Moving Moon

The pack has come together. Kate and Gertie arrived around three. There was a good deal of mutual sniffing and wagging of tails. Kate the Intrepid, as Jane West calls her, dismounted from the cargo van with a victorious grimace. She had driven it all the way, by herself. See.

Jon and crew are coming. He’ll help me clear the driveway for the moving van. This place will soften up, come alive when the furniture is here, the art, the lamps, the books, the pots and pans, the dishes and serving pieces. All in the van. Coming on Monday. A great Hanukkah/Christmas holiday special treat.

Aspen Perks

Samain                                                            Moving Moon

Tom and I had breakfast at Aspen Perks this morning. All the waiters and waitresses had on elf hats in this mountain cafe just off Highway 285. He had pastry with egg, ham, basil and pesto. I had the Bronco omlette, sausage, bacon and cheese. Back on the low carb way after 24 hours off. As Martin Luther said, “When you sin, sin boldly.”

Tom’s effort, driving out here the entire way while the dogs slumbered, was unremarkable. And in that the best possible result. We got here with no doggie wounds, no almost runaways, not even any agitation. Thanks, again, friend, for a valuable moment in the 27 years we’ve known each other.

I’m still sleep deprived, but not terrible. I have to unload the van, then help Jon shovel the driveway. An Ambien tonight, perhaps tomorrow night and I should be ready for the delivery.

The Dogs. Confused.

Samain                                                                      Moving Moon

When the dogs got here last night, they jumped out, ran around in the backyard for a moment, then promptly turned around, ran back in the garage and jumped back in the Rav4. Like a vintage Keystone cops moment, it took more than one try to get them inside the house. Two would come in and a third run back to the garage, then one would come in and two would rush back to the garage. When I opened the Rav4’s front door to retrieve some belongings, all three dogs quickly pushed passed me into the driver’s and passenger’s seat’s to stage a sit-down, lie-down strike.

Finally after I got a water bowl down for them and all their bedding inside the house, I closed the door and they went to sleep.

This morning, after I fed them, I let them outside and they went right over to the garage door, wanting back in the Rav4.

In their whole life they’ve never gone further than from our house to the kennel and back, so this is a great puzzle to them. But as I write this all three lie down on the floor around me. Rigel is on my right, Vega on the left and Kep in front.

Arrival

Samain                                                                                     Moving Moon

The moving moon has waned, a sliver this early. It will go dark tomorrow, the Winter Solstice. Our first full day and night here at Black Mountain Drive. Tom Crane, Rigel, Vega, Kepler and I pulled into the garage about 12:15 am this morning. We drove in over several inches of snow, so a first task will be getting the driveway clear for the moving which comes on Monday.

The three dogs slept or rested quietly the whole way. I gave them a trazidone dose at the kennel at 8:30 am yesterday. That calmed them for the first few hours and after that the buzzing of the tires and the constant motion lullabyed them. It was a surprise, but a pleasant one.

Tom drove the whole way, 14 hours in one whack, stopping only briefly for food and gas. It was a great treat to be able to watch the miles roll away.

When I left Anoka after getting the dogs yesterday morning, I crossed the Mississippi at 9 am, realizing as I did that this time I would be not crossing back over it for some months. The Mississippi was now a dividing line between my former homelands east of it and my new one west of it. An American narrative, for sure.

We passed over the Minnesota state line at approximately noon. The state sign, which reads Thank you for visiting made us laugh. Yeah, a forty year visit. But it is now over.

Kate stopped for the night in Lincoln, finding a place where she and Gertie could sleep. She’ll be getting in later this afternoon. Then, the unloading of the cargo van. New tasks in a new place but tasks which, with the exception of clearing the driveway can wait until we’re ready. We have the next several years to get settled here on Shadow Mountain.

Departure

Samain                                                                Moving Moon

As the moving moon wanes, so does our presence here. After breakfast and last minute adjustments to our various cargoes, Kate and I will go to Armstrong Kennels to pick up our pack. Armstrong has been a wonderful place for our dogs. We’re remembered there as the customers who “once had five Irish Wolfhounds.”

I feel lighter today, untethered at last from the seemingly endless stream of things and tasks related to packing and getting ready to leave. Over several months now I’ve operated well outside my comfort zone, especially so since the closing on October 31st. There is something positive about working there, but too much for too long. I look forward to getting back to the computer, back to the writing, back to letting my mind wander.

Settling in on Black Mountain Drive will, of course, take time and will not be without its own challenges, yes. But. It will have the added joy of a new life, new eco-system, more time with family. We’re ready for all of that. The upside, the 8,800 feet upside.

 

 

 

 

 

Nocturne

Samain                                                                          Moving Moon

Last nocturne in Minnesota. We’re at the Best Western. The house is empty, the cargo van full. We pick up the dogs in the morning, then Kate heads south and I head into the western burbs to pick up co-driver, Tom Crane. After that Minnesota will swiftly pass away behind us, certainly not for the last time, but for the last time as residents.

Over the years we have experienced the death of many dogs. It’s odd, but the body of the dead dog holds no sentimental attachment for me. Of course, I’m grieving the loss of a friend, but the body no longer hold that friend. I feel the same way about our house. Empty of our presence, the life-giving force that made it home, it is of no interest to me, a lifeless building.

The grounds though, where our hands have shaped garden beds, sheds, a fire pit, an orchard, a vegetable garden, for that I have a continuing connection, one not lost by moving away from it. It will always be partly ours, partly an expression of our stewardship and care. That feels good. We left that property better than we found it, the only gift ownership really has to bestow.

I have never and still don’t feel any personal connection to Andover or this larger area we’ve inhabited. I’ll not miss it at all when we leave it behind tomorrow. Minnesota, much different. In Minnesota I became an adult. In Colorado I will become a third phase adult. And I’m looking forward to it.

Have to go to sleep now. A long day and night ahead of me.

 

Between the Worlds

Samain                                                                         Moving Moon

99% of our worldly goods are now stuffed into a moving van, probably sitting right now at a truckstop while Richard sleeps. The house is empty, but messy, the detritus of 20 years suddenly revealed under some furniture. A forlorn feeling, standing in the living room empty of rugs, bookcase, couch, dog toys, the grand piano, dogs. Us.

Today we have to load the cargo van, adjust the seat and steering wheel for Kate, wash the dog bedding, finish up the disclosure statement and send it by Fedex to Margaret Richards, our Realtor, along with the flash drive containing Ode’s book pitching our landscaping to potential home buyers.

We stayed here at the Best Western last night and came here yesterday for a nap, too. It feels a bit naughty, checking into a motel in your own town.

We no longer live at 3122 153rd Ave. NW, Andover, MN, 55304. Though we still own it and are responsible for it. Right now, we’re living, as I heard Bill Schmidt say Sunday, between the worlds, neither in Minnesota nor Colorado.

Feelings are clearer now. Sad about having an empty house, glad about being at this stage. Watching the movers disassemble various items means having to reassemble them at the other end. Jon, fortunately, and Kate, are good at such things.

 

Samain                                                                      Moving Moon

The upstairs is empty save for the Stickley bookcase, a long and weighty piece. These guys work hard, carrying the cartons on their backs, hands extended behind themselves. Sometimes they carry two cartons at once. They’re cheerful, like the first crew, and have worked steadily. They may finish today.

Checked with A1 and changed the delivery date to Monday instead of Sunday. Just to soon after a long, sleepless drive. Have a little time to rest, let some sleep deficit get repaid.

20 years here. 44 in Minnesota. More than 2/3rds of my life a Minnesotan. Kate’s been here a bit longer so about the same for her. The material evidence of our time will not all leave with us. The hundreds of perennial bulbs I’ve planted, the fences, the boulder walls, the perennial beds and the raised vegetable beds. The three sheds. The finished basement, including the steam bath.

Van Loading Day

Samain                                                        Moving Moon

The van, a large blue and white Stevens Moving Van, parked at our driveway at 8:30 am this morning. Three packers have come and lamps, chairs, boxes, garden tools have begun to disappear from the house, swallowed up by a moving rectangle attached to a powerful V-8.

The packers are a Latino, an African-American and a white guy with a large bushy red beard. I don’t envy them their job, having done it for a week or so when I was 21. It’s heavy, steady, difficult work.

Richard is all business, roaming the house with his clipboard and his role of inventory tags. He has on a coat and a stocking hat, probably the only one on his block in West Palm Beach who owns such clothing. Everything that goes on the truck gets a tag and a note on the inventory page. This is a labor intensive process, no wonder it costs so much.

There is a finality to this day. It puts a large red Ready or Not Here We Go on our foreheads. We are ready.

This morning about 3:30 am I realized we had to take the dog crates in the cargo van. If we don’t, we’d have movers going in out of our new house, up and down the stairs to my loft, followed close by with dogs.