Lincoln

Winter (Christmas Day)                                             Moon of the Winter Solstice

Worked on Jason and Medea in the morning.  Kate and I went to see Lincoln in the afternoon.  A powerful movie.  The most realistic depiction of legislative politics I can recall seeing in a long time, maybe since Advise and Consent, which was a long time ago.

A gritty, dark movie about democracy in a moment of extreme crisis, of a strange but good man tested, the colorful figures in and around Lincoln and in the U.S. House of Representatives at the time.  A costume drama and I like costume dramas.  But this one has substance.

It brought me to tears several times in the closing minutes, not only around Lincoln’s assassination, but also around the political issue of passing the 13th amendment.  An awareness of the difficult, unpretty work necessary to make it happen layered on a contemporary realization of the work undone.

It also made me reflect on how different things might have been had Lincoln not died.  I mean reconstruction.  Yes, we fought for the freedom of the enslaved, but we also allowed Jim Crow to create new peculiar institutions, delaying that longed for trip to the mountaintop, a trip not yet fully taken thanks to the struggles of the Northern diaspora.

After we ate dinner at Explore China.  Mooshu Pork, wonton soup, hot tea.

 

The Hours Before Christmas

Winter                                                                       Moon of the Winter Solstice

Went out today to pick up the bound copies of Missing.  Fun to see the thick, maybe 4 inches, copy of my work over the last year, year and a half.  It has what Kinko’s calls a comb binding which consists of a round linked spiral of plastic wound through closely space holes punched in the left margin.   This will allow each of my beta readers to have their own copy that they can mark up as much as they want.  A lot, I hope.  Not sure why but I really feel different about this process.  Better.

Then over to the Festival grocery store for a few items we needed.  It closed at 4 today and I was there at 3:15 pm.  The mood was jolly.  A very nice Christmas surprise.  When I walked in, a guy my age, white hair with a ponytail and beard, black leather Harley jacket pushed a cart out toward me.  “There you go.”  A small gesture, kind.  But so in keeping with the season that it left me smiling the whole time I was in the store.

Back home where Kate cooked tenderloin fillets, potatoes and green beans.  A festive supper.  And a good one.

Now Christmas eve has almost come to an end.  We plan to go see Abraham Lincoln tomorrow and eat Chinese.  Jewish solidarity.

All About Santa

Winter                                                                 Moon of the Winter Solstice

So.  It comes to down this if you’re about 6 years old and into Santa Claus.  Less than 8 hours till C-day.  Somewhere the meteorologist has the sleigh on the radar.  The lights blink off and on.  Some Christmas carol or song plays ring a ling, jingle jingle Silent Night.

At some point you will have to go off to bed.  Go to sleep.  Right!

Hear all those noises?  The clump, the clank.  The tinkle.  A big thump in the living room.  How can you know that’s Dad tripping over the rug?  You know it’s Santa.  Bulging bag on his back.  Checking the list.  Let’s see.  Nice?  or, Naughty?

And you. can’t. get. up.    Yet.

Long Projects

Winter                                                              Moon of the Winter Solstice

As I’m writing the laser printer spits out the first copy of the revised manuscript.  268 pages single-space.  It’s cheaper for me to print them on my laser printer, then have Kinko’s bind them.  3 copies, two bound.  One bound copy to Lonnie and Stefan, one to Lydia.  Kate and I can read the loose leaf copy.

This time I’m going to put a full court press on finding an agent.  If you read this and have a way to connect me with an agent or an author you know who has an agent–and are willing to share–please let me know.

Kate said the other day that I preferred long projects.  I’d never thought of it that way.  But she’s right.  Getting to the point of proficient Latin translation still has some years ahead and I’ve already invested three.  I have more degrees than make sense and each one took years.  Then, there’s this whole writing thing.  I’ve been at it now for over twenty years, off and on.

Each book takes at least a year, sometimes more depending on the amount of delay in getting through the rough draft.  Then, there’s revisions.  And now there will be a serious quest for a publisher.  This time I feel good about what I’ve done.  Not necessarily a good sign since writers are notoriously bad judges of their own work, but there you are.

Anyhow it feels to good to have arrived at this point and tomorrow, I plan to start Loki’s Children, the second volume of the Tailte novels.

Saturday

Winter                                                            Moon of the Winter Solstice

The long night has come and gone.  The days have begun to grow longer, even if only by seconds.  I’ll be happy to see the first flowers of spring, the bees coming and going again, the garlic pushing its way through the mulch; of course I will, but that is in its season.  The season now is one of cold and darkness and I like it, too.

I have done my first compilation of Missing.  It’s 110,000 words.  A 320 page paperback, roughly.  Using Scrivener makes the process of creating a manuscript from many different documents pretty easy.  That’s not to say the first compilation is what I want.  It’s not.  Not quite.  So, I’ll have to spend some time fussing with it tomorrow, but I don’t think it will too long to get one that pleases me.

On the downside I got so into this task and my workout that followed that I missed signals from Kate that she was locked out.  Our garage door opener had quit working; she left it here and went out to do her nails.  When she came back, I was already working out and she couldn’t get in.  She was pretty steamed when she did.  She slogged through the snow in her clogs.  Not a happy camper at all.

 

End of the 13th Baktun

Winter                                                             Moon of the Winter Solstice

Well.  Here we are.  Forced to go on with the mundane and the profound, the profane and the sacred with no surcease from an apocalypse.  Eschatologists take note:  another in a long line of misses.

We now have articles in the newspaper debating the pros and cons of our weakening winter season.  There is no doubt that the ease of travel is a marked pro.  But the cons pile up faster than little snow, big snow.  No majesty out the window.  No sense of special endurance, Minnesota macho.  No chance to spend time in the woods on snow shoes or cross-country skis.  Of course, that brings me to another pro:  no snow-mobiles driving across our front yard.

Now that winter the holyday has come upon us Christmas cannot be far behind.  And, in fact, it lies out there, next Tuesday.  We have no tree, no decorations, no Christmas music here.  The menorah is put away until next year.  My holiday seasonal spirit has more to do with darkness that it does lights and presents.  Definitely an alt-holiday experience here in the outer burbs.

Can any reader predict the next end of the world?  I mean, what will we fret about next?

Speaking of Darkness: The National Rifle (Selling) Association

Winter                                                        Moon of the Winter Solstice

The NRA.  The cynicism continues.  Callous bondage to a rhetorical flourish, not even a true ideology.  “The only one who can stop a bad guy with a gun is a good guy with a gun.”  True, if you’re engaged in the act of arming everyone so they can be armed against everybody.  Not true if you shrink the availability of guns, the way many other countries have.

(The Nation)

Here are links to two profound articles in the NYT. Both appeared this week in response to the shootings in Newton.  Both come at the argument from a perspective you may not have encountered before.  These are articles by philosophers.  Let me know what you think.

The Weapons Continuum

By MICHAEL BOYLAN

Nuclear weapons can cause widespread death and destruction, so we ban them. Why do we allow such wide access to guns?

Why Gun ‘Control’ Is Not Enough

By JEFF MCMAHAN

A close look at the pro-gun stance leads to the conclusion that the United States should ban private gun ownership entirely, or almost entirely.

Winter Solstice, 2012

Winter Solstice                                                           Moon of the Winter Solstice

It’s here.  It’s here.  It’s finally here.  The longest night.  The sun has begun to set and the darkness will be with us for 15 hours and 14 minutes.  Had we been a resident of the British Isles or somewhere in Scandinavia, it would have been even longer. (and is, today.)  It’s no surprise then, that in the old religions of these countries that the Winter Solstice took on an ominous portent.

(source)

Think about it.  The last crop had come in at least two months ago, probably longer.  There was no prospect of a growing season even starting until the next April or early May.  And the nights had begun to grow longer and longer.  As the cold grew more intense and the daylight diminished, it could seem possible that never again would the ground be warm, the plants green.  You and your children might starve.

Yes, so far the sun had always returned but what would happen if the gods who controlled its coming and going no longer desired its return?  The gods lived in their own ways and to their own designs.  It could easily happen that we humans were not included.

So for some the Winter Solstice became a season of dread, followed by an increasing sense of relief as the sun escaped whatever was holding it back and began to ascend once again for a longer time each day.  Thank the gods.

You know the stories about holidays of light, those holidays that both reassure and, through principles of sympathetic magic, lure the sun back from its melancholy.

There is, however, another way to come to this long night.  This way takes the long night as good as the longest days of the Summer Solstice.  It celebrates the darkness, that fecund place where babies grow, bulbs germinate and creativity unfolds.

It sees this night as different from all other nights in that we set it aside as a holynight, a night that stands in for all other nights, for all those moments of darkness when richness and life and new beginnings collect, gather strength.

Yes, of course, we need the light.  The growing season.  The warmth.  And that time has it holyday, the Summer Solstice.  A celebration of light and fire and the profusion of plant life.

It may be harder to celebrate the dark.  It frightens us sometimes, reminds us of the coming darkness in which the sun will never again rise.  And of those for whom such time has already come.  There is no shame in this fear; it is universal.

But note this.  It especially cannot be assuaged by the message of Sol Invictus, the all conquering sun.  The darkness is coming, for each and every one of us.  Far more powerful then to embrace the darkness, not as over against life and the human spirit, but as friend, as necessary companion.

This is the darkness I celebrate tonight, the longest darkness of year.

 

 

Another Step Along the Way

Samhain                                                      Moon of the Winter Solstice

Over this weekend I will print out my first draft of Missing, that is, the first copy after the rough draft.  This one has many more revisions in it that I had planned.  It will get reproduced and bound for my beta readers.  I’m hoping they’ll finish it by the end of January, then I’ll go at it again.   Meanwhile on Christmas Eve I’ll put initial key to electrical impulse on Loki’s Children.

From the Spring and Autumn Period Until Now

Samhain                                                                 Moon of the Winter Solstice

Kids from Mankato today.  They have studied China and the first emperor.  We connected though I wouldn’t put these in my top two favorite tours of the year.    On me and them.  When the students come from further away, they have to get up early to get to school, get on the bus, then make the drive.  They seem tired.

Docent friend has decided to hang up his lanyard after 18 years.  I’ll be sorry to see him go. Tom’s got a quick wit.  As he said, “I may not be the sharpest knife in the drawer, but I’m in the drawer.”  Quite a bit more than that.  I hope we see him around at some points anyhow.

I have this feeling like it’s time for the semester to be over.  There are 16 more Terra Cotta Warrior tours on my calendar between now and January 11th.  That lengthy time off will feel good.