A Sweet, Sad Thing

Samain                                                                                       Closing Moon

It is a sweet sad thing, this leaving. Tonight before sheepshead Bill Schmidt and I ate supper at the St. Clair Broiler. the last such meal before our monthly card game. We’ve played cards 60 different times over a period of 8 years. That’s a long time. Bill and I have eaten together most card nights for the last couple of years.

We ate, talked of his daughter, his grandchildren. He gave me a gift, a CD, a Celtic Thunder Christmas. It has two songs on it with a distinctly Celtic (Irish) flavor and the rest is well-done versions of various Christmas standards. But it was not the music so much, he said, but the idea of holidays and Celtic and Christian together, all part of my way: holiseason, long years in the Christian ministry and a now long standing immersion in Celtic sensibilities about the land, the nature of time and joy, life and death.

At the game tonight, which did not go well from a score keeping vantage point for either Bill or me, we played with a sense of ending. Dick, Roy and Ed had not been caught up on our purchase in Conifer, nor, really, our reasons for leaving. We spoke of them.

At the end of the evening Judy made an apple crisp that was delightful, Roy had written a closing piece that would be a good eulogy and Dick Rice gave me a t-shirt with the Celtic triskelion and the sacred raven. I was told I would I would be missed and felt it.

As I said in my post from last night, I am a rich man. Yet, it is this richness that makes leaving sad, and, the leave takings themselves, also sweet. And, precious.

 

Restless

Samain                                                                  Closing Moon

A rambling, aimless energy. A similar feeling to the one just before a major holiday, when preparations are mostly finished, but the time is not yet. Wandering, a bit difficult to focus, not sure what’s important, since most of the important things have either been done or cannot be done yet. We have a mortgage, a new home, a fence contractor at work, a moving company scheduled, workers ready to renew our old home after we vacate it. Yes, there are a few things left for us to pack, but they’ll be finished soon. But we don’t leave until mid-December. An odd place.

This is no longer the neither here nor there feeling, nor the liminal space of living in the move. This is a before the move feeling. We’ve pushed Sisyphus-like this boulder up, up, up the hill and now it’s about to take all that momentum and careen down the other side. But. Not. Quite. Yet.

Off to play sheepshead tonight, perhaps my last time unless I teach the game to Jon, Jen, Kate and Barb. A good distraction. And another farewell.

Just went online, put in Colorado sheepshead and found, to my surprise, a meetup with 10 members, formed Oct. 25, 2014 for players of sheepshead. I joined. Who knows? Might be fun.

Forgot to mention that I also got an invitation to be introduced to the Conifer Rotary. I’ll probably pass on that. Sierra Club or the local Democratic party are more likely affiliations for me.

 

Close

Samain                                                             Closing Moon

The moving documents have been signed. The oriental rug is inside from the truck, carried on my back, an action barely within my physical limits. The guy at the American Rug Laundry makes it look easy.

After completing my Latin quota for the day (which I’ve set aside for nearly a month until yesterday), I’ll be back to packing. The goal this week, finish packing my office. Then, there are files and papers I haven’t touched in years and may just choose to pitch. After that, I’ll have to stop and think. I may be done or will be close to it. By mid-week next.

 

A Shoutout to Calvin

Samain                                                                                Closing Moon

Not often that your waiter hands  you his card. Calvin handed his card to Tom last night at Cafe Zentral. He was our waiter for the evening and a very knowledgeable one. On his card was his web address: www. stalvig.com from which the copy below is taken.

Shows that traditional boundaries and boxes don’t have to contain us. A shoutout to Calvin and his brand.

STALVIG is a lifestyle and craft brand lived and handmade by CalvinCalvin Stalvig

Raised on Lake Superior, based in Minneapolis, and residing for stints in Berlin, Calvin is in the world roaming countrysides, pedaling city streets, leisurely lunching, baking pies, climbing trees to forage for apples, preserving garden harvests, crafting, traveling, gathering friends, sewing, knitting and learning.

Life should be inspired, meaningful, beautiful, simple, and shared. Handcrafted Life is Art.

Rich in History and Rich in Memory

Samain                                                                               Closing Moon

Lunch today with Ode, discussing a brochure, a sales book for our house at the Birchwood Cafe. Dinner tonight with Tom, Roxann and Kate at Cafe Zentral. Each of these moments, extending friendships, adding to the years of time together, and in that sense not all that remarkable, are nonetheless remarkable. And poignant.

At lunch today Ode passed me as he came to sit down, placed his hand a moment on my shoulder. In that brief touch was twenty-five years of shared history, of knowing each other. We ate, spoke of our move to Conifer-“This is really happening,” he said.-his upcoming long trip to France with Elizabeth, about the cutting boards he was making of exotic woods. Then, we discussed which pictures, what words, might help that one person or couple see our property as their next home. And we were done.

Kate and I came early to Cafe Zentral, a relatively new restaurant at 5th and Marquette in the old Soo Line Building. The blue line runs beside it, on its way out to the airport and the Mall of America, on the way back to Target Field where the Twins play.

This place is dim, in the way that upper end restaurants often are. The food was excellent and continued that trend I’ve experienced elsewhere. That is, you get less food as you pay more for it. Gotta be one of the few products for which that’s the case.

It was not the food though, not the restaurant, not the blue line or the downtown location, but the friends. Tom and I have been Woolly Mammoths exactly the same length of time. We were initiated at Valhelga together, a year or so after the Mammoths came into existence.

Again, we spoke of this and that, but even the content of the words was not so much the point, but the being together, the being seen by each other, the acknowledging of those years, the now long years we’ve known each other.

So today I am a rich man. Rich in friends and in history. And able, thanks to long years of analysis, to say good-bye and retain these friendships. To see the parting not as final, not as abandonment, but as the closing of a chapter, the end of a period of time. I’m grateful to all these friends who value me enough to say farewell.

 

OK. Wow.

Samain                                                                      Closing Moon

This just posted on the NYT:

“The Philae has landed.

The European Space Agency’s ambitious attempt to place a spacecraft on the surface of a comet succeeded when a signal arrived at the mission control center at Darmstadt, Germany, just after 5 p.m . local time (11 a.m. Eastern time).

Cheers erupted.

“We’re there and Philae is talking to us,” said Stephan Ulamec, the manager for the lander. “We are on the comet.””

That In The Cave With A Roaring Fire Feeling

Samain                                                                                   Closing Moon

Tomorrow night Cafe Zentral with Tom and Roxanne. Next Monday with the class of 2005 at Allison’s. Thanksgiving at the Capital Grille with Anne. Then, the Nicollet Island Inn on December 15th. It’s both the holiseason and a time of farewell. I’m looking forward to all these times.

Our goal is to have all of the packing that we’re going to do done by Thanksgiving and that feels realistic to me, in spite of my last post. I’ve had a nap.

We have that in the cave with a roaring fire and a hunk of early bison roasting feeling. You know, animal skins snug around us, plenty of meat and berries in the pantry, a wintry landscape outside. No raiding the local grocery stores necessary for a reasonable time. A pleasure of humankind for the last fifty to a hundred thousand years.

Come to think of it, I guess that’s why meals together bring such warmth. That kind of conviviality goes way, way back.

A Bit of Whining

Samain                                                                             Closing Moon

Back to packing this morning, but the heart’s not in it. It’s not a reluctance to move on, not at all. Rather, it’s a weariness, evident today. Push, push, push. Out to Colorado, home, out to Colorado. Home. Now confused about location of home. The task seems impossible, even though I know it isn’t. We’re 85% packed and the movers will do at least half of the remaining packing. Just. Tired. Of it.

Not surprised I feel this way. And, I’m ok with it. I just hope it doesn’t last. Gonna be tough to move us if we’re not ready.

 

 

A Few Shots

Samain                                                                          Closing Moon

A few shots from my recent trip to Colorado. Not sure what happened to the one of the three mule deer bucks looking at me in our new backyard. They let me get very close.

Dining Room
Dining Room
Reading Area from Dining  Room
Reading Area from Dining Room
Brookforest Inn - our closest dining
Brookforest Inn – our closest dining
From grocery store parking lot
From grocery store parking lot
The Road to Minnesota
The Road to Minnesota

Not Expected

Samain                                                                  Closing Moon

10″ for sure. Maybe 12-14. A lot for a first snow. Ushering in a week of cold weather. Minnesota. Ah.

Yesterday when I visited the eye doc a couple a bit older than myself came in. They both had on black sports jackets, the same, with MSRA on the front. I didn’t think much about it until they went to the receptionist to check in and I saw MSRA on the back with the acronym spelled out: Minnesota Street Rod Association. Not what I expected.

Which brings up a regular occurrence. Trying to imagine what an older person was like during the 60’s. I know from looking at myself in the mirror that you can’t tell from a persons post medicare card appearance where they  stood in those days. Even the gray pony-tail crowd is as likely to be composed of veterans as ex-hippies and draft protesters.

Not many of us wear our enthusiasms so clearly as the hot-rodders gathered with me for our glaucoma check.