Category Archives: Health

Knee, Birthday, 60s, Cold

Samain                                                                       Thanksgiving Moon

A diverse day, yesterday. Down to Orthocolorado for a “class” about my knee surgery. Not bad, not great.

20161103_130418At 12:30 we drove over to Evergreen for mussar at Beth Evergreen. It was Rabbi Jamie’s birthday and each woman brought a cooked or purchased offering of some kind. We had cranberry juice with tea and mint, apple juice, brie and a wonderful soft cheese, warm carrots, pistachios, cashews, strawberries, grapes, melon, crackers, chips, guacamole, a birthday cake, sea-salt caramel and chocolate brownies (Kate, see pic), with Halloween plates and napkins.

Later in the afternoon, around 5, we went down Shadow Mountain and spent an hour or so at Grow Your Own. This is a hydroponics shop, a head shop, a wine shop and a place to hear local musicians. Last night there was a former member of Steppenwolf playing guitar, a singer from a group called the Bucktones and a guy named Stan, who looked like the aging owner of a hardware store, playing bass. Time erodes the vocal chords so the singing was spirited and practiced, but range and timber suffered. Guitar chops however seemed undiminished.

The crowd was Kate and me like, gray hair, wrinkles. That question that comes to me often these days was germane: what did you do in the sixties? I don’t ask, at least not yet, but I do wonder what long-haired, dope-smoking, radical politics lie beneath the walkers and penchant for the music of yester year.

Then home to a boiler that’s out. After just having been serviced. The perfect end to an interesting day.

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Samain                                                                           Thanksgiving Moon

Up early. Well, no. Not up early. Out early. We left home at 7am today headed for Orthocolorado. Much like Skyridge surgical hospital where I had my prostate removed, which admitted primarily urological patients, Orthocolorado admits only orthopedic surgery patients.

They must put happy pills in the drinking water for employees because everybody smiled, laughed and seemed overly f***ng upbeat. I yearned for dour Minnesota. I was not their friend, was not particularly happy to be there and wanted to get out as fast as possible. As I will after my surgery.

On the other hand. I now know where the hospital is.

Kate and I went to Bed, Bath and Beyond afterward. That Beyond part covers a lot of strange territory: systems to control your home with your smart phone, lots of candy, holiday decorations, including a Mensch in a Box and a wonderful wind-up Rabbi who apparently sings and dances. I’m not kidding. There was, too, a mashup of Hanukkah and Christmas, a large blue stocking with Happy Hanukkah embroidered on it in silver thread.

Kate bought a set of candles for a Hanukkah menorah and used them as birthday candles for Rabbi Jamie. He was 47 today. I remember 47. Sort of.

According to my countdown clock, we’re only 4 days plus a little from the election. May it come and go quickly.

Here’s a nice piece commenting on my favorite gubermental regulation:

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The Orthopedic parts department called. My new knee is in.

Fall                                                                           Hunter Moon

organ-recitalThe big news here on Shadow Mountain. Orthopedic surgeon William Peace added some surgery days. Result: total knee replacement on December 1st. I’m excited because this pain is distracting and medication intensive. Currently using CBD’s and acetaminophen during the day and vicodin at night. This works, sort of, but I still can’t exercise, hike, twist suddenly, get up and down easily.

Kate and I had our first ever joint pain management doctor’s appointment. The family that confronts pain together smiles more. She’s got a bad left shoulder, pain in both wrists and bursitis in her right hip. Makes it hard to get comfortable for sleep. She got a cortisone injection for the bursitis and a referral to a rheumatologist for new treatments. She has rheumatoid arthritis in addition to osteo. Since they moved up the date of my surgery from next January to December 1, I just got a script for vicodin.

So much for the organ recital

It’s surprising, but all this medical stuff, a steady drip since we moved to Colorado almost two years ago, seems pretty superficial. Not unimportant, but more like maintenance for the car. Gotta do it to keep the thing running right.

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mule deer in neighbor’s yard yesterday

The important stuff is life: grandkids, divorce, Jon, Beth Evergreen, needlework and writing groups, the mountains, our time together, being creative, the dogs, old friends and new, Evergreen, Denver, politics, climate change work.

And the third phase of life, closer to death, much closer, than to birth, makes all these things sweeter, more precious. I find myself often struck by their emotional power. Their presence in our lives creates the micro-world that sustains us.

Blessed be.

 

Shadow Mountain Journal

Fall                                                                            Hunter Moon

tumblr_mla7p2roxc1r7xatro1_500Pain. Can make you tired. Can make it difficult to focus. Just plain hurts. My left knee has gone from bad to very bad. Trying various meds as a way to make it from now until January. Some success. Pain is a peculiar phenomenon, so assertive, so real; yet totally individual. Inaccessible to another. A message that, once sent, it would be nice to be able to turn off.

Superior Wolf continues to grow. 50,000 words. Writing is so much damned fun. Interesting to see a story unfold from the tips of my fingers, words and ideas following one another, no idea where they’re coming from. Doesn’t seem probable, but it happens. Everyday. Odd.

The aspens stand unclothed, their skirts dropped by the big winds we had last week. I’m glad they’re here. Realized yesterday that bare deciduous trees are a marker of fall for me, being a Midwest boy. We’re in that time between the falling of the leaves and the coming of the snow, a time with a skeletal aesthetic, when a senescence aesthetic with browns, tans, ochres in various shades colors the mountain meadows, an arid aesthetic with little rain, little snow, mountain streams at their low ebb. Samain, next Monday, is the holiday of this transition time, a holiday of the veil between this world and the Other World thinned. The growing season is well over, the season of harvest is ending. The fallow time comes next.

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Kate went to Simchat Torah at Beth Evergreen last night. This holiday marks both the end of Sukkot and the annual end of reading through the Torah. I chose not to go because it involves dancing and lots of standing. The congregation holds the Torah scroll at various points, symbolizing the year’s readings and the Torah’s ability to link the congregation together.

The rabbi, in this case Jamie, goes around and tells each person which portion of the Torah they hold. Kate had the story of Jacob and the angel at the Jabbok Ford. Probably my current favorite Biblical passage. I like the notion of struggle, of wrestling through the night, with the sacred. I like the suggestion that such a struggle can change your identity, give you a new name and a new purpose.tumblr_lc65dk9dw41qcu8ix

 

 

Narrow, Dude

Fall                                                                                Hunter Moon

total_knee_replacement_components_modelNew x-ray of my left knee. “See that narrow space there?” Dr. William Peace points at a place where bone and bone have come very close together on the inside of the knee. “That’s about a 90% loss of cartilage. And that is a bone spur.” Pointing higher on the bone.

Indication. Total knee replacement. I said yes, let’s fix it. He said his scheduler would call. She called. They can get me in as soon as January! Oh, well.

It was oddly relieving to see the x-ray. I knew the pain was real, but there’s always a doubt. Maybe I’m experiencing pain that’s severe for me, but wouldn’t be severe for someone tougher. Nope. It’s my knee and its disappearing cartilage.

So I’m on a cancellation list and on a “If Dr. Peace opens up more days for surgery.” list. Not sure what to do about exercise. Step up the meds I guess. More CBD. More tylenol. Ice. Braces. Do, in other words, what I’ve been doing.

Guess us baby boomers are creaking our way toward the finish line in greater numbers. A good time to be an orthopedic surgeon.

BTW: Right next to Panorama Orthopedics in Golden is an Earth Trek climbing center. Kate thought these two were located well for each other. On leaving we also noticed about two blocks down the hill a business with the sign, Colorado Pain. First, the climbing wall. Then, the surgeon. Afterward, Colorado Pain.

Taking a Knee

Fall                                                                      Hunter Moon

total-knee-replacement-surgery-methodsSaw my doc yesterday about my knee. She gave me a referral to Dr. William Peace, an orthopedic surgeon. I called him and got an appointment for this Friday. Kate and I watched a video about knee replacement. It was helpful. Somewhat. The biggest new information I got was that the new knee lasts about 15 years. I figure I’m in a lighter use period of my life so I could get a full 15.

Why do it? Well, the arthritis has negatively impacted my workouts, making them painful. I find hiking with the grandkids something I can do, but the price I pay afterwards is high. Also, I’ve started to make decisions based on my knee. As I mentioned here last week, I drove to Minnesota because I didn’t want to have to deal with all the standing and torquing of my knee during air travel. Also, without the cbds and thc at night I’m sure I wouldn’t be sleeping well. The pain is worse at night. So, it makes sense to me to go ahead.

After taking Kate’s glasses to a shop for nose pads, we ate at a chain called Black Eyed Peas, a southern comfort food place. They didn’t have collard greens, which should be illegal for a southern restaurant. The food was mediocre. Not terrible. Just unimpressive. So now we know.

When we got home, we took a long nap and both declared ourselves with little ambition for the rest of the day. And proved it.

The sliding glass door is up in the new bathroom. The only thing left is staining the trim. The bathroom is fully functional now and looking great. Kate made great choices in slate, pebbles, fixtures, paint color.

The divorce stumbles along with plenty of acrimony and orneriness. November 26th is final orders. That should smooth things out somewhat.

A Busy Few Days

Fall  (High Holy Days)                                                                            Hunter Moon

rosh-hashanahYesterday included three separate trips into Evergreen. First, I took Kate in for the morning Rosh Hashanah service at Beth Evergreen. Then, I came back to answer questions, be available for the electrician and the painter. At noon I went back to pick up Kate and eat the after service lunch with her. All these trips included waits in two spots on Brook Forest Road for culvert repair. Stop. Slow. Stop. Slow.

It was a glorious Colorado day with brilliant blue punctuated by puffy white, a soft wind, then a brisk wind blowing and temperatures in the mid to high sixties. Low humidity.

The service, as services often do, ran 20 minutes over so I sat on a concrete patio outside of Beth Evergreen’s event hall. The brisk wind stripped pine needles from the huge ponderosa’s on the hillside sending flotillas of the connected two needle bunches at me. Round top tables set outside on the patio had rocks on their table cloths. A table near where I sat blew over; the tablecloth, I think, acting as a sail.

my-familys-noodle-kugel1There were kugels in aluminum pans, bagels with lox and cream cheese or chopped egg, fresh cut vegetables, fruit. Paper plates and plastic forks. Lots of eating and greeting. Some very short skirts. Some men carried small cloth pouches containing prayer shawls and yarmulkes. Kids ran around,

teenagers laughed knowingly to each other. The wind continued to blow.

Back home we napped while Caesar finished painting. The big thing unfinished is installation of the shower door. That will probably happen today. The result is even more pleasing than I imagined it would be.

Where the Books Go
Where the Books Go

The third trip into Evergreen was for the Evergreen Writer’s Group at Where the Books Go. Writing groups are fragile things, easy to get wrong. They focus on critiquing work, the very work you’ve been laboring over in private for hours, days, sometimes weeks and years. The internal stakes are high, no matter the outward stance individuals take.

If one of Kate’s sewing groups was similar, the women would bring in their current project and ask others what they thought. How are the seams? What about color choice? The fabric. Their intention for the work and whether they seemed to be achieving it. Most important, the event would not be collaborative as these groups are, but critical.

There might be something to learn here. Perhaps the writing group could be more collaborative, be more a place where we could write together, work on current projects or doing writing exercises together.

Anyhow this trip to Evergreen was without the stop. slow. stop. slow bit because the Jeffco work crews had shut down the skip-loaders, dump trucks and road graders and gone home.

Kate went with me, dropping me off at the meeting and going on to the Lariat Lodge where we ate a couple of weeks ago. She managed to get most of the reading done for our Mussar group, four chapters worth! She also bought supper for me.

With the grandkids coming last Friday night and leaving at 2 pm on Sunday, then erev Rosh Hashanah that night, and the three trips into Evergreen yesterday, it’s been a very busy few days for us. And, we’re not done yet.

This morning I’m seeing Lisa Gidday, our internist, to discuss knee replacement. We’ll also get our flu shots. The week calms down some after this.

 

Road Trip!

Lugnasa                                                        Harvest Moon

Shower pan installed yesterday, additional support for grab bars (aging in place accoutrement), final decisions on niches and some extra work on the pebbles that will cover the floor. Jesus manages the later stages of the process, but it was Maestro (no kidding) who put in the no-leak rubber seal and poured the last of the concrete for the tile. By the time I get back the new shower should have tile.

Ancientrails goes on the road around 8:30 am. A little hesitation concerning my bum left knee, but I’m going to wear a brace and I have my ice and compression brace along, too. The knee doesn’t like being in one position though an angle is best. That I can achieve in the car. Road trips. I love’em. Very American, very Midwestern. Conifer to Fridley is almost exactly the same distance as Paris to Rome, it’s neither a long nor a short trip.

We’re well into the meteorological spirit of fall here on Shadow Mountain, so I’ll be driving into warmer weather for the most part, I imagine. Minneapolis has torrential rains predicted for today through tomorrow morning. Hope I miss them.

I’m excited to see the fall colors in Minnesota.

It’s different here.

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Shadow Mountain Drive
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conifer mtn.

 

 

Sloth-like

Lugnasa                                                                                      Superior Wolf Moon

Quite an unproductive day so far. Ah, the golden years.

bailey libraryKate’s off to the Bailey Library for the Bailey Patchworkers. She’s working on a wonderful Bat Mitzvah present for Ruth, a quilt with the squares made from counted cross-stitches sewn by her other grandma, Barb Bandel. She has three years to finish it so I think she’ll make it.

I admit reading the online news about the election is sucking up more and more of my time. The Donald Trumpette is a political car crash from which I cannot look away. Hillary, while an old pol and a centrist, doesn’t have near the I gotta see this appeal. The Donald today said, “I’m not changing my strategy or my temperament.” Whew. As the Cream said, “I’m so glad.”

We’re in a lull here between court dates, remodelers and the beginning of fall. Feels a bit sloth-like.

My knee injection seems to have helped. Lisa Gidday, our internist, agreed with me yesterday when I said it’s gotten worse. “Yep, you’re going to be thinking joint replacement at some point.” Well, I haven’t had any surgery this year so far. So, why not? Not really so cavalier about it.

However. I’ve gotten to the point where my life does have some new restrictions and I don’t like them. An example. Going to the Denver County Fair last weekend. I wandered around on the concrete floors of the Stockshow Building, the site of the Fair, for a couple of hours with Ruth, Gabe and Jon. When I got back, my leg did not like having done that. Hiking is painful, too. Point is, replacing that arthritic knee will make sense. Oh, boy.

Gertie is napping right next to the computer. Dreaming, she’s wagging her tail. Very sweet.

 

 

So far

Summer                                                                    Park County Fair Moon

Kate takes her sister, BJ, home today from the Jackson Hole hospital. The surgeon says she’ll regain enough range of motion to continue bowing. That’s a huge relief. Can you imagine contemplating the end of a career that began when you were in single digit age? Because of a damaged shoulder? We often read about athletes felled by physical trauma, not so often about musicians or construction workers or artists (with the exception of Chuck Close). That’s not because it doesn’t happen, BJ’s injury demonstrates that it does, it’s because the media coverage of athletics is so outsized to its cultural importance.

Jon’s finishing up the last of his work on Pontiac Street. He’s done a lot though not as much as he’d hoped. A new deck and a new bathroom seem like pretty good accomplishments for a single person working in 90+ degree heat and high humidity. The divorce continues its jagged march through the lives of Jon, Jen, Ruth and Gabe. It’s slated for a mid-September to mid-October finish as I understand it. Can’t come too soon.

Here at home, the painting and staining moves forward. Getting the projects around the house finished makes me feel good. So far they have been mostly maintenance and necessity oriented: boiler, generator, new gas lines, electrical work, wildfire mitigation, the painting and staining. The kitchen and the solar panels were not necessary, but they were desirable. The remodel of the downstairs bath to a zero entry shower reflects a reality of aging bodies; we’re not as agile as we used to be. It will be finished by Samain. The only projects after that will be rationalizing our sound system and some electrical repairs.

house and garage

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garage, one door painted
garage, one door painted