Grandkids

Winter                                                      Settling Moon

Spent the late morning and afternoon with the grandkids. Lunch at Which ‘Wich (a new chain sandwich joint) then Into the Woods. Into the Woods is a Stephen Sondheim classic, one of my favorites and this movie version is good, if not great. Meryl Streep as the witch is excellent. The plot wanders some and the show is too long, but overall I enjoyed it.

After the movie we went to Target so Ruth and Gabe could spend their Hanukkah gift. Gabe picked up a large lego set, an Antarctic research facility. Ruth got a bow and darts (plastic) and a robotic insect. Looked like something I’d enjoy.

It was fun to have this time with them, felt like a good beginning, underlining the grandparent motivation for this move.

Jon’s had strep and a flu-like illness for the last week. He sounded croaky, but looked good. Sounds like the Woollys.

The kids were off to swimming lessons, so Kate and I drove home in the pm rush. Still learning routes and strategies for coping with traffic between Conifer and Denver.

New Fab Diet! Guaranteed.

Winter                                                   Settling Moon

Kate’s lost weight; she’s now down to 115. I’m going to weigh myself today. I may have, too. If so, I’m going to introduce a new diet: the interstate moving diet. This simple diet requires only thousands of dollars and weeks of focus on your stuff. Spending the money itself might work for some, but throw in a necessary obsession with each and every item you own, including touching, packing, re-positioning each one and you have a perfect antidote to flab. Of course, for those of you who choose to follow this diet, you get, too, the focus on leaving friends and familiarity for a new spot. All of this is in its own way surprisingly positive, and it wears away at the comfortable habits that put on those extra pounds. Try it! You’ll be a believer in no more 2 0r 3 moves.

 

Snow and Wind

Winter                                                                      Settling Moon

Fourth snow removal this morning. My neighbor, Eduardo, with a mattock, was hacking away at snow plow deposit blocking his driveway. It slopes up from below grade. Holly was out with a snow rake removing snow from their roof. I’ve never done that. Wonder if it’s necessary?

The winds have begun, heading toward 90 mph gusts tomorrow. The pines sway with them, readied by millions of years of evolution. The lodgepoles are one of the pine species, like jackpine, whose cones only open in the heat of fire. Fire is natural here, so natural that it aids in the dispersal of the very trees it destroys. Houses aren’t like that.

Even though we’ve become  much more acclimatized a morning’s labor can still do us in. And it did today. We both took long naps. No more work for today.

Little Boxes, In a Pile

Winter                                                                   Settling Moon

All the kitchen boxes are empty. The cupboards have begun to fill up. A milestone. Ridding the living room of boxes was another. Getting the Swedish shelving  up (all Kate) another. The washer and dryer, one more.

Also, our acclimatization has continued. We can both work longer now without fatigue setting in. No light-headedness on exertion. Sleep’s much better. There still remains a good distance to go before we’re fully here physically, but we’re both here emotionally. In a short time this spot on Black Mountain Drive has become home.

Monday afternoon we’re going to take the grandkids while Jon and Jen are in meetings. This will be the first time we’ve seen them together since we got here. Illness and some lingering disagreement about where we should have lived have dulled the joy on this aspect of our move.

Desire, Emotion, Asceticism A Critical Look

Winter                                                                     Settling Moon

Opened the last kitchen box this morning. Kate’s busily creating spaces to put the treasures I dig out. At one point this morning she said, “We’ve got so much stuff!” with an exasperated sigh. She’s right, I suppose, though we’ve gathered this stuff over 25 years together. A third purge, which Sarah Strickland predicted, will occur. Goodwill Denver, here we come.

The Stoics want us to be free from emotional entanglement. The Buddhists want us to be free from desire. Western spiritual thought wants us to be free from things. Think George Carlin’s famous rant about stuff. None of these blanket proscriptions satisfy me. In fact, they seem to pointedly ignore the human condition.

Our emotions guide us, warn us, help us make decisions. Desire defines our pursuits through this life. Following our bliss, finding our passion mark desire as an important element in living a full and authentic life. And then there’s our stuff.

Like emotion and desire, stuff can overwhelm us, cripple us, even, in some cases, defeat us. But, like emotion and desire, the physical things with which we surround ourselves support us and give us the tools we need to live our lives. Raising our emotional life to consciousness, raising our desires to consciousness and raising our stuff to consciousness so we can make choices about them seems the critical piece to me.

In other words the life controlled by repressed emotion, or ridden by desire, or the live lived for accumulation of things is an inauthentic life. An unconscious life. A life lived in thrall, no matter to what, is a life shorn of its potential and shrunken in its worth. In this way I take the extreme positions of Stoicism, Buddhism and anti-materialism as signposts warning us, danger ahead. Useful, but not if taken as absolutes.

 

Trailhead: Ancientrails, 2005

Winter                                                    Settling Moon

Ten years ago last November I visited Singapore, Bangkok and Siem Reap. My sister and I spent a fascinating morning at the American Club in Singapore watching the election returns over bacon, eggs, pancakes, grits. Bush II won the election, kicking off my Southeast Asian odyssey with a tragedy of historic consequence.

(Had the thought yesterday that the Bush clan is the Duck Dynasty of American politics. Still seems like a good one.)

After Singapore, I spent a couple of days in Bangkok, then flew to Siem Reap, Cambodia, the jumping off spot for visiting Angkor. Angkor was a revelation to me. An ancient Hindu culture, the Khmer, built temples, each erected by a god-king, over a huge area. Unfortunately, I’d left my blood pressure medications back in Bangkok, so, instead of lingering for the last days of my trip in Siem Reap, I had to return to Bangkok.

While there, running across the street to dodge the infamous Bangkok traffic, my right foot fell into sewer obscured by the nighttime darkness. Severed my Achilles tendon as I ran forward, wincing in pain.

In February of 2005 I underwent surgery for repair of the Achilles. Recovery required two months off the leg, so I decided to start a blog. Ancientrails was the result. Ancientrails began on February 1st, 2005, less than a month from now.

Over the course of this eleventh year of Ancientrails, I plan to revisit matters that interested me on some of the days during those ten years.

Here’s a bit of post from January 3rd, 2007:

“Back to Docent class today.  Ann Isaacson gave a masterful lecture on a difficult subject, the decorative arts.   She has a grasp of technique and detail in these matters that is impressive.

It was good to see the class again.  It provides two essentials for a long life:  learning in a new subject, and new friends.  I still feel lucky to have this chance and look forward to touring and further art  history research.

On another artistic note I headed over to Northern Prairie Tileworks  to see about the cost of using hand made tiles for  our fireplace surround.  Kate and I saw these guys at the Arts & Crafts Expo at the State Fair grounds last fall.

Roger and another man who worked there were helpful.  It looks like we can afford this one accent piece and I’m glad.”

 

Settling Moon II

Winter                                                        Settling Moon

Have a feeling there will be a settling moon II, the first in the almost 10 year history of Ancientrails. We’re making regular, steady progress, this after that, but we moved a house full of belongings and have to find new spots for everything.

The first packed, my books, may well be the last unpacked as we move through many other spaces before the loft gets my full attention. It’s had a little since I had to set up my main desktop computer. Each time I go up I open a box, take things out, put them on shelves. At some point, with the books, I’ll have to stack them on the floor since the disassembled book-shelves will go up where book boxes form three deep piles, three boxes high.

No more silence, at least not down here in the living room where I’m writing on my laptop. The boiler behind me gurgles, pops, clanks softly and water courses softly through the pipes, a hum. Even so, the overall effect is one of quiet, a top of the mountain, far from the city and its light pollution, quiet.

Soft Acts

Winter                                                                          Settling Moon

Spent an hour at Colorado Toyota Services having our Blizzaks installed. The waiting is basic, a coffee pot, stack of magazines and four chairs. While there I read a book about the daily rituals of creative people. Fascinating reading. A name, then a couple of pages about their working routines, then another name.

Over at the King Sooper the line at the pharmacy was long, unusual for a Friday morning, but not for the day after New Year’s. At the Wings Wagon I discovered a local spot that doesn’t interest me much, then went on to the hardware store. Trash compactor bags.

Drove back up Shadow Mountain Drive disappointed that the warmer temperatures today had melted the snow. Gotta give those Blizzaks a work out.

The scratch and dent washer and dryer are in their places, on pedestals, ready now for laundry. The house has all its appliances, perhaps not in their final configuration, but we’re set in the utility room, the laundry room and the kitchen.

There is, yes, still more unpacking to be done. But this after that.

The soft acts of becoming settled. Drove out today and Eduardo and Holly were in their driveway, clearing it. I waved, they waved back, cheerily. Putting on the Blizzaks. Getting my drugs at a new pharmacy. Seeing the mountains all around me as I drive home. These are homely acts, acts which in themselves create a sense of being at home.

Mountain Dawn

Winter                                                        Settling Moon

New elements for life here in Colorado. Recalling the serenity prayer. Bed at 9 p.m, awake at 4 0r 5 a.m. Both are major in my life. The serenity prayer has helped me become conscious, again, of the parts of life around me and within me that are beyond my control.

Earlier bedtime and earlier awaking has been facilitated by our moving so close to the switch back to standard time. I’m still going to bed at 11 p.m CDT.

Two events today. Blizzaks get mounted, balanced. That’s at 10 am. Between 10:30 and 12:30 today the washer and dryer get delivered. Kate’s happy with that, so am I. Clean clothes!

Red. Green. White.

Winter                                                  Settling Moon

Snow again, the red bark of the lodgepole pines, the green of their bows and the white of the snow against a gray sky create a scene out of a Charles Russell painting or a Zane Grey novel. A lonely cowboy, horse staggering after a listless herd of cattle, might emerge from between the trees at any moment.

This New Year’s day is quiet. We had cold shrimp, brie, crudities like jicama, carrots and celery. Peaceful here. No noise.

A fire tonight now that the refractory glass has been seasoned. Continuing to read Goldsworthy’s Augustus.