And yet more quotes

“Remember, it is the secret force hidden deep within us that manipulates our strings; there lies the voice of persuasion, there the very life, there, we might even say, is the man himself. Never confuse
it in your imagination with its surrounding case of flesh, or the organs adhering thereto, which save that they grow upon the body, are as much mere instruments as the carpenter’s axe.

Without the agency that prompts or restrains their motions, the parts themselves are of no more service than her shuttle to the weaver, his pen to the writer, or his whip to the wagoner.

Marcus Aurelius Antoninus (121-180)

_Meditations_ Book X, Number 38

“If we sip the wine, we find dreams coming upon us out of the imminent night”
D.H. Lawrence
“The only failure one should fear, is not hugging to the purpose they see as best.”
George Eliot
“When writers die they become books, which is, after all, not too bad an incarnation.”
Jorge Luis Borges
“I have always imagined that Paradise will be a kind of library.”
– Jorge Luis Borges
“There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.”
Carl Jung
“The moon is a friend for the lonesome to talk to.”
Carl Sandberg
“Forget mistakes. Forget failures. Forget everything except what you’re going to do now and do it.”
William Durant
“I am terrified by this dark thing that sleeps in me.”
Sylvia Plath
“The mystical is not how the world is, but that it is.”
Tractatus Logico-Philosophicus, 6.44,Ludwig Wittgenstein
“I’m restless. Things are calling me away. My hair is being pulled by the stars again.”
Anaïs Nin – Fire

Thrown In

Beltane                                                                      Early Growth Moon

Nostalgia.  Ran across the word today and it made think about Alexandria and about the Simone Weil quote:  “To be rooted is perhaps the most important and least recognized need of the human soul.”

It also made me think about a cousin who, though successfully (to my eye) transplanted to California many years ago, still longs for her Blue River home, her 30 acres or so of bottom land and the life of a Midwestern tiny town.   Then of course there is the interesting case of the ex-patriot, that very word calling up a certain estranged relation between the one identified by it and their homeland.

All explained by the need to be rooted.  I reread that post and felt it wandered a bit, got off point, thought about fixing it and decided to leave it as it was.  This is a topic that has a lot of resonance for me, a bite not explained by any nostalgia I have, little.  It is perhaps explained best by the existential stance I take toward the world, yes there’s a place for me here, but it’s by choice and not by chance.  Even so.

Heidegger has this wonderful expression, thrownness, which is the time, the culture, the geography into which you are born.  Or, thrown.  And thrownness has everything to do with roots since roots are about place, especially that first place you call home.

Duncan, Oklahoma, a small town, the Mistletoe Capitol of the World, near Texas was the first place I was thrown, but it didn’t take because my parents moved not long after my birth back to Indiana, specifically to Alexandria, where my dad found work at the local newspaper, the Alexandria Times-Tribune.  This was the place the universe threw me into.

(Alexandria is in the upper right on this map.)

Quite a specific time, too, as all times are.  This was post-war America, the victorious military spit out most of its members including my mom and dad.  They settled down to populate the land.  America had become a world power in the war years, so to those of us born post-war it seemed as if it had always been so.

Alexandria was a bedroom community then, a place where workers at the three shifts run by General Motors at Delco Remy and Guide Lamp could earn a middle-class income and only drive the nine miles to Anderson, Indiana on bloody Highway 9.  It was in many ways the epitome of the American dream where a family could own a house, a car or two, have enough money left over for a boat and a vacation.  Food on the table with regularity.  Good medical care.

They came from the hills of Arkansas, Tennessee, Kentucky especially and settled in this small town with two dime stores, two grocery stores, a woman’s clothing store, a men’s clothing store, a daily newspaper, a newsstand and shoe repair, a furniture store, two drugstores, a bakery, two theaters, two banks, several churches, a couple of drive-ins, a bowling alley and a national class roller rink.  There was, too, a Carnegie library, two or three elementary schools, a junior high and a high school.  The Nickle Plate ran through town and Highway’s 28 and 9 intersected toward the north.

Physically it was flat with a small creek, the dejectedly named Pipe Creek, running on the eastern side and through the southern end of town.  Surrounded by the checkerboard pattern of mile square road systems laid down in the 19th century, Alexandria sat in the middle of fertile farmland and had a thriving farm community, too.  It was mixed in that way, farm and industry.

Most folks in those early post-war years just wanted time to settle down, sink into a peaceful life.  And they did.  Still, my friends whose parents came from the hills in the south often talked about going home.  This was a diaspora for them, a move away from home dictated by better economics, but not by a better place.  Their yearning was palpable, a distinctive feature of my childhood.

Indiana in those days and Alexandria was representative of this was union country.  The United Auto Workers, representing all those folks commuting to Anderson, won victory after victory against the power of GM, Ford and Chrysler.  They won better wages, better medical care, better pensions, better vacations.  In return Alexandria’s UAW workers turned out alternators and silvered head lamps for Chevrolets, Oldsmobiles, Pontiacs.

It was, because of the strong union, a Democratic place, a liberal voting place that put Democrats in congress with great regularity.  My dad, a newpaperman, was a Franklin Delano Roosevelt liberal which meant he supported social security and other new deal benefits, but was rabidly opposed to communism.  Mom was a stay at home mom, though she had an associate teaching degree and did sometimes substitute teach at the elementary level.

There was, too, basketball.  And the Indy 500.  The Indiana state fair.  These three were cultural institutions that defined us, creating conversation and speculation all year.

I may not be nostalgic for that time or that place, but that does not mean I don’t appreciate it, respect its place in my past and the lessons it taught me.  Over time, I’ve lived here in Minnesota for 43 years now, far longer than the 21 I lived in Indiana, Minnesota has become my home, a place I threw myself into and my roots are in 10,000 lakes, the boreal forest, the cultural life of the Twin Cities, friends, family and memories here.  But for all that this is not where I was raised, it is not where my high school classmates live and it is not the place where the nights and days of childhood have physical referents.

 

 

Bleeding Heart Liberals

Beltane                                                                            Early Growth Moon

Yes, we transplanted bleeding hearts liberally in the area around our new fire pit.  They came out of a vegetable bed we had to transform to a shade bed when the small ash tree nearby got big.  Now the ash tree will be cut down and we’ll have more beds that get better sun, enough to grow vegetables.  I feel bad about cutting down the ash but it needs to go.

(2010)

Even so it did mean that we had a stash of dicentra, bleeding hearts, that could go to another shady location like the area north of the firepit.  And they are now there.  In the process I broke my spading fork.  Again.  I hadn’t mended it fully the last time and I put too much pressure on it.

Transplanting on a cooler, cloudy day with a high dewpoint is best.  It reduces transplant shock and helps the fine root hairs stay moist and alive between digging and planting.

Tomorrow a different task even though we’re not done with this one.  Bagging the apples.  The blossoms fell and fruit set is imminent, so we get those bags on before the fruits show.  Then, clean apples.

 

Alexandria

Beltane                                                                         Early Growth Moon

A shout out to the Alexandria, Indiana readers who’ve written in over the last week.  Good to hear from you.  I left Alexandria in the fall of 1965 and, except for two summers and a brief period in 1968, never lived there again.  My memories, therefore, now fall into the realm of yesteryear.  From 1965, the year I graduated from high school, to now is 48 years, almost to the 50 mark.  I look forward to that one because it will be another high school reunion and I’ll be back again.

(Alexandria Carnegie Library)

Summers back then meant the opening of the pool at Beulah park, days spent hanging out, sometimes at the bakery, sometimes at the Kid Kanteen, going to dances at the armory,  heading over to Frisch’s to see what was happening.

In my crowd there were also weekly poker games with Wilbur Gross, Larry Cummings, Zane Ward, Richard Lawson and some others whom I don’t recall right now.  Since I carried the Times-Tribune, a daily at the time, for 8 or 9 years, that meant every evening around 3:30 or 4:00 pm, I would come to pick up my papers in the little shack attached to the Times-Tribune building, then at the base of what, John Street, I believe, headed toward Highway 9.  That meant time before we picked up the papers and we all played black jack.  Five nights a week for many years.  Alexandria gave me a firm grounding in card games, instilling a card sense that has stood me well.

(1st grade at Harrison Elementary–Hwy 9 across from the cemetery.  That’s me second from the left in the first row between Steve Kildow and Ronnie Huffman.)

Lots of memories, most of them good, though not all, because not all times are good, even those seen through the gauze of past time.  Maybe we’ll investigate some of those another time.

Garden and Exercise

Beltane                                                                           Early Growth Moon

The garden is well underway.  Beets, onions, chard, kale, carrots, cucumbers, sugar snap peas, tomatoes, peppers, leeks, egg plants and garlic all in various growth stages.  The garlic crop may be my weakest in several years.

Kate and I will transplant this morning.  We’re going to move hosta, hemerocallis and bleeding hearts to a mounded area near our fire pit.  Javier got the area prepared on Memorial Day and moved the fire pit into the center of the ring that Mark built.  He’ll fill the fire pit and the ring with a material that will be fireproof and weed proof.

Putting in some shade plants will give the area a more landscaped feel.  My goal is to have it ready for a visit by the grandkids sometime in July and for the Woolly meeting also that month.

The exercises I got from my physical therapist have already eased up the pain in my biceps.  My posture, which both Lervick (orthopedist) and Poulter (physical therapist) said tilted to the left, has changed, too.

The intensity workouts I’ve been doing work, too.  That’s the one minute of aerobics at the most flat-out I can stand, getting my body into the anaerobic range, followed by a set of resistance work while the heart rate goes down below 110, then another minute of aerobics, and repeat until 4 high intensity aerobic intervals and 4 resistance sets are done.