Kona. Happy.

Spring                                                                               Planting Moon

Kona.  Wagging her tail.  Wagging her tail.  She hasn’t done that for months.  Months.  Maybe a couple of years.  With her tumor removed she’s bouncy and playful.  She even got up in my lap to sit for a bit, again something she hasn’t done in some time.

It’s this against the money for the Chicago trip.  I chose this and I’m glad.  To see her returned to a happy place, even for a few months.  Worth it.

The tumor was cancerous and it was an incomplete excision which means the tumor will grow back and the cancer is not gone, but it’s a slow grower and not focused on any organs, so she could well die of something else.

We have, over the last few years, chosen not to treat dogs with cancer, cancer that has metastasized.  Too expensive for too little result, especially in the giant breeds.  But Kona could live, at 12, to 15, so there was a future for her.  That of course is for tomorrow.

For today?  That tail.  And her smile.

Up a Tree

Spring                                                                             Planting Moon

A neighbor stopped by this morning to report that our dogs, Vega and Rigel, had treed a raccoon.  Uh oh.  They’re half coyote hound, which is basically a coon hound used to hunt coyotes.  A doggie genome activated by its primary motivation.  Watch out.

So, Kate and I wandered out, me still my house slippers, into the yard, past the orchard, around the truck gate to the corner of our land where the electrical junction box sits.  Kate got there first and found, not a raccoon, but a rotund gray tabby up a skinny ash maybe 15 feet, clinging to two forked branches–the first on the trunk–wide-eyed.  The pose and the expression were close enough that I expected it to wink in and out of existence.

Talk about two happy dogs.  Oh boy, oh boy, oh boy.  Barking up a tree at last.  Yes, up a tree at last.  We’ve got one.  Something.  Up the tree.  Come see.  Come see.

Now I don’t have a lot of sympathy for cats that enter our yard.  We’ve always had dogs, usually several, and you have to cross either a six-foot or a four-foot chain link fence to enter.  So, you come inside, you deal with the dogs.  Stay outside.  No problem.

This cat, obviously a house cat, will live.  If it has the sense to get down from the tree and leave.  Some don’t.  I can’t say I feel good about that but I don’t feel exactly bad either.  Paying attention to your own survival is rule number one in the animal world, and if it isn’t always number one, it’s second to whatever trumps it at the moment.

Which, of course, is not to say that animals always know the threats to their own survival.  Our dogs, for example, escaped from their safe hectare, would wander blindly onto a highway, or, as has happened, will slip down deep ditches filled with water and be unable to get out.

I hope that Chesire cat, having slipped through its own looking glass, has found its way home by now.

Pain Recedes. More Snow on the Way!

Spring                                                                       Planting Moon

Well, the glow of the morning has given way to a sore back, but not a painful back.  Each day now movement grows easier and stays pain free longer.  Just where I want it to go.

Another rest day today though.  Took the truck in for a maintenance visit, 20,000 miles and we’ve had it almost 2 years now.  Going slow on the odometer, thanks in part to renting cars but mostly to neither Kate nor I using the truck for work.  My trips in and out of the city have diminished, a lot, since I took my leave of absence from the MIA.

Tomorrow morning, though.  Ovid.  Translating.  Then some time on Nighthawks.  I’m going to send my interpretation matrix along with the group to Chicago.  But, I have to finish it first.  Plenty of time, but it will take some work.

The 25th + annual retreat of the Woolly Mammoth clan is this week.  We’re heading up to the north shore.  We picked this time of year so we get out and about more.  What’s that?  Snow on Wednesday?  Are you sure?

quotes

 

“Skepticism is the chastity of the intellect, and it is shameful to surrender it too soon or to the first comer: there is nobility in preserving it coolly and proudly through long youth, until at last, in the ripeness of instinct and discretion, it can be safely exchanged for fidelity and happiness.”

G. Santayana

“The mind of a bigot is like the pupil of the eye; the more light you pour on it, the more it will contract.”

Holmes, Oliver Wendell

“That life is worth living is the most necessary of assumptions, and, were it not assumed, the most impossible of conclusions.”

G. Santayana

Walking Upright in the World

Spring                                                                         Planting Moon

Let me describe, before it gets away from me, submerged in the always been, how exciting and uplifting it was to realize I was walking across the floor at Carlson Toyota.  Just walking.  Putting one foot in front of the other.  No flinching, no torquing to keep things stable.  Just. Walking.

When we return to normalcy after a period of illness or trauma, there is a transition period, a time of grace if we take it, which can offer us a reminder about the wonder of the every day.  To walk across a floor with no pain, to walk as one is used to doing.  So powerful.

In fact, I took as my motto Walking Upright in the World reflecting back on the fact that I had to relearn to walk at the age of 2 and honoring that 2 year old guy for the gift of a normal, usually unregarded capacity to do that.

So much of what we do is really a wonder.  Take grasping and holding.  Typing on a keyboard.  Lifting objects from the ground to over our heads.  Breathing.  Yes, think about breathing.  Only to inhale is not enough to sustain life.

Sitting.  Standing.  Eating.  All wonders, wonders often, perhaps usually, revealed only when they disappear from our repertoire either temporally or permanently.

So take a moment today and celebrate the walk.  The jump.  The high five.  The low bow.

Congratulations!

Who Are We?

Spring                                                      Planting Moon

Hard to believe we move out of spring and into Beltane, the start of the Celtic summer or growing season, this week.  We’ve only just got our cold weather crops in the ground.  Fortunately for the cold weather crops temps are gonna drop again and rains will come in the plenties.

Finished reading a wonderful book by Nelson Algren, Chicago on the Make.  This 1951 work renders a picture of Chicago from its underbelly, sympathetically.  The writing reaches out from the page, grabs you by the lapel (if you have a lapel) and says, pay attention to this!  It’s important.  But also beautiful in the way a tractor coated with mud after a day in the field is beautiful, beautiful in the way a darkened coal miners face is to wife and children that night.  Quick to read, long to forget.

Started another by Jack Cash, Mind of the South.  This 1941 book, of which I was unaware, gets credit for nailing much about the south in an honest, intelligent analysis.  The version I’m reading is a 50 year anniversary edition with a wonderful introduction, but no change to the main body of the text.  Cash committed suicide six months after its publication.

Considering Chicago, as I have been for the trip I’d intended to take there in May, and now picking up Mind of the South, has left me wondering, again, about how to express the unique culture of the American Midwest, the Heartland of the world’s hegemon (for a few more months at least).  This is my culture, the one that has shaped me, in ways often invisible to my own eye.  What is our lederhosen and gingerbread cottage molding?  What is our calligraphy, poetry and painting style?  What is our wiener schnitzel?  Our chicory coffee and beignets?  How do we drive, compared to the biggest always wins philosophy of Mexico City?  What do we want for our children?  Ourselves?  What dreams propel us?  What fears haunt us?  Who are we?

Jazz Noir

Spring                                                                                       Planting Moon

And some rain.  Ta dah!

The Hamm Building in downtown St. Paul anchors a vibrant outdoor cafe scene.  A week ago today the snowplows would have been roaming St. Peter, tonight young couples sat at tables, drank beer, ate, talked.  The energy was good.

The Artist’s Quarter formerly of 26th and Stevens in Minneapolis, formerly of Lowertown St. Paul, is now in the basement of the Hamm Building.  A room light on decor, with lots of black it feels like a jazz joint.

The play tonight, the radio drama, broadcast live over KBEM to what is now its international audience, was a period piece set in 1929 just before and just after the crash, most of the play taking place in a boarding house run by Avon Davis and her Dad.  On Rondo Avenue, now under Highway 94.

It didn’t shy away from identifying Avon’s grandparents as former slaves or the pride Avon’s father had in owning and operating his own business.

Avon was a budding talent on the jazz piano, encouraged by a novelist and week by week resident of the boarding house who had been working on his novel for 17 years and now needed J. Beam to achieve the mood to write.

It was fun.  The audience had a part.  When the applause sign lit up, we shouted or spoke lines from one of two colored handouts.  “That’s hot.”  “She sure can play that thing.”  “Oh, baby.”

The place had all chairs and tables filled and it felt like the start of something, something uniquely Minnesota, yet going out to the nation and the world.

 

 

And Now For Some Rain. Please.

Spring                                                              Planting Moon

Thunder, a quick shower.  Rain tonight, I hope.  Back to wanting the weather to turn seasonal, open the spigots, irrigate the crops.  Our irrigation system is not turned on yet and we have no way to get water to the onion sets, leeks, beets, cucumbers and sugar snap peas we’ve placed in the soil.  They need it.

My mood has begun to rise.  As the back pain recedes (far from gone, but no longer the first thing I think about when I move) and my body returns to a rested state after the stress of the last week, my work begins to come to the fore.  I’ve set aside the Ovid, Missing, exercising, Reimagining for time and space to heal.  It was necessary and good.

Now though those higher level needs, self-actualization, begin to kick back in, assert their right to time and attention.  And I’m glad they do.  Tomorrow I should be back at it, and, in case you hadn’t already noticed this, being back at it is where I like to be.

We’re going to the production and broadcast of a radio drama at the Artist’s Quarter tonight:  Jazz Noir.  I mentioned it earlier in the week.  This is the first of 5. I’ll let you know how it goes.

My Lady Is Compared To A Young Tree

Spring                                                                                  Planting Moon

Vachel Lindsay was born in Springfield, Illinois on November 10, 1879. He was known as the Prairie Troubadour because he integrated music into his poems and performed them theatrically. He died in 1931

My Lady Is Compared to a Young Tree
by Vachel Lindsay

When I see a young tree
In its white beginning,
With white leaves
And white buds
Barely tipped with green,
In the April weather,
In the weeping sunshine–
Then I see my lady,
My democratic queen,
Standing free and equal
With the youngest woodland sapling
Swaying, singing in the wind,
Delicate and white:
Soul so near to blossom,
Fragile, strong as death;
A kiss from far-off Eden,
A flash of Judgment’s trumpet–
April’s breath.