Third Phase Work: Wit

Summer                                                            New (First Harvest) Moon

An HBO movie that went DVD on Sept. 11, 2001, Wit, directed by Mike Nichols, is many things.  It is first a fine drama showcasing the talents of Emma Thompson and Audra McDonald with a very touching and important moment featuring Eileen Watkins.  Wit is the story of a middle aged (48) professor of English literature, Thompson, and an expert in the metaphysical poetry of John Donne, diagnosed with stage 4 metastatic ovarian cancer.

The storyline takes her from the moment of the diagnosis through all her 8 cycles of full dose chemotherapy to death.  She only has one visitor, Watkins, her Ph.D. advisor, who is with her when she dies.

There is a fine and I suspect very tight interplay between the poetry of John Donne, especially his well known work, Death Be Not Proud, and the dramatic arc of the movie.  There is also a damning portrait of professionals so focused on their work, saving humans, that they can’t see the humans in front of them:  Thompson’s two oncologists and, ironically, Thompson herself.  Another storyline depicts with damning specificity the increasing powerlessness and dehumanizing of hospital patients.

(Marble funeral effigy of John Donne, 1631,
at St. Paul’s Cathedral, London, where he
is buried)

The poignant, and they are heart wrenching, moments come in the interaction between Audra McDonald, an oncology nurse, and Thompson.  It is not maudlin even in its build up, but the nurse sees Thompson, listens to her, empathizes with her, touches her compassionately and finally initiates a conversation about whether she wants to be a DNR, that is, do not resuscitate.

This is third phase work, viewing this movie.  Relative to the theme that I’ve given for my Woolly meeting on July 15th, home and what does that mean to you, it shows the hospital as the anti-home:  a place cleansed of personal belongings, choice, simple comforts like, as Thompson says at one point, “…shoes.”

However it may come to us, “gluttonous death” (a Donne phrase) will come and I hope that it can come for each of us surrounded by loved ones, in a place we choose to be.

Done

Summer                                                                    Solstice Moon

One of those get things done days.  They always seem good to have to have had, but to me, they distract from the work.  You know, little things.  Business meeting in the morning.  We have had a good year financially so far, even though we experienced some strain early on with three large vet. bills.

I researched bird netting for our orchard.  And decided, I think, to ride out this year and see how much predation we have from birds.  Might decide to cover one tree as an experiment.  The stuff’s not cheap, clumsy and not durable.

Did the carrots and the beets planting in the am, plus the chard and kale harvest.  Wandered around on the internet trying to find a gift for Jon and Jen’s 9th anniversary.  9th!  Finally found the French restaurant they used for the groom’s dinner.  Gift card.

None of this stuff takes a lot of time by itself, but clump them together and a day’s gone by.

Still picking up quotes…

The more powerful and original a mind, the more it will incline towards the religion of solitude.

-Aldous Huxley, novelist (1894-1963)

“Art is a jealous mistress.”
R.W. Emerson
“A sage is the instructor of a hundred ages.”
R.W. Emerson
“I’d say go to hell, but I never want to see you again.”
Sylvia Plat
“The rose is a rose,
And was always a rose.
But the theory now goes
That the apple’s a rose.”
Robert Frost
“It would be possible to describe everything scientifically, but it would make no sense; it would be without meaning, as if you described a Beethoven symphony as a variation of wave pressure.”
Albert Einstein
“An eye can threaten like a loaded and levelled gun, or can insult like hissing or kicking; or, in its altered mood, by beams of kindness, it can make the heart dance with joy.”
R.W. Emerson
“A man should learn to detect and watch that gleam of light which flashes across his mind from within.”
R.W. Emerson
“If you truly love Nature, you will find beauty everywhere.”
Vincent Van Gogh
“Why do we love the sea?
It is because it has some potent power to make us think things we like to think.”
Robert Henri
“And yet I demand
that your heart survive
on its own,
belonging only to itself,
whole, entirely whole,
and workable
in its dark cavern under your ribs.”
Anne Sexton – The Complete Poems
“At least half of your mind is always thinking, I’ll be leaving; this won’t last. It’s a good Buddhist attitude. It prepares you for life as a Buddhist. If I were a Buddhist, this would be a great help. As it is, I’m just sad.”
“Perhaps this is what it means to go mad: to be emptied and to be aware of the emptiness.”
“Freedom is nothing but a chance to be better.”
Albert Camus

Mr. Toad and the Rubber Pond

Summer                                                                         Solstice Moon

Fall beets and carrots in the ground.  Mid-summer chard and kale harvested along with some beets.  The nectar flow is on for the bees, the harvest flow has begun for the kitchen.  It’s steady now until we close down the garden.

Outside we have a wide rubber bucket we use for outdoor water for the dogs in the summer.  At least that’s our intended use of it.  Both Gertie and Vega prefer to see it as a doggy bath cum air conditioner.  So, we fill it up.  They empty it according to Archimedes and his bathtub.

Today, when I went to fill it up once again, I noticed a toad in the water. He’d jumped into the pond, but it’s nearly straight up and down sides were far too high for him to climb out.  I gave him the ride of his life, slowly lifting the water level until he scrambled up on the edge.  After achieving his goal, he sat there, surveying, no doubt wondering what caused the water level in this pond to change so quickly.

 

 

Working At Home

Summer                                                                      Solstice Moon

The revision of Missing has picked up some momentum.  The Loft class canceled and I’m not doing Latin in the late afternoon, so I can capture all that time.  Staying in the flow with it helps a lot, too, as does having gotten into the second half of the manuscript.  I have a clear vision now of what I want to change and how to guide the narrative, so it’s easier than at first where I decided on material to cut out, changes in certain characters and storylines.

Today is the beginning of the second phase of the gardening season, fall planting.  I’ll put in kale, chard, carrots and beets which we’ll harvest in September.   This has been a satisfying season already and appears likely to continue.  Foliar sprays and drenches tomorrow.