Rhythm

Walpurgisnacht                                                             Beltane Moon

As our northern European friends threw the wood on the bonfires and stripped off their clothes, I planted 100 green onions, 6 asparagus crowns and two rosemary plants.  Tomorrow morning I’ll dig up the potato bed and toss in some composted manure.

In this time between spring and mid-fall my life has a rhythm dictated in part by the weather.  Today I checked the bees and planted because this morning’s paper predicted thunderstorms tomorrow.  Now they predict afternoon which leaves some morning time available for digging potato beds.

When it rains and storms, I’ll do Latin and read.  As the summer progresses, I will move my outside work earlier and earlier in the day to avoid the heat and the direct rays of the sun.  I have a delicate Celtic skin that burns easily.  Kate has a Norwegian cover that laughs at the sun. Except for the heat part.

Who knows?  I might throw some chard and carrots in the soil tomorrow, too.  We’ll see what the weather says.

 

Conference World

Spring                                                            Beltane Moon

 

An odd afternoon.  Drove into Minneapolis, walked a good ways through a skyway connecting the Leamington ramp to the Minneapolis Convention Center, a lonely walk on a Sunday, got my assignment for the American Association of Museums, walked back up 2nd Avenue to the Crown Plaza Hotel and sat for four hours greeting people attending the the AAM conference.

Not many requests for help, but a few.  Mostly solved with, “Yes, it leaves every 15 minutes right there.”  or “Go out the door, turn right and keep going.”

The day was raw, a Minnesota spring day, chilly for those folks from southern climes.  And cloudy.

The conference program bruits the statistic about number of theatre seats and New York City.  And our world class museums.  Didn’t say anything about the Minnesota Orchestra or the St. Paul Chamber Orchestra though I would have.

Back home, wondering why I’d agreed to do this bit.  I get a free day attendance at the conference and I may go.  Sounds like the exhibition hall might be worth seeing.  And the bookstore of course.

Recalled my conference going days.  Hotel rooms, meetings with round tables and chairs with cloth and shaped aluminum, rushed gatherings in the  hall, plotting, making our move.  Conference behavior, where the momentary becomes urgent and the world away dissolves in the fantasy realm of significance among like minded folks.

Later they will get on planes and wonder what happened in Minneapolis.  That was 2012.  Right?

What Now?

Spring                                                                Beltane Moon

Now what?  First draft put to bed.  In Kate’s hands now.

Kate asked how I was doing this morning during our business meeting.  I’m not an immediate answer to that sort of question kind of guy.  So, I paused, reflected.

“I always knew I would mature late,” I said.

Long ago I read a monograph on the development of people in various fields.  The longest was the philosopher/theologian, somewhere in the 50’s.  Since I’ve battered my through more than one field, I figured I’d be later.

“With Greg (Latin tutor) asking me to collaborate on the commentary (Ovid’s Metamporphoses) and the completion of Missing’s first draft, I’m feeling like I may be hitting my maturity at last.”

I’m beginning to feel grown up, as if I’ve retrieved my birthright from the convoluted labyrinth of my life.  This is not, interestingly, about achievement, but about individuation, about becoming who I am and who I will be.

“So,” I told Kate, “I’m feeling pretty good.  Not jump up and down, yippee good, I’m too northern European for that, but pretty good.”

That’s how I am this morning.

Later

Spring                                                           Beltane Moon

There is, too, always a let down after finishing a first draft.  All that time, writing novels for most of us takes at least 9 months, sometimes years, and stepping away feels like losing a friend, a close friend with whom you’ve hours of very intimate time.  Not there yet, but it’ll hit me tomorrow or Monday.

 

Also, the upside.  Staying with it.  Hefting the printed pages of the draft itself, a physical embodiment of the inside, the mind.  Having some free time, or, rather, time to do other things, things perhaps set aside while focusing on the writing.  In my case that will be reading, reading a number of books I have that I want to use in the Reimagining work.

Not sure where I’ll start.  Maybe that one on Emergence.

More morning time on Latin, too.  Accelerate my work over these next few months, get my proficiency up.

Then, too.  Digging, hive inspections, weed pulling, chain saw work.  Outdoor time.

 

Novel Endings and Art

Spring                                                   Beltane Moon

Still reading Missing, catching up to the end, so I can write it.  That’s an amazing aspect of writing a novel.  I can read what I’ve written so far and I can decide how it resolves.  Of course, the entire corpus before the end represents limits on that ending, it’s not entirely open, yet there is a plasticity to it, a fungibility that is mine to shape.

Then into the Minneapolis Convention center for two hours of volunteer training for my four shift on Sunday.  Some big museum association is in town and all us museum volunteer types were solicited to help out.  I said yes.  I’m still trying to recall just why.

After that training, I drove the short distance to the Minneapolis Institute of Arts since I had a 7 pm Sports Show public tour.  As I approached the museum, the streets had cars parked everywhere.  There was a stream of people going in and out of the museum.  On a Thursday night?  Not a third Thursday.

Then it hit me.  I’d taken a substitute tour on the opening Thursday night of Art in Bloom.  OMG!  There were no takers for the Sports Show tour, not a big surprise.  The people watching was great though.  Lots of women in very, very short skirts.  I mean practically non-buttock covering.  Men rolling their eyes as their wives exclaimed.  It was a sub-cultural moment.

Glad to be home.

“I don’t like the idea of “understanding” a film. I don’t believe that rational understanding is an essential element in the reception of any work of art. Either a film has something to say to you or it hasn’t. If you are moved by it, you don’t need it explained to you. If not, no explanation can make you moved by it.”
Federico Fellini

Legislature Lurches

Spring                                                                      Beltane Moon

The legislature lurches toward adjournment, up ending decades of environmental legislation as it goes, e.g.  permitting relaxation, a transfer of school trust lands out of the DNR’s purview (about 50% of land currently under their management), a probable wolf season.

A major reason for the bad outcomes (from my point of view) is the legislature’s focus on three big issues:  Viking stadium, a bonding bill and the Republican tax legislation.  These are the issues with which the governor has engaged and around which he has used his leverage in negotiations.  Our issues have not risen to the top of any of these debates.

This session, my third as chair of the Sierra Club’s legislative committee, is my last and I don’t like going out on this note, but there you are.  The next big target for all environmental activists has to be the 2012 elections where a concerted effort will be made to change control of both chambers of the legislature.

The ebb and flow of political fortunes, effected as always by many factors outside anyone’s direct control–economy, world military engagements, current social issue orientations–will give us a favorable climate at some point.  We need to work to make that point the 2013-4 legislative session.

Spring                                                           Beltane Moon

This am read the last chunk of Missing, getting back into the flow.  I’ll start writing tomorrow morning.  Close.

Lunch with Stefan today.  We’ve honored each other’s creativity for a long time and did it again today.  Felt good.

 

The Humanities. Yeah.

Spring                                                         Beltane Moon

“Reminding us that “professor” means someone professing a faith, Delbanco exhorts us to keep the etymology alive: “Surely this meaning is one to which we would still wish to lay claim, since the true teacher must always be a professor in the root sense of the word — a person undaunted by the incremental fatigue of repetitive work, who remains ardent, even fanatic, in the service of his calling.” ” Stanley Fish, “The Case for the Liberal Arts.  Again.”

It has been a while since the last impassioned plea to see things clear, at least those things important to a liberal arts education.  To see them clear and to embrace them as important, even necessary elements of an education.

In the days since college its impacts still effect me on a daily, even hourly basis.  Here are a couple of examples from my freshmen year.  And the key to them both was the professor.

The first and maybe most important impact came in the sheer joy of learning, a joy I didn’t grasp or even experience in high school.  Two courses at Wabash gave me a jump start.

CC, or Contemporary Civilization, required of all freshmen, started at the beginning of human history and, over two semesters, brought us up to the present.  The professor, a man whose name I have forgotten, gave lectures that were narratives, heroes and villains, fools and knaves who blinked on and off as our species made its way from the past until today.  His lecture on town versus gown tensions in the middle ages was so famous among Wabash men that some would return for it each year.

The second class, again a two semester course, an Introduction to Philosophy, was taught by J. Harry Cotton.  J. Harry wore tweed, smoked a pipe as he taught, a pipe with a paper wrapped plug of tobacco, and often rattled off paragraphs of Plato or Aristotle in Greek, finishing with a flourish on the black board, pointing out the intricacies of denotation and connotation.

CC showed me that history was exciting, that I could expect it to be not only illuminating but also interesting.

But Intro to Philosophy.  Ah. That one peeled back the entire cultural project of late 50’s, early 1960’s middle america and laid it bare.  I could see its sinews and its ligaments; its veins and arteries.  And more.  It was possible to critique it, to create a new way of understanding the world.  The only thing required was the mind and the courage to engage.

In fact, it went deeper than that.  The intellectual content of my small town faith simply didn’t stand up to the rigors of philosophical thought.  When you march back through the argument from design to find yourself at the point of unmoved mover, it is possible, even urgently required, to ask one more question.  What made the unmoved mover?  Oh.

So, there was this liberation, this vast opening, a vault of stars under which I could begin to stand as my own man, not a man made by tradition and custom, but a man made by saying yes and saying no.  Philosophy, for that reason, has been at the center of my life ever since.

See the Heads?

Spring                                                            Beltane Moon

Coming north on Highway 10 (or east, I can never figure it out and I’ve lived up here 18 years) just before the big Lowe’s store, it’s no longer unusual to see cars parked along the side of the road, drivers clomping out through the high grass, camera with a big telephoto lens in hand.  They’re headed toward a dead tree with a big clump of sticks in a high fork.

Kate told me she saw heads there a month or so ago.  I began to look, too, and finally saw a bald eagle circling the nest, coming in for a landing, presumably with food for the young’uns.  I’ve seen a head or two though I’ve never been able to suss out whether they were chicks or adults.

We hunger for peeks into the wild world, a personal glimpse of the life and times of creatures that live among us, but we rarely see.  Over the last 18 years Kate and I have a great horned owl hooting at night in our woods.  I’ve seen him/her once, it’s giant wingspan remarkable, yet hardly ever observed.

We have opossum, raccoon, woodchuck, rabbit, deer, coyote, skinks, snakes, frogs, pileated woodpeckers, bald eagles, great blue herons, egrets, too.  These last three we see from time to time, usually in flight, though the egrets are often there, serpentine necks ready to dip suddenly into the water.  The rest, almost never.

Around Christmas tree three or four years ago, back when I still fed the birds, a opossum took to visiting the bird feeder around midnight.  I happened on him one night and checked back frequently after that.  His small pink paws looked almost like human hands and I delighted in watching him do his opossum thing.  Why?  Because it was a glimpse of a neighbor, a close neighbor, one who shared the very land I claim to own, but whom I rarely–up till then, never–saw.

This takes me back to the discussion of mystery I had here a few weeks back.  We do not need to imagine a world beyond the one to which we have ready access; there is a large, unimaginably large world shrouded in mystery that lives near us, with us, within us.  Take the billions of one-celled entities that share our bodies, help us live our lives in return for some benefit derived from the eco-system that is our body.  A mystery, certainly.

Or the baby opossum I found huddled up far inside a dead tree, doing what all prey does when confronted by snarling predators–Vega and Rigel–hiding in an inaccessible location. If Vega and Rigel hadn’t been obsessively interested in this tree, I’d never have known the opossum was there.

The morels that visited us once 18 years ago, never to return.  Or, at least never to be found.  A mystery.  This is a revelation to us, the way for us to an original relation with the universe.  And, it’s in our backyard.