A bit of babble flow after Kerouac

Fall                                                                     Samhain Moon

listen the quiet surround me buzzing in my ears a bit of hard drive back up whir and shift that oceanic feeling of the yard and teh sky and the north behind me a sense that i Don’t sit here but everywhere, a point, not a line, no particular place though planted here I could also be there where the lift bridge rises and the fog horn sounds or where the Mississippi babbles small brookish out of the old Lake Itasca where Schoolcraft became a student of the head waters which water the head and make us all wet, yet hydrated, not dried out but nourished and ready to grow, growing up in this northern land where the sun rises and sets half way to the north pole where we know we are closer to the north pole than the rest of America below us in particular, for example, Georgia with those peach and pecan orchards and the stars and bars and the sound of NASCAR revving, internal combustion sound music, not annoying sound, but beautiful, wound up and spinning around the track we go up to Washington DC where the white and the marble and the monuments and the documents, the talking and collaborating, the glad-hands and false smiles mean work, work of the people.  Work.

Clarity

Fall                                                             Samhain Moon

Eye doc today said I had aniscoria.  Unequal pupils.  It means, in this instance, that my eyes don’t work together too well while reading, causing the type to float a bit, creating stress when I read a regular book rather than my kindle.  On my kindle I can adjust the size of the type to compensate.  Not been a problem until recently though the aniscoria is longstanding.  So, a pair of reading glasses.  Necessary because my eyes no longer adjust for each others differences.  And they used to.  I’m looking forward to clear reading.

I go to an ophthalmologist twice a year due to an unusual retinal nerve.  Each time one of them looks in my eye they go, “Oh, my. Let’s see how this looked last time.” Always the same.  So far.  For over 25 years.

These bi-annual or so visits, next week’s the dentist, the first week of November a colonoscopy, some people see as a nuisance.  I see these routines in the same way I see preventive maintenance on the car.  See a problem ahead of time and it’s easier to fix.  I can’t say I like them or dislike them.  They’re like eating your peas.

(Will Eisner)

Most of us have some quirk here or there that requires professional attention.  We’re not clones and each of us is unique.  A former internist said we were, to a certain extent, all black boxes.  That is, our personal version of humanity deviates to a greater or lesser degree from the norm.  Most of the time I’m happier with greater.  In these matters though…

A Different Country

Fall                                                                      Samhain Moon

Flying from the heat of southern Georgia to the rainy chill of the northern exurbs of the Twin Cities gives a sense of the size of this country and its diversity.  Being in Georgia, in so many ways, felt like being in a different country.  It was hot.  Peaches and pecans graced billboards and grocery store shelves.  The Walking Dead seemed only a hedge away off Highway 75.  The military and African-Americans were visible in numbers.  Southern cooking was not a cookbook, but a way of life.  The stars and bars flew on pick-up trucks, rusted or not, with dog or not.  And there was, lingering there in the heated air, a faint rebel yell, a sign the Civil War (an oxymoron I just realized) was not over.

The rain and news of frost gladden my heart as do the russet and gold in our woods, the leaf pocked yard.  The fallow time has begun and this gardener, for one, is glad.  It was a wonderful, but busy growing season.

Good to be home.

Lines from “Howl”

Fall                                                                           Samhain Moon

Never read it or, if I did, forgot it.  Studying it now in ModPo.  Howl has some outrageously good lines.  Here are a few:

I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving
hysterical naked,
dragging themselves through the negro streets at dawn looking for an angry
fix,

 

run down
by the drunken taxicabs of Absolute Reality

 

who barreled down the highways of the past journeying to the each other’s
hotrod-Golgotha jail-solitude watch or Birmingham jazz incarnation,

 

the madman bum and angel beat in Time, unknown, yet putting down here
what might be left to say in time come after death,
and rose reincarnate in the ghostly clothes of jazz in the goldhorn shadow
of the band and blew the suffering of America’s naked mind for love
into an eli eli lamma lamma sabacthani saxophone cry that shivered
the cities down to the last radio
with the absolute heart of the poem of life butchered out of their own bodies
good to eat a thousand years.

Small Miracles

Fall                                                                   Samhain Moon

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Trip over.  A key reason I dislike our state security apparatus (in addition to the primary one of there being a state security apparatus at all) is its unpredictability and its inscrutability.

My friend Tom Crane, who flies many thousands of miles a year, a pro at the airport dance, observed quite a while back that smaller airports are more restrictive because they see exceptions infrequently and don’t know how to respond to them.  The airport at Lihue, Kauai gave me an early instance of this when they detained me to investigate my DVD player which had already transited, without comment, mainland security.

In Atlanta last night I experienced pre-check screening.  My eligibility for this surprise, a pleasant one (which was a surprise in itself), came at the TSA kiosk for security.  The woman said, “Pre-check screening.”  And pointed.  No explanation.  She pointed toward a roped off section.  A TSA officer opened it for me, provided a cryptic explanation and pointed me toward another roped off area.  No one was there to open it so I had to move the stanchion myself and go around.

In a second line.  Checked again.  The TSA person here looked at my i.d. and my boarding pass, blew out her cheeks for whatever reason and passed me through.  At this point I encountered a miracle.  I passed through security with shoes on, belt on, all objects in my backpack and went through an old style metal detector.  No buzzes, no scans, no dirty looks.  Just straightforward, go on through.  Thanks.  Whoa.

After my experience in Charlotte on Saturday, this highlights the unpredictability of the whole process.  Here’s a note from the TSA website about precheck screening.*  If you read it, you’ll note it says something about pre-flight volunteering.  Nope.  Did not.  A mystery.

Here’s a link about the program and how to access it.

*TSA Pre✓™ How it Works

TSA Pre✓™ is a pre-screening initiative that makes risk assessments on passengers who voluntarily participate prior to their arrival at the airport checkpoint.

TSA Pre✓™ includes U.S. citizens who are select frequent travelers of participating airlines or members of existing Customs and Border Protection (CBP) Trusted Traveler programs including Global Entry, NEXUS, and SENTRI programs. Canadian citizens who are members of NEXUS are also qualified to participate in TSA Pre✓™. In addition, passengers 12 and younger are allowed through TSA Pre✓™ lanes when traveling with eligible parent or guardian.

Eligible participants use dedicated TSA Pre✓™ lanes at participating airports for screening benefits which could include no longer removing the following items:

  • Shoes
  • 3-1-1 compliant bag from carry-on
  • Laptop from bag
  • Light outerwear/jacket
  • Belt

If TSA determines a passenger is eligible for expedited screening, information is embedded in the barcode of the passenger’s boarding pass. TSA scans the barcode at designated checkpoints and the passenger may be able to receive expedited screening.

Rant about State Security

Fall                                                                   Samhain Moon

Bon Aire, Ga.  Up early yesterday to make the US Airways flights from Minneapolis to Atlanta.  Unremarkable except for a TSA officer in the jetway in Charlotte while loading for the Atlanta flight. Travel brings out an ornery side of me, well, air travel.  So, when I got to the TSA officer I said (something it would be better to have said in my head), “Just another way to make travel annoying?”  He said, “Another layer of security. And I’m doing it for free.”  Me, (again something better kept in my head), “I don’t care.”

Might not have been so vocal but I’ve been reading Dave Eggers new book, The Circle.  This is a thinly disguised critique of Google and online culture.  In particular it attacks the insistent need for transparency, for personal knowledge spread out over the web and instantly available for all.  It cranked up my already strong sense of personal privacy, created in part by my introverted nature but also by my political stance far to the left of the norm.  I’d also had my first taste of Foucault in the last week which, like the Eggers, lays bare the unintended consequences of otherwise well meaning systems.

In the instance of airport security for example I realized we have been trained for submission as we line up passively, wait for someone to check our tickets and i.d.  We then take off clothing, even our belts, allow our bodies to be probed by x-ray and agree to be judged by ill trained, low paid TSA personnel.

This is, ironically, an antidote for the toxin of terrorism. Those who would take our liberty have, through the judo of fear, managed to convince us to take our liberty away through our on own efforts.  Security, in exactly the degree to which we apply it, reduces our freedom and reinforces fear.

Training for submission is the opposite of democracy, yet it seems to appear everywhere these days.  The NSA debate now swirling has a large component of I don’t care if they watch. Well, I care.  I care because they care to sweep my data up.  Like the TSA the expectation is that we will embrace this is training in submission to those who know better than we do.  Well, I don’t think they know better and I’m not willing to share my data unasked and with no safeguards other than “Trust us.”

Anyhow.

Hubris Masquerading as Certainty

Fall                                                                       Samhain Moon

Read an article on how to respond to the shutdown.  Talk about it, the article said.  So I will.

1.  How can a Republican branded political cult conspire to bring the world’s most vibrant economy to its knees? Pretty easily apparently.  By easily I mean with no conscience for the real world fall out from their racist (stop this black president) and poorly conceived analysis.  The Affordable Health Care Act is not socialist.  I wish it were.  But it just isn’t.  It’s a market based, Republican conceived, Massachusetts advanced plan that goes about 1/3 of the way toward what Dave Durenberger (no commie) calls an American health care system.

2.  Appropriation of the word patriot.  While driving yesterday, I passed a guy with a sign on his car that read Premier House Inspections.  Taped to his back window was a red white and blue sign that read Tea Party Patriot.  The implication of the word patriot here, just like the wearing of American flag decals and the Love it or Leave it bumper stickers of the Vietnam era, represents a noxious form of civic self-righteousness.  We alone love America. We alone understand the Constitution.  We alone have the self-anointed right to do whatever we want in the pursuit of our pure and clean ideas.

No.  Arrogation of  virtue by claiming it is the same as a criminal saying, “I’m innocent.” As a pedophile claiming, “But I love children.” As an evangelical’s “You must be born again.” Bold letters on must in this sentence.  Virtue is not known by words but by deeds.

Threatening the economy and a system of government (which is in the constitution) that has served us well is not patriotism.  It is hubris masquerading as certainty.

3.  On this last point about our system of government.  Holding legislation hostage to matters necessary for the continuation of the government’s functioning violates the constitutional separation of powers, the contract with the American people who expect their congress to resolve public disputes, not create them as well as the tradition of our form of governance–tradition being a hallmark favorite of conservatives by definition.

4.  Final point.  Conservative.  I find a lot in the conservative philosophical position to commend it.  Retaining that which works is a key to civilization’s progress.  Not the only key, surely, but definitely one of them.  The world of religion and art, both containers for tradition, have been important to me my whole life, in particular for the reservoir of human wisdom and insight they preserve.  Likewise the conservative insistence on justifying a break with what’s working makes sense to me.  To paraphrase Carl Sagan extraordinary measures require extraordinary rationales.

The conservative-liberal dialectic is a necessary driver of human social life and it is a dialectic.  That is, the juice is in the tension between the two, the vibration that occurs when make it new, let’s just get on with solving the problem confronts we’ve always done it this way, let’s stop and think about it.  That tension is a good thing.

Radical positioning on either end of the dialectic snaps the tension and destroys the useful energy created as these opposing inclinations tussle.  Doing that requires an extraordinary rationale.  Not liking a President and wanting to stop legislation already law are not extraordinary save in one regard, their level of stupidity.

In St. Paul

Fall                                                                      Samhain Moon

Sheepshead.  I had some good cards tonight, but mostly not.  Made some hands, missed leaf tea bowlothers.  A streak here, but not one I’d prefer to continue.

(This Sung dynasty tea bowl is one of my favorite objects in the MIA’s collection.)

Came into St. Paul early and went over to the Tea Store on Cleveland.  It is near the theatre with Vina on one side and on the other the site of the place we rented videos when we lived on Edgcumbe Road.

I was in search of a tea spoon.  No, really.  I wanted a measure for the chinese tea so I can become more regular in the amounts of tea I use.  They had that.  I also bought some puer tea, tea formed into a cake and chipped off with a puer knife, then steeped.  Seemed interesting and it’s a type of tea I’ve not tried.  I also picked up some more white tea, which I’ve come to enjoy.

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It was fun being back in the Highland neighborhood, a place I enjoyed living.  A lot of interesting shops, a great grocery store.

Bill and I had supper at Pad Thai and shook our heads at the Tea Party.  We both find ideological blinders a poor way to run a political party and no way at all to run a government.

Expert or Master

Fall                                                                           Samhain Moon

Moving fast this week.  Still working outside, in particular the orchard and broadcast fertilizer.  Two MOOCs presented a lot of reading.  Adorno and Horkheimer, Foucault x2, poems by poets who challenged modernism:  communists, harlem renaissance, Frost and the Formalists.  Finished up Loki in Scandinavian Mythology.  Assessing four essays for ModPo.  11 verses so far in Ovid.  Enough things to do, but not too many.

Been thinking about that learning curve graph I posted a couple of days ago.  It is, I suppose, a graph of mastery, a graph of, according to Malcolm Gladwell, 10,000 hours of work.  Not sure about the time frame in hours.  Seems a bit facile to me.  By that measure I suppose I could say I’m a master reader, a master politician and maybe a master gardener. Probably a master student.  Still seems inadequate, both as a term and as a process.

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I like the graph better.  Steps.  Progress.  That makes sense to me.  Not hours. By that measure I would say I am an expert reader, perhaps an expert student.  So, I’ve become expert, not in a field or a craft, but in the tools of learning.  Worse things to focus on.

Modern

Fall                                                                            Samhain Moon

Caught up with docent friend Allison Thiel today.  We had lunch at Gather, bison burger for me, fish taco for her, discussed MOOCs, Gertrude Stein, our boys.  Her LA son has a new bar underway, part of the craft brewing scene and it will have brewery on site soon. Her Chicago son has his MLS (master of library science) in sight.

After lunch we toured Claus Oldenburg, the early years.  He used what he called “anti-art materials”, the stuff of everyday: cardboard, burlap, soft plastic to portray the stuff of everyday.  He collected right angle objects, too, which he called Ray Guns.  A tiny museum in the show showcases his collection.

There is a soft droopy toilet, a human sized fan in black shiny droopy material, a cardboard wall switch the size of a door.  Another museum within the show featured small objects, everyday objects again, clothespins and bottle openers, for example displayed in a curving layout.  This was a large collection, larger than the ray guns.

The roots of pop art are squarely in the domain of modernism.  Anything can be the subject matter of art:  urinals, wall switches, fans, food models.  Make it new meant stepping outside the old artistic traditions to shape words or paint or plastic in a new way, or to use new material altogether like cardboard, burlap, found objects.  Focus on the fragment rather than the whole:  a toilet out of a bathroom, a light switch too big for a wall, a mouse, but just the head made out of metal and twisted.  Oldenburg’s project made a good deal more sense to me as a result of the two MOOCs I’m taking right now.

This is an interesting show, an intellectually fascinating show and an aesthetically bold show, but I found it, as I do much modern and contemporary art, strangely bloodless.  The emotional impact fades into irony and satire, making me go, huh? rather than wow or oh.

As I wrote this, I thought of the Nature Theater of Oklahoma and how moving it was. Probably I’m not seeing enough.  Need to look and experience more.