Missing Gone.

Samhain                                                          Thanksgiving Moon

It’s off to the copy editor.  Missing is gone.  Now in the hands of another.  The first of many, I hope.  Whew.  Wipes forehead of 2+ years of ink-stained effort.  Well, digital disappearing ink, of course.

Now then.  Forward with Loki’s Children using Dramatica.  Forward with Lycaon’s tale in Ovid.  Forward into that garage.  An outside task for the colder days.

Then I’ll get started on pruning the forest.  First up there, clearing the new beeyard.  That will get the woodpile built up and drying begun for 2015.  Any splitting will wait until January when frozen sap will help the process along.

 

 

 

Missing 5.0

Samhain                                                    Thanksgiving Moon

Missing 5.0 is done.  I’ll compile it tomorrow, make it into a word doc and ship it by e-mail to Quickproofs.  I’ve arranged a payment mechanism with them.  When that’s done, I’ll review Bob’s work, make changes.

The next step is getting it out to agents and I already have a good list, though I plan to look at more in the coming week.  E-mail makes the whole process so much easier now.

If you can imagine me with two fists in the air, a slight smile on my face, well, that’s the way I feel right now.  This is not a perfect draft, it still has flaws, but it’s the best draft I’ve created by far.  All the beta readers, all the revising has made it stronger and more coherent.  This is the right time to let go of it and see how it does on its own.

That also means that I’ll crank up my Dramatica learning this week since I want to use it in writing Loki’s Children.  More Latin and research into the Norse myths.  Enough to keep me busy while Kate’s away.

Evolution Day

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November 24, 1859, The Origin of the Species,Charles Darwin‘s revolutionary text on humans, animals, and everything in between, was published…many Darwin disciples informally refer to this date as Evolution Day (and celebrate accordingly).   Lapham Qtly.

 

On Evolution Day it seems appropriate to show my progress toward what I call the full Darwin. Here are the two Charleses side by side.  Still a ways to grow.  (It’s a selfie!)

Charles-Darwin

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Me and My Gal

Samhain                                                     Thanksgiving Moon

May the Thanksgiving Moon shine over me and my gal.  She’s set out on Federal Highways, Interstatials to Denver, the back of the truck packed like Santa’s sleigh, only in this case it would be Tevya’s wagon with dreidels decorating its wooden sides.  As always, I travel with her as she stays home with me, our lives entwined, sometimes entangled.  This sounds bad in a psychobabble way, I know, but it shows merely and oh so much the degree to which we have become partners, not dependent on each other, no, but relying  on each other.  Love.  What it is.

As she drives south in Minnesota, then into Iowa, heading right at Des Moines and left at the moon, across the bridge across the wide Missouri and the often shallow Platte outside of Omaha, past the home of the Cornhuskers in Lincoln and under the silly arch for the pioneers somewhere near Kearney, she carries us along.  We are now the older generation, the ones closest to the final passage.  We are Grandma and Grandpop, bearing responsibility for our family as we both wish our families had done for us.

I’m thankful for classical music and seasonal subscriptions.  If the St. Paul Chamber Orchestra had been locked out, we never would have met.  Strange.  How many couples will go undiscovered with the pitiful display the Minnesota Orchestra has put on these last few months?

So much in our lives happens by chance.  No intentionality behind it.  Life shows up and we either greet it or miss it, that’s the way it is.  Opening ourselves to the fates, who weave our lives on some misty mountaintop somewhere, makes this the adventure of a lifetime.

 

Absence

Samhain                                                    Thanksgiving Moon

Driving home from the grocery store today I went past the street down which Dick Mestrich used to live.  Used to live in the sense that he died a couple of years ago.  It felt like there was a hole there at the end of the street, a place where my knowing went and came back with a false report, an absence.

It led me to think what it would be like if I still lived in my hometown of Alexandria, a town of around 5,000.  I knew people on most streets, classmates, friends of classmates, friends of my parents, business owners, people from church.  By now, at age 66, I can drive past many homes where my knowing would report an absence.  Jim Ragsdale out on Harrison Street.  Pancreatic Cancer.  Richard Lawson and Richard Porter out south on Harrison, Alexandria’s main street.  Richard Lawson from injuries sustained in Vietnam, Richard Porter from a fast-moving disease.  Sherry Basset.  Dennis Sizelove, diedClass of 1965 Float (2) in Vietnam.  Even Karl Kyle the owner of the funeral home that sat diagonally from our house and where my mom’s funeral was held.  Mom and Dad, of course.

As we get older the list gets longer, places where our knowing no longer functions, a hole in our social fabric.

Regina Schmidt, too.  Here.  Moon.  I’m aware that this is how it has been and how it will be.  Death changes life even for the living.  Why this came up for me today, I don’t know. But it did.

One more thing.  It feels ok.  Death taught me its deeply personal lesson long, long ago when my mother died.  I’ve known since then that life is a precious gift, one that can be lost with no forewarning.  This life, this unexplainable awareness and mobility and love, is ours on loan.  The universe wants its elements back, has another use for them.

This holiday I’m thankful for their organization in myself and the people I know, and in the people I’ve known.  A deeply weird opportunity, life.

The Seasonal Turn

Samhain                                            Thanksgiving Moon

Waiting now on the soil to freeze so I can lay down mulch.  One of the odder parts of gardening, putting the blanket on after the bed goes cold.  Planting garlic in September is another oddity.  Both make sense, but they are counter-intuitive.  Mulch over bulbs, especially newly planted bulbs, guards against frost-heaves in the spring, displacing bulbs, throwing them closer to the surface than desired.  Garlic, like tulips and crocus and daffodils, needs a cold winter to prepare itself for the spring.  They’re both fall planting.

(Anatomy_of_a_Frost_Heave)

Getting the mail from our mailbox out on the road requires dressing up.  I put on my down coat for the journey a moment ago.  Watch cap and gloves, too.  My jeans let the cold right through to my legs, but legs are hardier than feet and torso and hands, more willing to put up with the chill.  The top of this head, long a follicle desert, also demands covering. In the summer sun and the winter cold.  Burning or freezing.

We look outside at the garden, the orchard, the bees.  There is some winter interest there, grasses and flower stems, the bare trees and in our particular case the evergreen cedars, our planted white pines and norway pines, colorado blue spruce, but we admire them from within, no longer carried out among them with trowels and spades.  Our work out there is, for the most part, finished until April.

The turn of work goes inward, work we can do at home.  Kate will sew, do needlepoint, quilt.  We both will read and watch movies.  I’ll write, translate, take a class or two.

Waiting also for snow and the transformation of our world.  It’s one of the delights of living here.

Holiseason Rising

Samhain                                                      Thanksgiving Moon

Can you feel the holiseason spirit rising?  I can.  Presents for Hanukkah lie on the bed ready to go in the truck for their ride to Denver.  Joseph’s coming to Minnesota.  The Byerly’s order will come today.  I’m headed out to Festival for the last of the list.

(Lyon)

Kate’s packed, audio books ready.  Cooler to fill.  Then Grandma will head over the plains and through Nebraska.

Meanwhile I’m closing in on Missing 5.0.  The holiday week should see that put to bed.  Celebration all round.

Laying in Supplies

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Ovid got some attention this morning.  Jupiter’s pretty mad at Lycaon.  Mad enough to destroy all of humankind. There’s a flood coming.

Missing in the afternoon.  Adding description, sprucing up the defenses of Hilgo, the Winter Realm’s port city on the Winter Sea and describing the terrain advantages in general for the Winter Realm.

Yesterday’s push left me dry today.  Not as on, but then yesterday was an exception.  The normal is plug alone, plug along, plug along.  Like today.  No magic, just work.  Now, the work was fun. Yes.  But not inspired.  Most often not inspired.

Kate’s been to the library for audio books.  Nebraska is interesting depending on the author you choose.  I’ve been laying in supplies and will make a final sally forth tomorrow to Festival for the last batch.  It’s odd, but being without a car for a week doesn’t daunt me at all.  My work is here and there’s plenty of room around to get outside.  With the food delivery service from Byerly’s I might be able to last quite a time.  As long as there are no doggie or human emergencies.  I have plans in place for those if they occur.

It will be like being a hermit in my own home.  A hermit with three dogs, a computer and an HD TV.